ok... for all practical purposes the only reason, or rather 2 reasons i'm blogging is cos' i just got back to library and i'm looking for excuses not to start studying again... ANDDD... bcos' su chuen dropped by to say that my posts are short... which they are-lah...
ok, i'm so tempted to end this post right here and go look for something else to do...
heheh... eehhhnneeeway...
its not really that i'm so sooooo-per busy that i don't have time to post... more like, nothing much to post about...
anyway... since its world cup season, and since i actually have been spending a lot of my time watching matches or sleeping to recover from watching matches, i think the world cup deserves some mention at least in my blog...
i was quite disappointed that ghana failed to beat brazil... i mean... really... even though, like they're the world champions and ghana is some noob team from africa... but for some reason, i was really hoping that they would defy the odds, bookies, irritatingly noisy brazilian supporters who only support brazil cos' they're winning and many other defyable things to, maybe against all hope, defeat brazil... or at least score a goal-lah...
well, they came close, and they provided some entertaing football... not really by playing it, but by allowing brazil to play it on them... and not for lack of trying, but well... really bcos' of some defending naivete and just plain noobness in front of goal-lah...
but well, it actually really is, quite a imba situation... i mean like, if you've played in your umpteenth world cup, won quite a few, and making it to the quarter's is no big deal for you cos' you actually KNOW what to do... quite frankly, it's not easy for some newcomer who's never played in the world cup or played against a mega professional team in a KNOCKOUT competition(which is way different from playing in a group)... well, life's unfair... the winner's will keep on winning, and the losers will keep on losing...
oh, by the way... in all practicality, germany looks good to win this world cup if they make it past argentina, failing which, argentina will win, failing which... italy(who alredi have a free ticket to the semis) will beat brazil in the semis and proceed to life the world cup... but not brazil... no way... cos' brazil... brazil musn't win... it'll somehow upset the balance of good and evil in the world and precipitate a cataclysmic sequence of events that'll bring about the end of the world...
yah... brazil musn't win... :)
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Sunday, June 18, 2006
normal life
heh... i'm back to normal life... at least for now... no exams, no busy-ness...
normal life... kinda... :P
normal life... kinda... :P
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Friday, June 09, 2006
home
yay!!! my sister's coming home :) :)... looking fwd to seeing her after 3 months... yay, yay!!!
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troublesomeness-ities
haiz... my car jammed up last nite...
i had just sent Ding back to vista C and was just about to turn out when suddenly the car refused to budge...
when i revved up the engine and forced it, the car moved... but it dragged the back left tyre...
so anyway, to cut the long story short and so as to not display my ignorance of car knowledge...
it appears that the back left tyre has jammed up... i think it's either the brake locking up or something's stuck between the brake and the tyre...
well, it means that i'm car-less for some time... hopefully not too long...
i had just sent Ding back to vista C and was just about to turn out when suddenly the car refused to budge...
when i revved up the engine and forced it, the car moved... but it dragged the back left tyre...
so anyway, to cut the long story short and so as to not display my ignorance of car knowledge...
it appears that the back left tyre has jammed up... i think it's either the brake locking up or something's stuck between the brake and the tyre...
well, it means that i'm car-less for some time... hopefully not too long...
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
praise you in the storm
Casting crowns- Praise You in the Storm
I was sure by now God you would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
that it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear your whisper through the rain,
I'm with you
and as your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
Chorus:
And i'll praise you in this storm
and i will lift my hands
that you are who you are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
you hold in your hand
you never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise you in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
you heard my cry you raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find you
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear you whisper through the rain
I'm with you
and as your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
Chorus
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
Chorus
hmm... i've been searching around for a change of song and i finally found something that not only sounds quite good, but is quite meaningful... on the other hand, i'm not going thru a really tough time now, but i think this is a song that needs quite some amount of faith and strength to sing when i actually DO go thru "storms"...
I was sure by now God you would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
that it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear your whisper through the rain,
I'm with you
and as your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
Chorus:
And i'll praise you in this storm
and i will lift my hands
that you are who you are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
you hold in your hand
you never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise you in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
you heard my cry you raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find you
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear you whisper through the rain
I'm with you
and as your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
Chorus
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
Chorus
hmm... i've been searching around for a change of song and i finally found something that not only sounds quite good, but is quite meaningful... on the other hand, i'm not going thru a really tough time now, but i think this is a song that needs quite some amount of faith and strength to sing when i actually DO go thru "storms"...
Monday, May 29, 2006
mona lisa
mona lisa weeps... haha, this cool pic was taken a couple of weeks back during the singing competition audition while we were "enjoying" the singing :P... i squeezed a bit of those flourescent tubes onto mona lisa and walah!!... picture courtesy of vickie's camera...
Sunday, May 28, 2006
long last lap
heh... today was at cendol with wencheng and mok...
n then wencheng mentioned that almost a month after camp it seemed as if i still hadn't recovered from it...
hmm... in a way i realized its quite true... almost everyday i'm out... i'm mostly at home only to sleep... even my mum is starting to tell me not to treat home like a hotel... haiz... wish i didn't have so much to do...
on the other hand though... it doesn't really seem like much... it's only that class and church are starting to pull at the amount of time i'm available... hmm... there's an outing this weekend, and for the next few weeks i'm not at home during the weekends cos' of practice of the chinese song competition... and joyce is leaving(ok this doesn't affect the amount of time i'm free, but it's worth mentioning :P) heh, i suppose i mainly cos' during the weekdays i'm busy at school, at during the weekends when i'm supposedly "resting", i'm actually busier... haiz....
mok did say that this week is the last lap... but, heh... this is one looooooooooooooooooooooong last lap...
but as some girl hermit likes to say... i'm always busy for church... haiz... sometimes wish i wasn't so much... ;) i'd rather be busy for God...
n then wencheng mentioned that almost a month after camp it seemed as if i still hadn't recovered from it...
hmm... in a way i realized its quite true... almost everyday i'm out... i'm mostly at home only to sleep... even my mum is starting to tell me not to treat home like a hotel... haiz... wish i didn't have so much to do...
on the other hand though... it doesn't really seem like much... it's only that class and church are starting to pull at the amount of time i'm available... hmm... there's an outing this weekend, and for the next few weeks i'm not at home during the weekends cos' of practice of the chinese song competition... and joyce is leaving(ok this doesn't affect the amount of time i'm free, but it's worth mentioning :P) heh, i suppose i mainly cos' during the weekdays i'm busy at school, at during the weekends when i'm supposedly "resting", i'm actually busier... haiz....
mok did say that this week is the last lap... but, heh... this is one looooooooooooooooooooooong last lap...
but as some girl hermit likes to say... i'm always busy for church... haiz... sometimes wish i wasn't so much... ;) i'd rather be busy for God...
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
toothpaste
i brushed my teeth just now...
i used a toothbrush and toothpaste...
my toothpaste promises me healthy teeth and gums and gives a minty flavour...
after i eat my breakfast i won't taste the minty flavour anymore...
i don't brush my teeth at night...
will i still gave healthy teeth and gums?
heh... can that be considered a poem? anyway... having CG today... spent last nite n this morning trying prepare something... in the end God reminded me it's not about how interesting i make the sharing or what i share about... it's about the Person i'm sharing about...
i used a toothbrush and toothpaste...
my toothpaste promises me healthy teeth and gums and gives a minty flavour...
after i eat my breakfast i won't taste the minty flavour anymore...
i don't brush my teeth at night...
will i still gave healthy teeth and gums?
heh... can that be considered a poem? anyway... having CG today... spent last nite n this morning trying prepare something... in the end God reminded me it's not about how interesting i make the sharing or what i share about... it's about the Person i'm sharing about...
Sunday, May 14, 2006
Who am i
Who Am I- Casting Crowns
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're
Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours
if your volume is on... and you're not deaf... you would have heard this song playing on my site...
cool song about a cool God :P
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're
Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours
if your volume is on... and you're not deaf... you would have heard this song playing on my site...
cool song about a cool God :P
Saturday, May 13, 2006
sleepy
i'm actually quite sleepy and tired even though its only 11am... maybe its cos' of yesterday's 48 hour day...
yesterday i was out for almost 48 hours.... okay okay... let's rewind back to thursday...
onthursdayiwasinclassinthemorningafterwhichiwentbackhome...ikindatriedtotakealongnapfrom2-6pm...whichkindadidn'treallyworkoutcos'ikeptonwakinguptocontinuedoingmyrubik'scube(whichisnowsittinginminheng'scarcos'ileftitthereinmyrushinthePalaceofTheGoldenHorses..butmore onthatlater)soanyway...startingfrom830pmtillabout930pmliddattherewassundayworship...followingwhichthere wasthefranticpackingofchurch'sPAequipment,instruments...&tc,&tctothePalaceoftheGoldenHorsesforour church's30thanniversarywhichendedatabout12am...followingwhichwasthefranticsettingupofequipmenttill about3am...followingwhichwassomesortofsleep/naptillabout7amwhenthefranticcontinuationofsetting up/finetuning/gettingPAstufftoworktillabout10am...followingwhichwasfinallytherealevent-the30thanniversary...whichwasfranklyquiteanti-climacticconsideringallthebuilduptoit...butanyway...afterthatwaslunchandrushingbackhomeatabout3pm... followingwhichhavingexhaustedallremainingenergysourcesidroppedonthesofaand"died"foraboutan hour...onlytobeinterruptedbyaseriesofphonecallsbutanyway...ikindadidgetaboutanhour'ssleep...
afterwhichwastheChineseMusicComposingCompetitionsemifinals...itonlystartedat8pmbutwemet forpracticeatabout4somethingandthentriedouttheinstrumentsatthatchurchatabout5...andthenlepaked until8...heh...wewerelinedupfor1stand6thsongof7songsthatnite..the1stsongifeltwasatotaldisasterconsidering
mylousyplayingofthesynthy(whichissoooo....difficulttoplayconsideringthatthekeysyoudon't
wannapressgetpressedandthekeysyouwannapressjustdon'twannagodown...yeah,ihadtoplaythesynthy forthatsongcos'thepianowasslightlyoutoftune)anyway...the6thsongcameoutquitewellithink...so
anyway...amazingly..bothoursongsgotchosenforthefinals..yay!!XD...
sothatwasquitelikeanamazingendingtothe48hourday...yeah...soafterdinneratabout10something,
finallyreachedbackHOMEat11,almost12...andfinallyreallygottosleepafterthe48hourday...
heh... here's to the long... long... lonng day that just passed... feeling sleepy now...
yesterday i was out for almost 48 hours.... okay okay... let's rewind back to thursday...
