Sunday, October 29, 2006

anti-social

hmm... i don't think of myself generally as an antisocial person...
wah... but lately i've been indulging in antisocial tendencies, bordering on hermit-like..lolz :P
haih... last saturday was invited to a birthday party for timothy... didn't go, cos' wanted to study... truthfully actually in the end didn't study much... ok, make that at all... i got as far as taking out my notes only...
n i'm not joining carolling this year.. haven't played futsal for 2 weeks (oh, but this wan really is bcos' of money problems)... but yeah... seem to be getting hermit-like tendencies...
hmm... have to get up and get out...

Friday, October 27, 2006

andrew's birthday

hmm... andrew's birthday is tomoro... i mean... at the time of publishing this entry, it would be "today" 28/10... umm... andrew is a great friend... it's hard to get another like him...
he's fun to be around... sometimes a bit gullible...helpful, but he's... a good guy.. a really good guy..
but anyway... this post isn't just about andrew... it's about... andrew's birthday..
somehow over the past week i got unknowingly appointed to be "organizer" of andrew's birthday...
anyways... i thought the best way to organize a birthday would be to ask the person we're celebrating... in this case.. andrew...
so he said... don't want present and just go somewhere simple can alredi, like kawan place (Ye Lok Restaurant opposite The Store)...
umm... over a few days, i confirmed and reconfirmed with him... to be quite sure that's what he wanted...
so when i spread the word that there was no present and it was just gonna be a simple celebration.. hmm... response was... mixed to say the least...
but by and large... response was that... Are you sure? no-lah, andrew doesn't deserve something so simple... let's get him a present, let's go somewhere "better"...
not to say that that's bad... i mean... everyone wanted wat's best for andrew and to make him happy... but at a certain point i began thinking... uhh... is this wat YOU want or wat HE wants? how come wat HE wants seems to not really matter...

i realized that sometimes we project our expectations of wat we think is better on to other ppl even though that may not be wat they want...
like birthdays... true.. we try to get wat we think will make that person happy.. but sometimes we forget that what's most important isn't what we think will make him happy but wat the person himself wants..
oh...
and i never realized that organizing birthdays were so troublesome... maybe its partly bcos' ppl like andrew and i are more "straight" and simple minded...

Saturday, October 21, 2006

mooseek n other stuffs

i consider myself a guy with a pretty eclectic taste for music...
my brother loves classical, i think a bit of that rubbed off on me... that's why almost any piece with at least SOME strings or a cool brass part tugs at me... but the best music has to be music with a rich and FILLING(for lack of a better word)...

on the other hand, i listen to a lot of pop.. yeah, the sort you listen to on the radio and everywhere... and there are some songs that are not bad... so yeah, pop kinda appeals to me too... although not in the boyband kinda way (although when bekstritboiz comes on the radio and it's something i like i might find myself humming along)

and lately the music scene worldwide features alot of heavy.. rappish, R&B, hip-hop stuff... hmm... of all genres, this appeals least to me... but still... there are a few songs in this category that... umm... are worth listening to...

oh yeah, i play music in church to... and i think Sister Act rox(i learnt the word eclectic from there)... so gospel, CCM and even hymns appeal to me... but yet, not all... cos' like any other genre... there are... umm... not so good music christian music lah... i mean... all music sung for God glorifies him... but... after the 10th planet shakers and hillsongs piece... umm... i think you know wat i mean...

hmm... let's see... basically i'm the kind of person with no "band" loyalty or anything like that... so i tend to listen to anything and everything... did i mention i love japanese anime music too... some remixes are cool.. i also think that 105.7 is a better radio station than 92.9... i may not agree with the lyrics but eminem has rapped some that is good to hear... OSTs from movies i've watched and liked definitely appeal to me (esp disney :P, i think this is also part of the classical thing from my bro - liking music that is just instrumental and without words)... fort minor lately has come out with some good stuff... daniel powter is super overplayed but, heard once in a while, can be good... oh yeah, Alanis Morisette, Goo goo Dolls, The Cranberries, MLTR, Eric Clapton, James Brown, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Green Day, Nat King Cole, Victor Wooten, L'Arc~en~Ciel, Stevie Wonder, Mary J. Blige, Jewel, Karyn White, Micheal Buble... you see... the problem is that i like a LOT of music... but have no favourites... thus i tire very quickly of listening to the same band/artist...

it's precisely because of this that i don't buy much albums... cos.. yeah, it get's boring... compilations work better.. slightly.. cos' compilations tend to be with the same type of music...
so basically.. i like singles, but not artists... hope you get the idea...

heh, my problem is that i recently aquired a whole load of music... or am going to acquire soon, a whole load of music from a hermit (bit by bit).. well, heh... hopefully i can separate the good from the BEST.. cos' i really don't like to listen to... good music... i only like GREAT stuff... hahah, it's a good problem though :P

oh... i found a cool artist's site Gabeart... i liked drawing dragonball when i was a kid... even now when my mind super wanders i still like to draw a bit... i kinda enjoying getting lost in my own brain..

oh yeah, i'm kinda on raya hols now... that's why i have time to blog abt music n stuff... heh, nice break from medicine =)

Sunday, October 15, 2006

of frens and hermits

heh... my last post was on stress...
so this post... i found out what the best way to beat stress is...

strange, it isn't dotA... i mean, dotA relieves for a while but, i've realized it never lasts, cos' like... after dotA, u still have to go back to study and bcos' of the time you spent on dotA... yadda yadda, cycle repeats itself...

oh yeah, anyways... wat relieves stress is... friends :)...
yah, corny rite... but yeah, for lasting stress relief... nothing beats being able to just talk about... hmm... nothing? or maybe, something?... doesn't really matter... i think it's the talking...
so.. hmm.. actually if i enjoy talking to the wall, that theoretically should cure stress too... heh, don't know... not stressed enuff yet to have psychosis...

oh ya... and hermits make good frens strangely enuff i discovered:P... and they're good backup when like.. you've gotten dumped or have no one to sit with or talk to or have dinner with...
budden, because they're so good "backup", i shouldn't take them for granted and sometimes spend more time with them hermits :>

heh... umm... it's doubtful that anyone will understand wat the second part of this post is talking about... but, it's about hermits... so, who cares... as long as the hermits understand...

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

stress cycle

stress is a viscous cycle...
when you are stressed... wait, no you can't start with being stressed, something has to "stimulate" it...
anyways... when you didn't study because of various reasons... dota, imu activities (besides dota), birthday celebration, church activity... so you get left behind in studies...
when you're left behind in studies, then you get stressed...
when you're stressed, you look for ways to relieve stress, i.e.- dota, imu activities (including dota), birthday celebration, church activity...so you get left behind in studies...
when you're left behind in studies, then you get stressed...
haha... repeat viscous cycle over and over again until nervous breakdown ensues...
then stress level is reset to 0 until recovery occurs...
then repeat cycle from beginning again...

yay... enjoy the stress...