somewhere over the rainbow

Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
There's a land that i've heard of once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true

Someday i wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you find me

Somewhere over the rainbow blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't i

Somewhere over the rainbow blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't i

If happy little blue birds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why, can't i
it's christmas eve... and i woke up wif this song :) it's christmas... and in spite of all the bad things that happen... we still have hope and joy because Jesus first gave us a reason to have hope and joy :)

1 more day to christmas

2 more days

2 days to christmas...

heh... don't know wat else to say...

what's it all about?

oh... how right i was... and how wrong...
everything seems to be going wrong this christmas...
exams, PA stuff to prepare, youth camp... oh, no... that's the good stuff...
then there's mei having problems, juliang admitted to hospital...

where's the joy, hope and the yuletide good cheer of the season man...
what's christmas all about if everything starts to fall apart... what's it all about really?

and then... and then i remember that the first christmas happened under pretty much similar circumstances...
no place to stay, birth pains, stink of the manger... oh, no... that's the good stuff...
thousands and thousands of babies dying cos' of a paranoid governor, a reign of terror where you have to hide your baby from everyone...running to another state cos' of dreams...God having to give up eternal power for 30 years of lowly human life starting christmas...

christmas wasn't about joy, happiness and yuletide cheer whatever that may mean...
i suppose then... it's about finding hope where there seems to be none...
hmm... then i suppose this christmas isn't that bad after all... cos' there's always hope...
i hope...

3 days to christmas

christmas

i just realized how depressing the past few posts have been...
heheh, christmas is coming... how bad can it be actually?
and everyone's back.. leena's back, wong family's back... so how can it be depressing?
i'm gonna enjoy this christmas... hopefully :P...
screw EOS... christmas is more important rite? :)

4 days to christmas...

letting go

sometimes i think it would be so easy for me just to forget about exams and enjoy the holidays...
heh, so much more easier...

of course.. then would come 6 months of regret as i retake sem3... ish... exams during christmas is a very very bad idea...

5 days to christmas

beginning

haih... it's beginning alredi...
the inescapable feeling of church work pulling me away from my books...
heheh... so much to do, so little time... and i haven't been helping by spending almost half the time the past 3 weeks playing...

we're all so screwed... God help us...
is this christmas or what? why do the days seem to get darker the closer it get's to christmas...

6 days to christmas

exams suck

a most depressing thought just occured to me...
what would i do if i failed my sem3...
should i continue my medical studies... or go do something else...what would i do if andrew... hai liang... or some one close to me fails sem3...
i hate being left behind... i hate leaving people behind... i didn't like it in primary school... didn't like it in secondary school and i still don't like it...

exams suck...

9 days to christmas...

8 days to christmas...

7 days to christmas...

yeah, i missed a lot of days cos' my family's back and they're hogging the computer... >_<

home alone

its actually been 3 days alredi...and most people would have announced this at the first possible moment... but anyway i'm home alone for this entire week...
my families away in singapore.. and i'm home alone with the maid and grandfather...
but then again... i know most would jump at the opportunity for this to happen, screaming FREEDOM... but heh, its strange but, yeah... i'm enjoying myself to a certain extent... but after a while you sometimes wish there was more people at home... someone to talk to...

and anyway... after spending one whole day playing computer it DOES get pretty boring... so... in a way it's good cos' i AM supposed to be studying... so, maybe it's for the best...

anyway, i missed yesterday... so

11 days to christmas (yesterday)

10 days to christmas (today)

anger

how do you let someone know you're angry?
is it ever good to get angry?
hmm... today i was really angry... but i didn't let anyone know cos' it was a birthday party and i didn't want to be a killjoy... should i have gone and sulked in a corner... blow up in front of everyone... or just smile and pretend nothing happened...i don't really know why i was angry... maybe it was bcos' we were made to drive around cheras and kl cos' the girls had to choose a place in cheras to eat that no one had gone before... maybe it's bcos' girls don't give directions very well... maybe it's just bcos' i decided to go for a birthday party i very well knew i would be coming back late from...maybe i'm angry cos' no one noticed i was angry... i don't really know who i'm angry wif anyway...

huh... being angry sux... dun feel like studying today...

12 days to christmas

why

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my Daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows
Daddy, please can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry
you said he was stronger than all of those guys
Daddy, please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die?"

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And Daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide

So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for My robe?
This crown of thorns hurts Me more than it shows
Father, please can't You do something?
I know that You must hear My cry
I thought I could handle the cross of this size
Father, remind Me why
Why does everyone want Me to die?
When will I understand why?"

"My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe You in robes of My own
Jesus, this hurts Me much more than You know
But this dark hour I must do nothing
Though I've heard Your unbearable cry
The power in Your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon You'll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below, see the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell You why
She is why You must die"

i don't know if i've posted this before... i first heard it during easter this year... but i'm reminded again during christmas... that Jesus was born to die...