onthursdayiwasinclassinthemorningafterwhichiwentbackhome...ikindatriedtotakealongnapfrom2-6pm...whichkindadidn'treallyworkoutcos'ikeptonwakinguptocontinuedoingmyrubik'scube(whichisnowsittinginminheng'scarcos'ileftitthereinmyrushinthePalaceofTheGoldenHorses..butmore onthatlater)soanyway...startingfrom830pmtillabout930pmliddattherewassundayworship...followingwhichthere wasthefranticpackingofchurch'sPAequipment,instruments...&tc,&tctothePalaceoftheGoldenHorsesforour church's30thanniversarywhichendedatabout12am...followingwhichwasthefranticsettingupofequipmenttill about3am...followingwhichwassomesortofsleep/naptillabout7amwhenthefranticcontinuationofsetting up/finetuning/gettingPAstufftoworktillabout10am...followingwhichwasfinallytherealevent-the30thanniversary...whichwasfranklyquiteanti-climacticconsideringallthebuilduptoit...butanyway...afterthatwaslunchandrushingbackhomeatabout3pm... followingwhichhavingexhaustedallremainingenergysourcesidroppedonthesofaand"died"foraboutan hour...onlytobeinterruptedbyaseriesofphonecallsbutanyway...ikindadidgetaboutanhour'ssleep...
afterwhichwastheChineseMusicComposingCompetitionsemifinals...itonlystartedat8pmbutwemet forpracticeatabout4somethingandthentriedouttheinstrumentsatthatchurchatabout5...andthenlepaked until8...heh...wewerelinedupfor1stand6thsongof7songsthatnite..the1stsongifeltwasatotaldisasterconsidering
mylousyplayingofthesynthy(whichissoooo....difficulttoplayconsideringthatthekeysyoudon't
wannapressgetpressedandthekeysyouwannapressjustdon'twannagodown...yeah,ihadtoplaythesynthy forthatsongcos'thepianowasslightlyoutoftune)anyway...the6thsongcameoutquitewellithink...so
anyway...amazingly..bothoursongsgotchosenforthefinals..yay!!XD...
sothatwasquitelikeanamazingendingtothe48hourday...yeah...soafterdinneratabout10something,
finallyreachedbackHOMEat11,almost12...andfinallyreallygottosleepafterthe48hourday...
heh... here's to the long... long... lonng day that just passed... feeling sleepy now...
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Rubik's CUBE
i skipped YA today... actually had time to go, and actually was considering going seriously... but.. heh, guess the thought doesn't really count that much...
anyway... today was kinda "different" day... hung out wif minheng n wencheng.. went KL to look for confetti.. cos' he was gullible enuff to say "yes" to them to buy stuff:P...
anyway... the shop where we bought the stuff was super cool... it had all those games you played as a kid in primary school... you know.. those rubber snakes, frogs and lizards...
and then there're those card games that we used to play like the "soldier", "aladdin" and "fish" ... there.. those where each card is bigger then the next... but the the smallest card beats the biggest card... well... if you don't know, then u had a pretty miserable childhood...
then oh... i discovered this... Rubik's Cube...
i didn't know it was called that of course... the description on the package with lousy english only said "Magic Cube"... but through the wonders of the internet i discovered it's true identity :P...
but haha... this is one cool game/gadget/IQ increaser... i'm positive that by the time i've mastered it, my IQ would have increased 70%... yeah, planning to get one for JuLiang too when he like get's bored and has nothing to do... don't know when minheng's gonna go get it though...
anyway... today was kinda "different" day... hung out wif minheng n wencheng.. went KL to look for confetti.. cos' he was gullible enuff to say "yes" to them to buy stuff:P...
anyway... the shop where we bought the stuff was super cool... it had all those games you played as a kid in primary school... you know.. those rubber snakes, frogs and lizards...
and then there're those card games that we used to play like the "soldier", "aladdin" and "fish" ... there.. those where each card is bigger then the next... but the the smallest card beats the biggest card... well... if you don't know, then u had a pretty miserable childhood...
then oh... i discovered this... Rubik's Cube...
i didn't know it was called that of course... the description on the package with lousy english only said "Magic Cube"... but through the wonders of the internet i discovered it's true identity :P...
but haha... this is one cool game/gadget/IQ increaser... i'm positive that by the time i've mastered it, my IQ would have increased 70%... yeah, planning to get one for JuLiang too when he like get's bored and has nothing to do... don't know when minheng's gonna go get it though...
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
X-cavated
phew.... it's been one hectic week... and i don't see it getting better with practice, YA n preparing for 30th anniversary...
heh... on another hand... the reason for my hecticness last week- CF camp, was quite an experience...
it was actually something like my first time organizing this sort of camp thingy where you need to look for place to stay, transport, food... and most importantly, money to make everything run...all the stuff u normally take for granted in a camp...
i think it was an encouraging experience to see prayers being answered and during the camp even though some minor problems popped up: like the shirt material being too thin, scheduling difficulties... it was cool to.... like, really see things work out...
heh... on another hand... the reason for my hecticness last week- CF camp, was quite an experience...
it was actually something like my first time organizing this sort of camp thingy where you need to look for place to stay, transport, food... and most importantly, money to make everything run...all the stuff u normally take for granted in a camp...
i think it was an encouraging experience to see prayers being answered and during the camp even though some minor problems popped up: like the shirt material being too thin, scheduling difficulties... it was cool to.... like, really see things work out...
Thursday, May 04, 2006
time stop
you know... there are times in life when u think time stops or should stop cos' it seems like you have just so much to do...
at times you think that so much is happening in your life that you think the world should start revolving around you...
some times all you wish is for a moment of silence when you can stop to listen...
and then most of the time wat you need isn't more time but a moment in eternity(haha, oxymoron)...
heh... i know i hadn't been blogging recently, so it was kinda nice this morning to go thru my frens blogs, rememberin that life doesn't revolve around my small little world only...
at times you think that so much is happening in your life that you think the world should start revolving around you...
some times all you wish is for a moment of silence when you can stop to listen...
and then most of the time wat you need isn't more time but a moment in eternity(haha, oxymoron)...
heh... i know i hadn't been blogging recently, so it was kinda nice this morning to go thru my frens blogs, rememberin that life doesn't revolve around my small little world only...
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
aversion
hmm... i don't know why this is... but i actually have a certain degree of aversion towards CF in IMU actually... i'm not really sure why this is..it's not like it's evil or anything...
maybe it's bcos' my batch never really fit into the CF thingy... maybe cos' the many IMU activities just made CF... just another IMU activity...
or maybe its just that... it's distant... like looking at the dudes outside my house building the new highway... you know what they're doing... they're actually quite near you, but yet... it's like looking thru the window... you're not really "there"...
anyway... this friday is CF camp, and today i'm supposed to hold some sort of a camp briefing...
heheh... n there isn't really much to talk about anyway... but well... we'll see...
maybe it's bcos' my batch never really fit into the CF thingy... maybe cos' the many IMU activities just made CF... just another IMU activity...
or maybe its just that... it's distant... like looking at the dudes outside my house building the new highway... you know what they're doing... they're actually quite near you, but yet... it's like looking thru the window... you're not really "there"...
anyway... this friday is CF camp, and today i'm supposed to hold some sort of a camp briefing...
heheh... n there isn't really much to talk about anyway... but well... we'll see...
Monday, May 01, 2006
reload
heh... it's been a while... a very long while...
it hasn't really been cos' i haven't had time to update... things were and still are a little busy, but not so much so that i hadn't had any time to play computer or do anything else... it was more of...
not knowing wat to blog about... blogger's block?
heh, anyway... just came back from retreat... a rather inspirational one...
hmm... i suppose you can call these "hilltop" moments...
i think the biggest thing i took back from the retreat was learning to shutup and just... like, learning to "chill" with God...
i don't think i've ever, really thought of God being so real and personal before... but yeah, it was cool...
strangely though, on the way back home as we were sending ps. thomas chin n wife back to airport, we got "extra" lesson on BGR... heh, and i think these were the first BGR lessons that actually "spoke" to me...
still... it's been a while since i felt like this, and can't really remember if i had ever felt like this before... but it's nice to be able to "reload" my christian experience...
it hasn't really been cos' i haven't had time to update... things were and still are a little busy, but not so much so that i hadn't had any time to play computer or do anything else... it was more of...
not knowing wat to blog about... blogger's block?
heh, anyway... just came back from retreat... a rather inspirational one...
hmm... i suppose you can call these "hilltop" moments...
i think the biggest thing i took back from the retreat was learning to shutup and just... like, learning to "chill" with God...
i don't think i've ever, really thought of God being so real and personal before... but yeah, it was cool...
strangely though, on the way back home as we were sending ps. thomas chin n wife back to airport, we got "extra" lesson on BGR... heh, and i think these were the first BGR lessons that actually "spoke" to me...
still... it's been a while since i felt like this, and can't really remember if i had ever felt like this before... but it's nice to be able to "reload" my christian experience...
Thursday, April 13, 2006
good friday
heh... it's good friday tomoro... i've actually nth much to post, cos' tomoro's endo and i've been studying... sort of... between hours of o2jamming.... problem is that endo is just sooooooo light... and i hardly feel any urge to study...
i really really hope the paper doesn't kill me...
but yeah, anyway... it's good friday.. :P heh... i probably would post more if good friday was next week but heh... btw o2 jam and studying... i'm pretty much not thinking about anything else...
hmm... that's bad...
it's reduced good friday to just a bare mention on my blog...
i really really hope the paper doesn't kill me...
but yeah, anyway... it's good friday.. :P heh... i probably would post more if good friday was next week but heh... btw o2 jam and studying... i'm pretty much not thinking about anything else...
hmm... that's bad...
it's reduced good friday to just a bare mention on my blog...
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
good day
heh... in a very good mood today...
last nite took the girls out to mamak... and before that had 2 cool games...
AND i got no class until 4-6... then nth again... haha... nice... it'll be cool if everyday was like this... but then, i would then take it for granted:P...
last nite took the girls out to mamak... and before that had 2 cool games...
AND i got no class until 4-6... then nth again... haha... nice... it'll be cool if everyday was like this... but then, i would then take it for granted:P...
Monday, April 03, 2006
fear
you know how you just freak out when you're around some ppl...
i seem to have this weird fear of my tutor.. Dr. Achike... he's ok-lah... a bit on the strict and fierce side, but for some reason... i just stress out everytime i meet him... whether its taking results or during clinical hours...
heh... today i had him for clinical skills.. and it was history taking... aih... yeah, i guess i majorly screwed up in front of him and got nailed... but then again, it was half cos' i didn't prepare and half cos' of just that sheer stress of meeting him... i seem to just can't think around him...
haih... sux... dono how i'll tahan in seremban around worse dr.s
i seem to have this weird fear of my tutor.. Dr. Achike... he's ok-lah... a bit on the strict and fierce side, but for some reason... i just stress out everytime i meet him... whether its taking results or during clinical hours...
heh... today i had him for clinical skills.. and it was history taking... aih... yeah, i guess i majorly screwed up in front of him and got nailed... but then again, it was half cos' i didn't prepare and half cos' of just that sheer stress of meeting him... i seem to just can't think around him...
haih... sux... dono how i'll tahan in seremban around worse dr.s
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
post 101
hmm...
i'm supposed be studying... but its hard... cos' i'm sleepy after coming back from yi bing's surprise birthday party... heheh, birthday parties are cool :P... but having to study after that really kinda pulls you back down.. aih.. and its midnite alredi... faster faster...
aih... and i've since yesterday just started reading a new manga- Blade of the Immortal... the art is super cool cause it's super detailed... even the "cartoon" frames are as detailed as the "serious" ones... it rox... only problem is download speeds are slow... even though i'm grabbing from IRC...
sleepy... and i still got football match at 230 later... and have to wake up early to take my classmate chinpei to bank... =_=... hmm... the next 24hrs are gonna be quite long...
i wonder if i should stay up for football...
i'm supposed be studying... but its hard... cos' i'm sleepy after coming back from yi bing's surprise birthday party... heheh, birthday parties are cool :P... but having to study after that really kinda pulls you back down.. aih.. and its midnite alredi... faster faster...
aih... and i've since yesterday just started reading a new manga- Blade of the Immortal... the art is super cool cause it's super detailed... even the "cartoon" frames are as detailed as the "serious" ones... it rox... only problem is download speeds are slow... even though i'm grabbing from IRC...
sleepy... and i still got football match at 230 later... and have to wake up early to take my classmate chinpei to bank... =_=... hmm... the next 24hrs are gonna be quite long...
i wonder if i should stay up for football...
Thursday, March 23, 2006
good friday
come and see, come and see, come and see
the king of love
see the purple robe and crown of thorns he wears
soldiers mock, rulers sneer as he lifts the cruel cross
lonely and friendless now he climbs towards the hill
we worship at your feet, where wrath and mercy meet
and a guilty world is washed with love's great stream.
for us he was made sin, help me to take it in
deep wounds of love cry out, father forgive
we worship the lamb who was slain
come and weep, come and mourn
for your sin that pierced him there
so much deeper then the wounds of thorn and nail
all our pride, all our greed, all our foulness and shame
and the Lord has laid our punishment on Him
we worship at your throne where wrath and mercy meet.
easter and good friday is coming up :) and this poem kinda reminds me how come we can call a day where we commemorate some innocent dude's murder and yet call that day good.
the king of love
see the purple robe and crown of thorns he wears
soldiers mock, rulers sneer as he lifts the cruel cross
lonely and friendless now he climbs towards the hill
we worship at your feet, where wrath and mercy meet
and a guilty world is washed with love's great stream.
for us he was made sin, help me to take it in
deep wounds of love cry out, father forgive
we worship the lamb who was slain
come and weep, come and mourn
for your sin that pierced him there
so much deeper then the wounds of thorn and nail
all our pride, all our greed, all our foulness and shame
and the Lord has laid our punishment on Him
we worship at your throne where wrath and mercy meet.
easter and good friday is coming up :) and this poem kinda reminds me how come we can call a day where we commemorate some innocent dude's murder and yet call that day good.
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
ball
hmm... i'm kinda decided against going for ball alredi, not just cos' of the cost... but i'm kinda wondering... why ppl go for ball at all...
the cons-
95 bucks!!!
more time and money to get clothes and try to look good...
transport for the day itself...
when you're actually at the ball there's nth much to do except... eat? take pictures?
the pros-
this is my last ball.. uhh, what makes you think i want to go for ANY balls for that matter?
look good? haha... i alredi look good :P
umm... make frens?? haha... that's a joke...
hehe, seriously... wat are the pros of going for ball? oh things maybe would be different if i had a girlfren... but then again, maybe not...
the point is... in a Malaysian context, why do we go for balls, other than to imitate our western counterparts? after all, if you wanna get together with frens, take pictures... stuff like that... just... have dinner together or something like that... go mamak... i dunno, isn't that why they have balls in the west... cos' they don't have mamak...
hehe, if you wanna have dinner and look good then just dress up and go some high class restaurant... aih, come on... i alredi HAVE to dress up everytime i go IMU, so why should i take ONE more night out to uhh... dress up?
the cons-
95 bucks!!!
more time and money to get clothes and try to look good...
transport for the day itself...
when you're actually at the ball there's nth much to do except... eat? take pictures?
the pros-
this is my last ball.. uhh, what makes you think i want to go for ANY balls for that matter?
look good? haha... i alredi look good :P
umm... make frens?? haha... that's a joke...
hehe, seriously... wat are the pros of going for ball? oh things maybe would be different if i had a girlfren... but then again, maybe not...
the point is... in a Malaysian context, why do we go for balls, other than to imitate our western counterparts? after all, if you wanna get together with frens, take pictures... stuff like that... just... have dinner together or something like that... go mamak... i dunno, isn't that why they have balls in the west... cos' they don't have mamak...
hehe, if you wanna have dinner and look good then just dress up and go some high class restaurant... aih, come on... i alredi HAVE to dress up everytime i go IMU, so why should i take ONE more night out to uhh... dress up?
Monday, March 20, 2006
bad day
Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
(yeah...)
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
heh... can't remember if i've posted this song b4.. it isn't really that meaningful(probably cos' i don't know what most of the lines mean)... but it's a nice song to listen to when you're down..
(: this song is dedicated to anyone who's had a bad day.. having a bad day... or just now that they're gonna hav a bad day... :P oh, and also especially to that girl who's had a reli BAD day and is kinda down now... cheer up k? :P
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
(yeah...)
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
heh... can't remember if i've posted this song b4.. it isn't really that meaningful(probably cos' i don't know what most of the lines mean)... but it's a nice song to listen to when you're down..
(: this song is dedicated to anyone who's had a bad day.. having a bad day... or just now that they're gonna hav a bad day... :P oh, and also especially to that girl who's had a reli BAD day and is kinda down now... cheer up k? :P
back to school
heh... today was the first day after 2 months of break...
haiz... i'd forgotten how bad IMU lecturer's accents are... today Nilesh was... BAD!!
between the hypophyseal-hypothalamal tract and who knows what, i was torn between sleeping on the first day of the semester, of the year and... umm... paying attention?... well, i tried... but i'm not sure if half of wat went into my head is correct...
anyways... there's lots to look forward to this semester and some dilemma's to resolve as well... like wat does IMU Ball hold for me, that i would part with 100bucks for a nite of... umm... fun? frenship? heh... give me an dotA package and mamak after that anyday...
anyway... slowly slowly lah.. it's only the first day of school anyway...
but yeah... it's back to studies... oh well...
haiz... i'd forgotten how bad IMU lecturer's accents are... today Nilesh was... BAD!!
between the hypophyseal-hypothalamal tract and who knows what, i was torn between sleeping on the first day of the semester, of the year and... umm... paying attention?... well, i tried... but i'm not sure if half of wat went into my head is correct...
anyways... there's lots to look forward to this semester and some dilemma's to resolve as well... like wat does IMU Ball hold for me, that i would part with 100bucks for a nite of... umm... fun? frenship? heh... give me an dotA package and mamak after that anyday...
anyway... slowly slowly lah.. it's only the first day of school anyway...
but yeah... it's back to studies... oh well...
Saturday, March 18, 2006
beh tahan
eh... cannot tahan lah... life without phone... it's worse than life without food... ahhhh....
i thought i had a "temporary" phone, when leena offered me wengteik's phone... then... ahhh.... yesterday i discovered i lost my simcard.... ahhhh.... so now need to wait till monday to see if get to keep old no. or have to get a new one...
ahhh.... beh tahan...
i now understand that the most effective fast for young people isn't to fast food(as in, don't eat food)... but to "fast handphone"... i tell you... if the "fast" deal is to pray everytime you think of handphone when you're "fasting" from handphone...
wah... even if one day fast handphone will surely pray like... more than 24 times in one day...
whereas if you "fast" food... then will only think when hungry... which is like... 3,4,5 times a day?
so the most effective fast for youth is HANDPHONE fast!! hah... and u "suffer" more... which makes the prayer more earnest.... and so only those "serious" ppl who really want wat they pray for to happen will DARE to take the HANDPHONE FAST!!
wahhh... beh tahan... i'm now on like a "forced HANDPHONE FAST!!"... tak jadi-lar... suffering...
i thought i had a "temporary" phone, when leena offered me wengteik's phone... then... ahhh.... yesterday i discovered i lost my simcard.... ahhhh.... so now need to wait till monday to see if get to keep old no. or have to get a new one...
ahhh.... beh tahan...
i now understand that the most effective fast for young people isn't to fast food(as in, don't eat food)... but to "fast handphone"... i tell you... if the "fast" deal is to pray everytime you think of handphone when you're "fasting" from handphone...
wah... even if one day fast handphone will surely pray like... more than 24 times in one day...
whereas if you "fast" food... then will only think when hungry... which is like... 3,4,5 times a day?
so the most effective fast for youth is HANDPHONE fast!! hah... and u "suffer" more... which makes the prayer more earnest.... and so only those "serious" ppl who really want wat they pray for to happen will DARE to take the HANDPHONE FAST!!
wahhh... beh tahan... i'm now on like a "forced HANDPHONE FAST!!"... tak jadi-lar... suffering...
Thursday, March 16, 2006
wat's important
school starts next week... i have 107 bucks and a couple of cents in my wallet...
i have no phone, so the only way ppl can contact me now is by house phone and email...
it's weird... but it's a good thing actually...
it helps to sort out wat's important enuff for me to spend money on, and wat i can actually skimp on...
having no phone also helped me realize how "attached" i am to my phone... cos' my phone is about the first thing i see in the morning... the last thing i see b4 i sleep... and 1 of the 3 things i carry with me everywhere (+wallet n keys)... heh... rupanye i CAN get thru life without phone...
heh... n i've also realized that really i don't own ANYTHING at all... and that offering isn't about how much WE GIVE TO GOD.. but that EVERYTHING we own belongs to GOD, so we're actually just RETURNING wat we've has been "borrowed" to us... uhh... or is it "lent"... :P
hmm.... no phone is actually quite tough though...
i have no phone, so the only way ppl can contact me now is by house phone and email...
it's weird... but it's a good thing actually...
it helps to sort out wat's important enuff for me to spend money on, and wat i can actually skimp on...
having no phone also helped me realize how "attached" i am to my phone... cos' my phone is about the first thing i see in the morning... the last thing i see b4 i sleep... and 1 of the 3 things i carry with me everywhere (+wallet n keys)... heh... rupanye i CAN get thru life without phone...
heh... n i've also realized that really i don't own ANYTHING at all... and that offering isn't about how much WE GIVE TO GOD.. but that EVERYTHING we own belongs to GOD, so we're actually just RETURNING wat we've has been "borrowed" to us... uhh... or is it "lent"... :P
hmm.... no phone is actually quite tough though...
Monday, March 13, 2006
i'm back... again...
woah... i'm soo tired.... this has been a killer weekend...
i dun think i've ever been so tired... i dun think i can tahan camps anymore...
especially like when i feel like my energy level is less than negative after the camp...
...
but yeah... camp was good... i feel we made good ties wif some kids... so hopefully that goes somewhere :)
still, i'm back... and i've got about a week b4 school starts :)... hehe... weird, huh... looking forward to school? well, i think you would too after about 2 months like that of doing nth...
but... alamak... that means starting studying again...heh, and i think that this is the only real serious break i'm gonna get until who knows when... lol... hope its soon ;)
i dun think i've ever been so tired... i dun think i can tahan camps anymore...
especially like when i feel like my energy level is less than negative after the camp...
...
but yeah... camp was good... i feel we made good ties wif some kids... so hopefully that goes somewhere :)
still, i'm back... and i've got about a week b4 school starts :)... hehe... weird, huh... looking forward to school? well, i think you would too after about 2 months like that of doing nth...
but... alamak... that means starting studying again...heh, and i think that this is the only real serious break i'm gonna get until who knows when... lol... hope its soon ;)
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
i'm a diver:)
heh... i'm back... and i'm not the same anymore...
i'm now a QUALIFIED OPEN WATER PADI(Professional Assoc. of Divin Instructors) DIVER...
haha... yay... kinda over spent in sabah, but i feel it was worth every cent of it...
so what difference does being a diver make in my life?
hmm... haha, for all the money i've paid- actually nth much...cos' there's nth to dive in, in KL...
but.. it's cool to be a diver... for one thing.. i've got this cool card :P... but really, it's nice to know you get to see stuff normal ppl don't get to see... and get to do stuff normal ppl don't get to do...
besides that i've got this light headed feeling for a couple of days alredi... think it's probably cos' of my body getting used to the nitrogen...
oh well... now that i'm back... i'll get to rest...
b4 going off for gospel camp... which is in 3 days time... hmm... have lots to cover in that time...
haha.. and yeah, the previous post was a copy n paste wan from a comment i posted in juliang's blog...
i'm now a QUALIFIED OPEN WATER PADI(Professional Assoc. of Divin Instructors) DIVER...
haha... yay... kinda over spent in sabah, but i feel it was worth every cent of it...
so what difference does being a diver make in my life?
hmm... haha, for all the money i've paid- actually nth much...cos' there's nth to dive in, in KL...
but.. it's cool to be a diver... for one thing.. i've got this cool card :P... but really, it's nice to know you get to see stuff normal ppl don't get to see... and get to do stuff normal ppl don't get to do...
besides that i've got this light headed feeling for a couple of days alredi... think it's probably cos' of my body getting used to the nitrogen...
oh well... now that i'm back... i'll get to rest...
b4 going off for gospel camp... which is in 3 days time... hmm... have lots to cover in that time...
haha.. and yeah, the previous post was a copy n paste wan from a comment i posted in juliang's blog...
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
water
i realized that ppl are like rivers of water... just like water takes the path of least resistance, so also we prefer living life in the way of least problems and "resistance"... so we go thru life trying to "invoke" as little problems as possible, think about bad stuff as little as possible... but then i realized that as christians we shouldn't avoid problems bcos' it's only thru trials and problems that we grow... and if we're not growing you're falling backwards...
heh, i realized this cos' there're 3 frens whom i see "falling backwards" cos' they're choosing the "easy" way out... hmm... pray hard for those who're falling out of our faith bcos' they don't wanna take the harder way...
heh, i realized this cos' there're 3 frens whom i see "falling backwards" cos' they're choosing the "easy" way out... hmm... pray hard for those who're falling out of our faith bcos' they don't wanna take the harder way...
no more money
well... it was fun while it lasted... the thought of getting money for nothing...
but well... seems like the site died... now when i try to access my account at gpromote.com, i get directed to some other site... well, it was fun while it lasted.... too bad...
haha... thanks to all those who went and clicked my link to contribute that 0.5 cents per click :P... haha, not that i have it anymore... but it's the thought that counts...
so i now know who i can depend on to click to save my life :P...
but well... seems like the site died... now when i try to access my account at gpromote.com, i get directed to some other site... well, it was fun while it lasted.... too bad...
haha... thanks to all those who went and clicked my link to contribute that 0.5 cents per click :P... haha, not that i have it anymore... but it's the thought that counts...
so i now know who i can depend on to click to save my life :P...
Sunday, February 26, 2006
new skin
hey... this is actually a blogspot template skin... but i think it looks kinda nice anyway, although i seriously think it makes this blog look "standard"... on the other hand... actually this is a pretty "standard" blog... so... haha, let's join the "standard" blog club...
well... enjoy the standard look... it'll probably be around for a couple of days, unless i forget to change it b4 i go off diving on wednesday... which would mean it would stick for a week or more...
oh ya... that means no chat box... hmm... shud i twiddle wif the template to insert it... feels abit mafan-lah...
well... enjoy the standard look... it'll probably be around for a couple of days, unless i forget to change it b4 i go off diving on wednesday... which would mean it would stick for a week or more...
oh ya... that means no chat box... hmm... shud i twiddle wif the template to insert it... feels abit mafan-lah...
Thursday, February 23, 2006
re: sunday school songs
heh... ashley posted an reply to the previous post which i thought would be interesting to reply here instead of the small little box for normal replies...
Ashley:
i get the feel of 'coolness' singing this song while being sent to prison...but...prison??? sailling home?? PRISON??
zhiyong:
haha... my sunday school student... this is where the coolness just begins... if you're in prison and singing this song, you're no longer sailing home to a home on earth, but a Heavenly home :)
yay!! sunday school songs rox :P
Ashley:
i get the feel of 'coolness' singing this song while being sent to prison...but...prison??? sailling home?? PRISON??
zhiyong:
haha... my sunday school student... this is where the coolness just begins... if you're in prison and singing this song, you're no longer sailing home to a home on earth, but a Heavenly home :)
yay!! sunday school songs rox :P
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
sunday school songs
haha... i suddenly feel like singing sunday school songs...
sunday school songs are fun~! and if you actually read the words, they're quite meaningful...
but for now... sunday school songs are fun~! :P
With Christ in the vessel
we can smile at the storm
Smile at the storm
Smile at the storm
With Christ in the vessel
we can smile at the storm
As we go sailing home...homehomehome
Say-sailingsailing-ling, say-sailingsailing-ling home
Say-sailingsailing-ling, say-sailingsailing-ling home
With Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm
AS WE GO SAILING HOME~!
haha...fun, but meaningful too... with christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm as we go sailing HOME :) this would be a cool song to sing if you like get sent to prison or something :P
sunday school songs are fun~! and if you actually read the words, they're quite meaningful...
but for now... sunday school songs are fun~! :P
With Christ in the vessel
we can smile at the storm
Smile at the storm
Smile at the storm
With Christ in the vessel
we can smile at the storm
As we go sailing home...homehomehome
Say-sailingsailing-ling, say-sailingsailing-ling home
Say-sailingsailing-ling, say-sailingsailing-ling home
With Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm
AS WE GO SAILING HOME~!
haha...fun, but meaningful too... with christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm as we go sailing HOME :) this would be a cool song to sing if you like get sent to prison or something :P
Monday, February 20, 2006
inspirational stuff
lately i've read and heard quite some inspirational and thought provoking stuff lately...
juliang's blog makes you think again of God's reality in everyday life, siewlian's new blog has this piece on Jesus' crucifixion, yesterday my dad read out isaiah 1 which is about how Israel keeps on hurting herself by rejecting God... its good to read and think about God outside of quiet time... reminds me of where i actually stand wif God not just on a daily basis, but on an hourly or minute-ly basis...
i've realized that during holidays, it's actually harder for me to focus on God cos' i'm so busy trying to find stuff to do to occupy myself, trying to find pleasure for my ownself...
whereas during exams strangely because i'm so busy, that i have to find time for God, that i find myself actually closer to God, because i'm trying to find pleasure for God...
it's actually a bit frightening that i take God's presence for granted so easily... i wonder sometimes what he thinks of me... losing sight of the path not because the going get's tough, but because the going got easy... heh, so maybe satan's greatest weapon isn't to force me off the path to heaven, but to lure me away...
juliang's blog makes you think again of God's reality in everyday life, siewlian's new blog has this piece on Jesus' crucifixion, yesterday my dad read out isaiah 1 which is about how Israel keeps on hurting herself by rejecting God... its good to read and think about God outside of quiet time... reminds me of where i actually stand wif God not just on a daily basis, but on an hourly or minute-ly basis...
i've realized that during holidays, it's actually harder for me to focus on God cos' i'm so busy trying to find stuff to do to occupy myself, trying to find pleasure for my ownself...
whereas during exams strangely because i'm so busy, that i have to find time for God, that i find myself actually closer to God, because i'm trying to find pleasure for God...
it's actually a bit frightening that i take God's presence for granted so easily... i wonder sometimes what he thinks of me... losing sight of the path not because the going get's tough, but because the going got easy... heh, so maybe satan's greatest weapon isn't to force me off the path to heaven, but to lure me away...
gpromote
heh... okay, let me mention first off that i'm not an advocator of internet spam or internet cash making sites... in fact, i detest them... it just happens that i'm free, and jenern introduced me to this site which supposedly let's you make money just by clicking on them sites... well, i don't know how true it is... but well.... it's free and i'm free, so with time to spare i thought why not...
so well, to share the fun...and the cash:P, click here... and join... so that YOU... can help ME... make some money out of thin air...
with my fingers crossed i promise to share "some" of the money (if it does materialize) with you, with you DO click... come-lah... click and join... then you will be known as my downline :) and anyway... the ppl who read this blog are pretty free ppl rite? haha....
so well, to share the fun...and the cash:P, click here... and join... so that YOU... can help ME... make some money out of thin air...
with my fingers crossed i promise to share "some" of the money (if it does materialize) with you, with you DO click... come-lah... click and join... then you will be known as my downline :) and anyway... the ppl who read this blog are pretty free ppl rite? haha....
Sunday, February 19, 2006
back....
i'm back....after a whole week away....
haha... travelling round crashing in on ppl's houses all over rox man...
in muar stayed over in jenern's house(managed to play 1 dotA game online:P)
in seremban stayed in callista's house... woah, her house is like.. major big... as big as stephen's house... it's like... big enuff to have a pond in the house... then got like 3 or 4 guest rooms, maid get one room, each family member got one room... and the rooms are so big they make the beds look small.. and those are queen and king size beds...
i'm fat now i tell u... i've never eaten so much over such a long period...
my pants can barely fit me... i'm so going to cut down on food...
haha... travelling round crashing in on ppl's houses all over rox man...
in muar stayed over in jenern's house(managed to play 1 dotA game online:P)
in seremban stayed in callista's house... woah, her house is like.. major big... as big as stephen's house... it's like... big enuff to have a pond in the house... then got like 3 or 4 guest rooms, maid get one room, each family member got one room... and the rooms are so big they make the beds look small.. and those are queen and king size beds...
i'm fat now i tell u... i've never eaten so much over such a long period...
my pants can barely fit me... i'm so going to cut down on food...
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
muar
haha... i'm posting from muar :)....
muar is.... heh, empty would be saying it nicely...
we went round muar yesterday, and actually besides doing nothing, there's nothing to do...
it's kinda like travelling for 2 and a half hours to go to sri petaling... lol..
it's fun though... cos' i'm on holiday...
muar is.... heh, empty would be saying it nicely...
we went round muar yesterday, and actually besides doing nothing, there's nothing to do...
it's kinda like travelling for 2 and a half hours to go to sri petaling... lol..
it's fun though... cos' i'm on holiday...
Monday, February 13, 2006
holiday
haha... it's 7:05 in the morning... and just WHAT am i doing up so early at this unearthly hour...
heh, it's been quite a while... but i'm going for holiday :)... bus leaves at 830... so going to the lrt station at 715.... crazy-ah... but for the sake of holiday... even waking up at 530 would be ok...
heh, will be in muar later today... then a couple of days later seremban, then sitiawan, then ipoh... yeah... actually going round the girls houses eating and playing-lah.... hopefully it'll be fun xD... but yeah, holidays ARE fun... bye guys.... enjoy your drudgery of life :P...
heh, it's been quite a while... but i'm going for holiday :)... bus leaves at 830... so going to the lrt station at 715.... crazy-ah... but for the sake of holiday... even waking up at 530 would be ok...
heh, will be in muar later today... then a couple of days later seremban, then sitiawan, then ipoh... yeah... actually going round the girls houses eating and playing-lah.... hopefully it'll be fun xD... but yeah, holidays ARE fun... bye guys.... enjoy your drudgery of life :P...
Thursday, February 09, 2006
new sound system
woah... i just installed a new sound system into my computer... and woah...
wow... huiyoh... walauweh...
it's so good it's giving me goosebumps...
and to think that's its actually not a new sound system:P...
i actually took and ancient mini compo from my room, connected two philips speakers which i used to use for the tv, and plugged it into my comp... and woah...
suddenly i've got altec lansing quality sound coming out...
i rox man...
haha, this is so majorly cool... for the first time i can hear the bass for all my mp3s... and the sound's as clear as glass...
woah... this rox man...
i should have done this wayyyy earlier...
ironically, i know i'll start taking this for granted within a couple of days...
haha... but for now... woah, i'm gonna run thru all my mp3s...
this rox man...
haha, i wonder what starcraft sounds like now...
haha, i'm still in awe that i can hear the bass from my comp...
this is already one of the better days of my hols.. :P
wow... huiyoh... walauweh...
it's so good it's giving me goosebumps...
and to think that's its actually not a new sound system:P...
i actually took and ancient mini compo from my room, connected two philips speakers which i used to use for the tv, and plugged it into my comp... and woah...
suddenly i've got altec lansing quality sound coming out...
i rox man...
haha, this is so majorly cool... for the first time i can hear the bass for all my mp3s... and the sound's as clear as glass...
woah... this rox man...
i should have done this wayyyy earlier...
ironically, i know i'll start taking this for granted within a couple of days...
haha... but for now... woah, i'm gonna run thru all my mp3s...
this rox man...
haha, i wonder what starcraft sounds like now...
haha, i'm still in awe that i can hear the bass from my comp...
this is already one of the better days of my hols.. :P
Monday, February 06, 2006
achievements
yay... i'm proud to say that today i woke up early :)... 7 o'clock sommor-ah...
wah... went jogging just now and came back after an hour... wah... so proud...
heh, well... so much for that... now the rest of the day is gonna be spent playing computer and umm... finding stuff to do...
on another note... yesterday was an almost perfect sunday...
the skies were blue, the birds were singing... i woke up early (again)...
didn't have sunday school lesson to prepare... had great worship in church... didn't fall asleep during sermon... scored a couple of goals during futsal... heh.. yeah, great day yesterday...
strange isn't it how dependent our happiness is on stuff we can't control...
wah... went jogging just now and came back after an hour... wah... so proud...
heh, well... so much for that... now the rest of the day is gonna be spent playing computer and umm... finding stuff to do...
on another note... yesterday was an almost perfect sunday...
the skies were blue, the birds were singing... i woke up early (again)...
didn't have sunday school lesson to prepare... had great worship in church... didn't fall asleep during sermon... scored a couple of goals during futsal... heh.. yeah, great day yesterday...
strange isn't it how dependent our happiness is on stuff we can't control...
Thursday, February 02, 2006
thursday
today's thursday... i thought it was friday alredi...
heheh... for some reason i felt happy... almost as if i had "gained" on day...
than after thinking about it, i realized that it didn't really matter for me... cos' even if i had one more day... i still don't have anything to do... ahhh... so bored...boredededededed
wat can i do dodododododo....
no games to play... no "project" to do...
hrmhrmhrmhrm... bored bored bored... and no one's around...ahh....
heheh... i'm actually extending this post... so as to seem like i'm doing something...
haih... so bored... nothing to do or look forward to....
heheh... for some reason i felt happy... almost as if i had "gained" on day...
than after thinking about it, i realized that it didn't really matter for me... cos' even if i had one more day... i still don't have anything to do... ahhh... so bored...boredededededed
wat can i do dodododododo....
no games to play... no "project" to do...
hrmhrmhrmhrm... bored bored bored... and no one's around...ahh....
heheh... i'm actually extending this post... so as to seem like i'm doing something...
haih... so bored... nothing to do or look forward to....
Monday, January 30, 2006
chinese new year and obligations
hi, happy chinese new year to all :)...
haha, you know that a webpage is dying when new year greetings start getting short and posting begins to feel like an obligation :P
but, for now... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! :)
haha, you know that a webpage is dying when new year greetings start getting short and posting begins to feel like an obligation :P
but, for now... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! :)
Thursday, January 26, 2006
all for love
All for love
All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love heavens cried
For love was crucfied
Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me
Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You
Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all
All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You
Shout unto God
The enemy has been defeated
And death couldn't hold You down
We're gonna lift our voice in victory
We're gonna make Your praises loud
Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
Shout unto God with a voice of praise
Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
We lift Your name up
We lift Your name up
was just listening to this... normally wouldn't have posted this post, but then again... i've really nothing much to do and i was listening to this...
on the other hand i remember a time when i used to post about "spiritual" stuff... heh, can't remember the last time i did... i think i'm in a decline spiritually though i'm on holiday... or maybe it IS because i'm on holiday... hmm... is it still all for love?
All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love heavens cried
For love was crucfied
Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me
Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You
Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all
All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You
Shout unto God
The enemy has been defeated
And death couldn't hold You down
We're gonna lift our voice in victory
We're gonna make Your praises loud
Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
Shout unto God with a voice of praise
Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
We lift Your name up
We lift Your name up
was just listening to this... normally wouldn't have posted this post, but then again... i've really nothing much to do and i was listening to this...
on the other hand i remember a time when i used to post about "spiritual" stuff... heh, can't remember the last time i did... i think i'm in a decline spiritually though i'm on holiday... or maybe it IS because i'm on holiday... hmm... is it still all for love?
not much ado about nothing
hmm... i kinda expecting it would end up like this..
but here i am... nth much to do... nth much i wanna do...
hmm... wat to do.. wat to do...
oh well... the boredom is only for a while... hopefully-lah...
bored...
but here i am... nth much to do... nth much i wanna do...
hmm... wat to do.. wat to do...
oh well... the boredom is only for a while... hopefully-lah...
bored...
Monday, January 23, 2006
addicted to mediocrity
i feel strongly that malaysians are addicted to mediocrity...
of course... this comment is coming after i've just watched the malaysian doubles pair lose AGAIN in the finals of some badminton final...
heh... and i heard the malaysian commentator say something like, at least we got to the finals... okay, so maybe he didn't say something like that... but he certainly implied it everytime we started losing...
or maybe it's just the sucky commentary... my mum is convinced that malaysia will start winning stuff if only the commentary would improve...
of course... this comment is coming after i've just watched the malaysian doubles pair lose AGAIN in the finals of some badminton final...
heh... and i heard the malaysian commentator say something like, at least we got to the finals... okay, so maybe he didn't say something like that... but he certainly implied it everytime we started losing...
or maybe it's just the sucky commentary... my mum is convinced that malaysia will start winning stuff if only the commentary would improve...
Saturday, January 21, 2006
my wrong
hmm...this week has been really fun... not to mention expensive, but that's for another post...
i've been spending the whole week enjoying myself:)... it's fun, but this morning when i woke up i realized that i'd forgotten tons of stuff that i had to do...
yibing reminded me that there was no devotion prepared for this saturday,
sunday school lesson is still half baked... i suddenly remembered that i was supposed to call my youth class for TU... okay, so it wasn't suddenly remembered... i had been reminded of it the entire week, but kept on procrastinating... i suppose that's the story of this entire week...
have kept on pushing on stuff i could do to the future so i could enjoy the present...
hmm... my fault...
i've been spending the whole week enjoying myself:)... it's fun, but this morning when i woke up i realized that i'd forgotten tons of stuff that i had to do...
yibing reminded me that there was no devotion prepared for this saturday,
sunday school lesson is still half baked... i suddenly remembered that i was supposed to call my youth class for TU... okay, so it wasn't suddenly remembered... i had been reminded of it the entire week, but kept on procrastinating... i suppose that's the story of this entire week...
have kept on pushing on stuff i could do to the future so i could enjoy the present...
hmm... my fault...
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
insults
yesterday i was kinda out the whole day...
lunch with the girls and then dotA and dinner with the guys...heh, maybe it's just me... but i noticed that when i hanging out with guys... conversation almost inevitably swerves towards someone getting insulted or to put it nicely... criticized...yeah, maybe it's all as a joke... but, wonder why guys get so much "kick" out of making fun of someone not as good as they are... whether be it in speech, dressing, dotA or any abilities whatsoever... hmm... not that girls don't make fun of other girls or guys... but... conversations tend to put ppl down less... hmm... or maybe its just me:P
lunch with the girls and then dotA and dinner with the guys...heh, maybe it's just me... but i noticed that when i hanging out with guys... conversation almost inevitably swerves towards someone getting insulted or to put it nicely... criticized...yeah, maybe it's all as a joke... but, wonder why guys get so much "kick" out of making fun of someone not as good as they are... whether be it in speech, dressing, dotA or any abilities whatsoever... hmm... not that girls don't make fun of other girls or guys... but... conversations tend to put ppl down less... hmm... or maybe its just me:P
Monday, January 16, 2006
Sunday, January 15, 2006
it's over
heh... yeah... exam's are finally over... hopefully :)...
yup... so i'm off for until... umm... haha, i don't know when... that's nice :)
yup... so i'm off for until... umm... haha, i don't know when... that's nice :)
Thursday, January 12, 2006
still not done?
haih... still 2 more days of exams...
this is the longest week of my life... just wishing that it would just end and i'd be able to go one with normal life...
hmm.... on another note... i have a whole list of stuff i wanna start doing after exams...
go swimming(it's been ages)
hopefully have lunch wif daniel,joyce n leena :)
go MPH n salvation to read/buy some books
go for a "classic" play- one of those shakespeare thingys
listen to MPO play
go visit juliang... or at least get outside his room...
yup... i know not all of this will happen... but it's nice to have something to look forward to these days :)...
this is the longest week of my life... just wishing that it would just end and i'd be able to go one with normal life...
hmm.... on another note... i have a whole list of stuff i wanna start doing after exams...
go swimming(it's been ages)
hopefully have lunch wif daniel,joyce n leena :)
go MPH n salvation to read/buy some books
go for a "classic" play- one of those shakespeare thingys
listen to MPO play
go visit juliang... or at least get outside his room...
yup... i know not all of this will happen... but it's nice to have something to look forward to these days :)...
Sunday, January 08, 2006
update
wow... it's been a super long time since i last updated...reasons being that after christmas i was in camp... and the week after that i was in KKB...i thot it appropriate that i should update before i go "away" again for another week... for exams...
oh well... i suppose i should remove the christmas bg...
oh well... i suppose i should remove the christmas bg...
Saturday, December 24, 2005
somewhere over the rainbow
Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
There's a land that i've heard of once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true
Someday i wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you find me
Somewhere over the rainbow blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't i
Somewhere over the rainbow blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't i
If happy little blue birds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why, can't i
it's christmas eve... and i woke up wif this song :) it's christmas... and in spite of all the bad things that happen... we still have hope and joy because Jesus first gave us a reason to have hope and joy :)
1 more day to christmas
There's a land that i've heard of once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true
Someday i wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you find me
Somewhere over the rainbow blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't i
Somewhere over the rainbow blue birds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't i
If happy little blue birds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why, can't i
it's christmas eve... and i woke up wif this song :) it's christmas... and in spite of all the bad things that happen... we still have hope and joy because Jesus first gave us a reason to have hope and joy :)
1 more day to christmas
Friday, December 23, 2005
Thursday, December 22, 2005
what's it all about?
oh... how right i was... and how wrong...
everything seems to be going wrong this christmas...
exams, PA stuff to prepare, youth camp... oh, no... that's the good stuff...
then there's mei having problems, juliang admitted to hospital...
where's the joy, hope and the yuletide good cheer of the season man...
what's christmas all about if everything starts to fall apart... what's it all about really?
and then... and then i remember that the first christmas happened under pretty much similar circumstances...
no place to stay, birth pains, stink of the manger... oh, no... that's the good stuff...
thousands and thousands of babies dying cos' of a paranoid governor, a reign of terror where you have to hide your baby from everyone...running to another state cos' of dreams...God having to give up eternal power for 30 years of lowly human life starting christmas...
christmas wasn't about joy, happiness and yuletide cheer whatever that may mean...
i suppose then... it's about finding hope where there seems to be none...
hmm... then i suppose this christmas isn't that bad after all... cos' there's always hope...
i hope...
3 days to christmas
everything seems to be going wrong this christmas...
exams, PA stuff to prepare, youth camp... oh, no... that's the good stuff...
then there's mei having problems, juliang admitted to hospital...
where's the joy, hope and the yuletide good cheer of the season man...
what's christmas all about if everything starts to fall apart... what's it all about really?
and then... and then i remember that the first christmas happened under pretty much similar circumstances...
no place to stay, birth pains, stink of the manger... oh, no... that's the good stuff...
thousands and thousands of babies dying cos' of a paranoid governor, a reign of terror where you have to hide your baby from everyone...running to another state cos' of dreams...God having to give up eternal power for 30 years of lowly human life starting christmas...
christmas wasn't about joy, happiness and yuletide cheer whatever that may mean...
i suppose then... it's about finding hope where there seems to be none...
hmm... then i suppose this christmas isn't that bad after all... cos' there's always hope...
i hope...
3 days to christmas
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
christmas
i just realized how depressing the past few posts have been...
heheh, christmas is coming... how bad can it be actually?
and everyone's back.. leena's back, wong family's back... so how can it be depressing?
i'm gonna enjoy this christmas... hopefully :P...
screw EOS... christmas is more important rite? :)
4 days to christmas...
heheh, christmas is coming... how bad can it be actually?
and everyone's back.. leena's back, wong family's back... so how can it be depressing?
i'm gonna enjoy this christmas... hopefully :P...
screw EOS... christmas is more important rite? :)
4 days to christmas...
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
letting go
sometimes i think it would be so easy for me just to forget about exams and enjoy the holidays...
heh, so much more easier...
of course.. then would come 6 months of regret as i retake sem3... ish... exams during christmas is a very very bad idea...
5 days to christmas
heh, so much more easier...
of course.. then would come 6 months of regret as i retake sem3... ish... exams during christmas is a very very bad idea...
5 days to christmas
Monday, December 19, 2005
beginning
haih... it's beginning alredi...
the inescapable feeling of church work pulling me away from my books...
heheh... so much to do, so little time... and i haven't been helping by spending almost half the time the past 3 weeks playing...
we're all so screwed... God help us...
is this christmas or what? why do the days seem to get darker the closer it get's to christmas...
6 days to christmas
the inescapable feeling of church work pulling me away from my books...
heheh... so much to do, so little time... and i haven't been helping by spending almost half the time the past 3 weeks playing...
we're all so screwed... God help us...
is this christmas or what? why do the days seem to get darker the closer it get's to christmas...
6 days to christmas
Sunday, December 18, 2005
exams suck
a most depressing thought just occured to me...
what would i do if i failed my sem3...
should i continue my medical studies... or go do something else...what would i do if andrew... hai liang... or some one close to me fails sem3...
i hate being left behind... i hate leaving people behind... i didn't like it in primary school... didn't like it in secondary school and i still don't like it...
exams suck...
9 days to christmas...
8 days to christmas...
7 days to christmas...
yeah, i missed a lot of days cos' my family's back and they're hogging the computer... >_<
what would i do if i failed my sem3...
should i continue my medical studies... or go do something else...what would i do if andrew... hai liang... or some one close to me fails sem3...
i hate being left behind... i hate leaving people behind... i didn't like it in primary school... didn't like it in secondary school and i still don't like it...
exams suck...
9 days to christmas...
8 days to christmas...
7 days to christmas...
yeah, i missed a lot of days cos' my family's back and they're hogging the computer... >_<
Thursday, December 15, 2005
home alone
its actually been 3 days alredi...and most people would have announced this at the first possible moment... but anyway i'm home alone for this entire week...
my families away in singapore.. and i'm home alone with the maid and grandfather...
but then again... i know most would jump at the opportunity for this to happen, screaming FREEDOM... but heh, its strange but, yeah... i'm enjoying myself to a certain extent... but after a while you sometimes wish there was more people at home... someone to talk to...
and anyway... after spending one whole day playing computer it DOES get pretty boring... so... in a way it's good cos' i AM supposed to be studying... so, maybe it's for the best...
anyway, i missed yesterday... so
11 days to christmas (yesterday)
10 days to christmas (today)
my families away in singapore.. and i'm home alone with the maid and grandfather...
but then again... i know most would jump at the opportunity for this to happen, screaming FREEDOM... but heh, its strange but, yeah... i'm enjoying myself to a certain extent... but after a while you sometimes wish there was more people at home... someone to talk to...
and anyway... after spending one whole day playing computer it DOES get pretty boring... so... in a way it's good cos' i AM supposed to be studying... so, maybe it's for the best...
anyway, i missed yesterday... so
11 days to christmas (yesterday)
10 days to christmas (today)
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
anger
how do you let someone know you're angry?
is it ever good to get angry?
hmm... today i was really angry... but i didn't let anyone know cos' it was a birthday party and i didn't want to be a killjoy... should i have gone and sulked in a corner... blow up in front of everyone... or just smile and pretend nothing happened...i don't really know why i was angry... maybe it was bcos' we were made to drive around cheras and kl cos' the girls had to choose a place in cheras to eat that no one had gone before... maybe it's bcos' girls don't give directions very well... maybe it's just bcos' i decided to go for a birthday party i very well knew i would be coming back late from...maybe i'm angry cos' no one noticed i was angry... i don't really know who i'm angry wif anyway...
huh... being angry sux... dun feel like studying today...
12 days to christmas
is it ever good to get angry?
hmm... today i was really angry... but i didn't let anyone know cos' it was a birthday party and i didn't want to be a killjoy... should i have gone and sulked in a corner... blow up in front of everyone... or just smile and pretend nothing happened...i don't really know why i was angry... maybe it was bcos' we were made to drive around cheras and kl cos' the girls had to choose a place in cheras to eat that no one had gone before... maybe it's bcos' girls don't give directions very well... maybe it's just bcos' i decided to go for a birthday party i very well knew i would be coming back late from...maybe i'm angry cos' no one noticed i was angry... i don't really know who i'm angry wif anyway...
huh... being angry sux... dun feel like studying today...
12 days to christmas
Saturday, December 10, 2005
why
We rode into town the other day
Just me and my Daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide
We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes
So I said "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows
Daddy, please can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry
you said he was stronger than all of those guys
Daddy, please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die?"
Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And Daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross
And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for My robe?
This crown of thorns hurts Me more than it shows
Father, please can't You do something?
I know that You must hear My cry
I thought I could handle the cross of this size
Father, remind Me why
Why does everyone want Me to die?
When will I understand why?"
"My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe You in robes of My own
Jesus, this hurts Me much more than You know
But this dark hour I must do nothing
Though I've heard Your unbearable cry
The power in Your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon You'll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below, see the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell You why
She is why You must die"
i don't know if i've posted this before... i first heard it during easter this year... but i'm reminded again during christmas... that Jesus was born to die...
Just me and my Daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide
We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes
So I said "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows
Daddy, please can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry
you said he was stronger than all of those guys
Daddy, please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die?"
Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And Daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross
And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for My robe?
This crown of thorns hurts Me more than it shows
Father, please can't You do something?
I know that You must hear My cry
I thought I could handle the cross of this size
Father, remind Me why
Why does everyone want Me to die?
When will I understand why?"
"My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe You in robes of My own
Jesus, this hurts Me much more than You know
But this dark hour I must do nothing
Though I've heard Your unbearable cry
The power in Your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon You'll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below, see the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell You why
She is why You must die"
i don't know if i've posted this before... i first heard it during easter this year... but i'm reminded again during christmas... that Jesus was born to die...
Friday, November 25, 2005
christmas is coming :)
yeah... christmas is coming...
but...heheh, i won't have time to buy christmas presents for anyone...not that i have sufficient funds:P... so yeah, having no time is an excuse for me to save up a bit;)...
haha... anyways... christmas is coming :)...
yay... there's carolling this year, and camp, and holidays(of sorts)... so, heh, it might yet be an enjoyable christmas... we'll see... but as always... i look forward to christmas again...
heh, its probably cos' it brings so much joy and hope.... :)
but...heheh, i won't have time to buy christmas presents for anyone...not that i have sufficient funds:P... so yeah, having no time is an excuse for me to save up a bit;)...
haha... anyways... christmas is coming :)...
yay... there's carolling this year, and camp, and holidays(of sorts)... so, heh, it might yet be an enjoyable christmas... we'll see... but as always... i look forward to christmas again...
heh, its probably cos' it brings so much joy and hope.... :)
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
between two worlds
heh... its weird, but at times it feels like i'm hanging between two worlds...
like i'm having one leg in church and one leg in IMU... neither here nor there...
IMU prevents me from spending all my time in church,
and church prevents me from spending all my time in IMU...
and sometimes i wish i could bring both together, or if i can't... then remove one and stick with the other... but then again...
sometimes makes me wonder how'll life be when i move over to seremban...
like i'm having one leg in church and one leg in IMU... neither here nor there...
IMU prevents me from spending all my time in church,
and church prevents me from spending all my time in IMU...
and sometimes i wish i could bring both together, or if i can't... then remove one and stick with the other... but then again...
sometimes makes me wonder how'll life be when i move over to seremban...
Sunday, November 20, 2005
love?!
how do you make someone love you?
how do you make someone trust you?
heh, you can't really... no, i didn't have a close encounter with the lovey kind... but was kinda sharing about this in TU yesterday... heh, and i think i said something which sounded pretty cool... i didn't come up with it-lah...but nevertheless, i hadn't thought about saying it consciously... which made it more cool-lah...
"every morning God is proposing to each and everyone of us, hoping that for that day we'll accept Him into our heart once more, making Him our love of our life once again..." or something to that effect-lah... don't really remember, cos' it was impromptu...
heh, this week is gonna be a killer week... VBS + classes + mock OSCE... hmm... let's see how it'll work out... -_-
how do you make someone trust you?
heh, you can't really... no, i didn't have a close encounter with the lovey kind... but was kinda sharing about this in TU yesterday... heh, and i think i said something which sounded pretty cool... i didn't come up with it-lah...but nevertheless, i hadn't thought about saying it consciously... which made it more cool-lah...
"every morning God is proposing to each and everyone of us, hoping that for that day we'll accept Him into our heart once more, making Him our love of our life once again..." or something to that effect-lah... don't really remember, cos' it was impromptu...
heh, this week is gonna be a killer week... VBS + classes + mock OSCE... hmm... let's see how it'll work out... -_-
Thursday, November 17, 2005
busy
hmm... you wish it could be otherwise... but sometimes your so busy that you almost hate yourself for it... and sometimes its not so much that your time is filled up with stuff that you have to do, but stuff that you want to do... hmm... so much stuff to do... so little time...
heh, yeah... GI and EOS is coming up... and i wonder why i signed up for VBS( which happens the week b4 GI; and AYBC (week before EOS)... haih... stupid am i? where am i going to find time to study....
heh, yeah... GI and EOS is coming up... and i wonder why i signed up for VBS( which happens the week b4 GI; and AYBC (week before EOS)... haih... stupid am i? where am i going to find time to study....
Saturday, November 12, 2005
in christ alone
Newsboys - In Christ Alone Lyrics
In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand
In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live
There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Brought with the precious blood of Christ
No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand
hmm... i'm going to be doing something that needs lotsa strength tomoro... heh, and its not about lifting objects... hrm... God be with me, and mei too... she needs lotsa faith and strength now...
In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand
In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live
There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Brought with the precious blood of Christ
No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand
hmm... i'm going to be doing something that needs lotsa strength tomoro... heh, and its not about lifting objects... hrm... God be with me, and mei too... she needs lotsa faith and strength now...
Friday, November 11, 2005
sick
hehe... i'm sick at home, due to fever and diarrhoea... haih, the past few days have been quite hectic.. so i was actually quite thankful that i didn't have to go to school today... can finish up on preparing VBS handwork and sunday school lesson...
but ohh... getting cirit birit really sux to the max...
but ohh... getting cirit birit really sux to the max...
Friday, November 04, 2005
spam
hmm... its kinda getting irritating, this comments spam thingy... isn't there any software i can install to stop it happening? and what's blogger doing about it i wonder...
heheh, on the other hand, without the spam... most of my posts would go without comments... but as it is, i'm irritated enuff with these "fake comments"....
lol... there is one other option i can use to stop this comments-spam thingy happening... which is to stop posting alotogether:P... nah, don't think that's an option...
on another note... i was right... i should have called up mei... and sooner at that...
heheh, on the other hand, without the spam... most of my posts would go without comments... but as it is, i'm irritated enuff with these "fake comments"....
lol... there is one other option i can use to stop this comments-spam thingy happening... which is to stop posting alotogether:P... nah, don't think that's an option...
on another note... i was right... i should have called up mei... and sooner at that...
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
holiday
heh... its actually been quite a while since and gonna be quite a while b4 i get another holiday...
maybe that's why i only know how to waste holidays with sleeping late and waking up late:P...
but n/eways... this holidays is only a partial holidays, cos' i'm supposed to be studying due to the fact that i've been slacking since GI started... so its 2 whole weeks worth of lectures... oh well... good luck to me:P...
oh, and i just realized i should call up mei or something... haven't spoken to her in a while...
on the other hand... its good to be able to stop worrying about stuff this whole week...
no sunday school lesson to prepare, nothing to do for TU, no school stuff to worry about... heh, nice :)
hmm... on the other hand, was thinking to myself this morning... its time to start thinking about when to quit presidentship...
maybe that's why i only know how to waste holidays with sleeping late and waking up late:P...
but n/eways... this holidays is only a partial holidays, cos' i'm supposed to be studying due to the fact that i've been slacking since GI started... so its 2 whole weeks worth of lectures... oh well... good luck to me:P...
oh, and i just realized i should call up mei or something... haven't spoken to her in a while...
on the other hand... its good to be able to stop worrying about stuff this whole week...
no sunday school lesson to prepare, nothing to do for TU, no school stuff to worry about... heh, nice :)
hmm... on the other hand, was thinking to myself this morning... its time to start thinking about when to quit presidentship...
Saturday, October 29, 2005
sambutan hangat
nampak nya "post" yang lepas telah mendapat sambutan hangat.. mungkin beta patut lebih ber-blog dalam bahasa ibunda... lol, no-lah... afterwards got "over-exposure"... BM posts keep for uhh... "un-special" occasions when got nothing better to do... afterwards xian...
Thursday, October 27, 2005
hari ini
hari ini hari khamis...
pada hari khamis ini tiada apa-apa yang istimewa... oleh itu, saya tiada apa-apa untuk ditulis di sini...
hmm... sebenarnya minggu ini banyak orang yang menyambut hari jadi mereka... pada hari ahad yang baru lepas ada, iaitu cik leena... pada hari selasa, encik daniel dan cik joanne... pada hari rabu, encik chiyuan... pada hari jumaat, encik fang...pada hari sabtu, encik pastor chua... pada hari ahad akan datang, encik timothy... wah... banyak sungguh... haha, my BM quite good-ah? :P
pada hari khamis ini tiada apa-apa yang istimewa... oleh itu, saya tiada apa-apa untuk ditulis di sini...
hmm... sebenarnya minggu ini banyak orang yang menyambut hari jadi mereka... pada hari ahad yang baru lepas ada, iaitu cik leena... pada hari selasa, encik daniel dan cik joanne... pada hari rabu, encik chiyuan... pada hari jumaat, encik fang...pada hari sabtu, encik pastor chua... pada hari ahad akan datang, encik timothy... wah... banyak sungguh... haha, my BM quite good-ah? :P
Sunday, October 23, 2005
cars
haha... this weekend was rather eventful...
it began on saturday morning... as all weekends do... with me waking up.. and doing quiet time...
so, then halfway thru my dad called me up to ask me to push the car... so push the car i did...
i put my hand on the windscreen... and started pushing... and my dad jumped into the car and closed the door... there was a crushing sound, and the next thing i knew my index finger was stuck between the bar at the edge of the windscreen and the driver's door... oh yeah... in case you're wondering... it hurt... lots...heheh, my dad opened the door(yeah, the door actually closed and latched, not the "closed" where it bounces off my finger and opens back) and miraculously my finger was fine... except for some lost skin and a numb swollen feeling in my index finger which still hurts now... heh, passage for quiet time was Psalm 4.. which included this line :"...You have filled my heart with greater joy..." :)
lol... but it turned out true anyway... cos' i was on pianist duty(yes.. the type which needs you to use your fingers)... for youth and for worship... and well, to cut the long story short... i was still able to play.. praise God :>
come to today...
i knew i was out of petrol since yesterday... but i was hoping i would be able to leave it until after futsal to fill up... tough luck... that small little voice telling me to fill up immediately after church was right...
for the first time in my entire life... my car ran out of fuel, died.. and wouldn't start up... haha...anyway... after futsal, daniel who had earlier picked me up to futsal, drove me to BP to get some petrol and we managed to start up the car again after some pushing and help from some passing uncles:)... haha... so yeah, my first "car problem" solved ever... by myself :P... feeling rather accomplished...
it began on saturday morning... as all weekends do... with me waking up.. and doing quiet time...
so, then halfway thru my dad called me up to ask me to push the car... so push the car i did...
i put my hand on the windscreen... and started pushing... and my dad jumped into the car and closed the door... there was a crushing sound, and the next thing i knew my index finger was stuck between the bar at the edge of the windscreen and the driver's door... oh yeah... in case you're wondering... it hurt... lots...heheh, my dad opened the door(yeah, the door actually closed and latched, not the "closed" where it bounces off my finger and opens back) and miraculously my finger was fine... except for some lost skin and a numb swollen feeling in my index finger which still hurts now... heh, passage for quiet time was Psalm 4.. which included this line :"...You have filled my heart with greater joy..." :)
lol... but it turned out true anyway... cos' i was on pianist duty(yes.. the type which needs you to use your fingers)... for youth and for worship... and well, to cut the long story short... i was still able to play.. praise God :>
come to today...
i knew i was out of petrol since yesterday... but i was hoping i would be able to leave it until after futsal to fill up... tough luck... that small little voice telling me to fill up immediately after church was right...
for the first time in my entire life... my car ran out of fuel, died.. and wouldn't start up... haha...anyway... after futsal, daniel who had earlier picked me up to futsal, drove me to BP to get some petrol and we managed to start up the car again after some pushing and help from some passing uncles:)... haha... so yeah, my first "car problem" solved ever... by myself :P... feeling rather accomplished...
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Thursday, October 20, 2005
malays
the malays are a sad race...
it's sad cos' they're so full of racial pride and umm... that "family" spirit, that really makes all malays seem to be a sort of "big family" from the kampung...
it's sad cos' they're so proud of their country and their upbringing...
it's sad cos' they're so proud of their heritage and traditions and customs and festivals...
its sad cos' they're such a cool and laid back people...
it's sad cos' they're a dying race...
it's sad cos' the new generation of malays are breaking off from their families and leading individual lives apart from their families and communities...
it's sad cos' the malays are living lives for their immediate pleasure without thinking of the future consequences...
it's sad cos' the malay youth don't seem to remember or know where they've come from and where they're going...
its sad cos' so many malays have such a 'tidak apa' attitude that doesn't care about anyone other than themselves and the people close to them...
its' sad cos' the only man who seemed to finally seemed to be doing something right for the malays lost his wife to breast cancer this morning...
life is full or suffering and injustice. i remember blogging on how tough it was to be Badawi... i guess it just got a whole lot tougher...
my condolences to Pak Lah and family... i pray that he'll somehow get thru this...
it's sad cos' they're so full of racial pride and umm... that "family" spirit, that really makes all malays seem to be a sort of "big family" from the kampung...
it's sad cos' they're so proud of their country and their upbringing...
it's sad cos' they're so proud of their heritage and traditions and customs and festivals...
its sad cos' they're such a cool and laid back people...
it's sad cos' they're a dying race...
it's sad cos' the new generation of malays are breaking off from their families and leading individual lives apart from their families and communities...
it's sad cos' the malays are living lives for their immediate pleasure without thinking of the future consequences...
it's sad cos' the malay youth don't seem to remember or know where they've come from and where they're going...
its sad cos' so many malays have such a 'tidak apa' attitude that doesn't care about anyone other than themselves and the people close to them...
its' sad cos' the only man who seemed to finally seemed to be doing something right for the malays lost his wife to breast cancer this morning...
life is full or suffering and injustice. i remember blogging on how tough it was to be Badawi... i guess it just got a whole lot tougher...
my condolences to Pak Lah and family... i pray that he'll somehow get thru this...
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
spam
Anonymous said...
Hey, interesting post! I've bookmarked your blog and will be reading it regularly.By the way, did you hear today that North Korea, once designated by George Bush as part of the "axis of evil", has agreed to drop its nuclear weapons development? In return, the US gave an assurance that it had no nuclear weapons on the Korean peninsula and no intention of attacking or invading Pyongyang with nuclear or conventional weapons. What do you think about that?I have a car finance web site which you or your readers may find interesting. It pretty much covers car finance related stuff.Keep up the nice work!
Jimmy
11:54 PM
mOkKiEs® said...
HAHAHHAHHA! oh man! the lines between spam and blog comments are getting blurrer than a windscreen on a wet day!
1:05 AM
nEphilim said... well jimmy... i personally think that this post wasn't that interesting... i have absolutely no idea why you say it is so... as to what i think about george bush and north korea... well, if you drop by more than once i promise you i'll give you a reasonable answer :P...lol... i wish i could spam HIS website ;)
9:26 PM
i can't resist it... but i'm blogging about... my blog :P... haha, the self-centredness of it all...
some dude named jimmy apparently dropped by and posted this comment... now how bout' that... do you think he'll be here again? i doubt it... now it'll truly make my day if someone else anonymous dropped by to leave some anonymous comments that would strangely have a link to his anonymous website...
the lines between spam and real comments are getting blurred... talk about a technological revolution :P
Hey, interesting post! I've bookmarked your blog and will be reading it regularly.By the way, did you hear today that North Korea, once designated by George Bush as part of the "axis of evil", has agreed to drop its nuclear weapons development? In return, the US gave an assurance that it had no nuclear weapons on the Korean peninsula and no intention of attacking or invading Pyongyang with nuclear or conventional weapons. What do you think about that?I have a car finance web site which you or your readers may find interesting. It pretty much covers car finance related stuff.Keep up the nice work!
Jimmy
11:54 PM
mOkKiEs® said...
HAHAHHAHHA! oh man! the lines between spam and blog comments are getting blurrer than a windscreen on a wet day!
1:05 AM
nEphilim said... well jimmy... i personally think that this post wasn't that interesting... i have absolutely no idea why you say it is so... as to what i think about george bush and north korea... well, if you drop by more than once i promise you i'll give you a reasonable answer :P...lol... i wish i could spam HIS website ;)
9:26 PM
i can't resist it... but i'm blogging about... my blog :P... haha, the self-centredness of it all...
some dude named jimmy apparently dropped by and posted this comment... now how bout' that... do you think he'll be here again? i doubt it... now it'll truly make my day if someone else anonymous dropped by to leave some anonymous comments that would strangely have a link to his anonymous website...
the lines between spam and real comments are getting blurred... talk about a technological revolution :P
Monday, October 17, 2005
post-exam
heheh... the best days of my life are those that are after exams...
no worries, no cares... umm, yeah... at least for a while :)...
feeling quite accomplished today actually... finished watching my Full Metal Alchemist Anime, played finish Hero Seige with the dotA gang(which was a totally absolute waste of time)...
but the best part about not having any immediate exams isn't the fact that you're able to do what you want to do... but cos' you don't need to worry studies :)...
no worries, no cares... umm, yeah... at least for a while :)...
feeling quite accomplished today actually... finished watching my Full Metal Alchemist Anime, played finish Hero Seige with the dotA gang(which was a totally absolute waste of time)...
but the best part about not having any immediate exams isn't the fact that you're able to do what you want to do... but cos' you don't need to worry studies :)...
Thursday, October 13, 2005
exam
hmm... strangely i've been able to blog quite regularly in spite of exams... heh, tomoro's hemato... hopefully it's ok-la...
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Sunday, October 09, 2005
gl hf
Blessid Union of Souls-I believe
Walk blindly to the light and reach out for his hand
Don't ask any questions and don't try to understand
Open up your mind and then open up your heart
And you will see that you and me aren't very far apart
'Cause I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
Violence is spread worldwide and there are families on the street
And we sell drugs to children now oh why can't we just see
That all we do is eliminate our future with the things we do today
Money is our incentive now so that makes it okay
But I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
I've been seeing Lisa now for a little over a year
She said she's never been so happy but Lisa lives in fear
That one day daddy's gonna find out she's in love
With a nigger from the streets
Oh how he would lose it then but she's still here with me
'Cause she believes that love will see it through
And one day he'll understand
And he'll see me as a person not just a black man
'Cause I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
I believe I believe I believe I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
Love will find the way
Love will find the way
Love will find the way
Please love find the way
Please love find the way
umm... gl hf stands for good luck, have fun... it's something we type just as a dotA game is starting(heh, don't think there's gonna be dotA this week, even on friday:|)
well, this is gonna be a long and difficult week that's filled with a tight schedule that's gonna end only next sunday...
hmm... tomoro have Mock Osce and have to pass up KK History, thursday there's a wedding rehearsal, friday's End of System for Hemato, saturday a wedding... then there's a TU lesson to prepare for saturday and sunday there's sunday school lesson... both of which is gonna take up time for preparation... which means i don't have much time to prepare for Hemato... hmm, this state of affairs is quite worrisome...
oh yeah, above song probably doesn't have anything to do with anything... just was listening to it just now...
Walk blindly to the light and reach out for his hand
Don't ask any questions and don't try to understand
Open up your mind and then open up your heart
And you will see that you and me aren't very far apart
'Cause I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
Violence is spread worldwide and there are families on the street
And we sell drugs to children now oh why can't we just see
That all we do is eliminate our future with the things we do today
Money is our incentive now so that makes it okay
But I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
I've been seeing Lisa now for a little over a year
She said she's never been so happy but Lisa lives in fear
That one day daddy's gonna find out she's in love
With a nigger from the streets
Oh how he would lose it then but she's still here with me
'Cause she believes that love will see it through
And one day he'll understand
And he'll see me as a person not just a black man
'Cause I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
I believe I believe I believe I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way
Love will find the way
Love will find the way
Love will find the way
Please love find the way
Please love find the way
umm... gl hf stands for good luck, have fun... it's something we type just as a dotA game is starting(heh, don't think there's gonna be dotA this week, even on friday:|)
well, this is gonna be a long and difficult week that's filled with a tight schedule that's gonna end only next sunday...
hmm... tomoro have Mock Osce and have to pass up KK History, thursday there's a wedding rehearsal, friday's End of System for Hemato, saturday a wedding... then there's a TU lesson to prepare for saturday and sunday there's sunday school lesson... both of which is gonna take up time for preparation... which means i don't have much time to prepare for Hemato... hmm, this state of affairs is quite worrisome...
oh yeah, above song probably doesn't have anything to do with anything... just was listening to it just now...
Saturday, October 08, 2005
exams...:(
it's quite pathetic, but for a couple of months alredi my life has revolved around nothing but studies and exams...:(
is there no one willing to break me out of this evil that is consuming all of us?!
is there no one willing to break me out of this evil that is consuming all of us?!
Sunday, October 02, 2005
badawi
hmm... i was just watching news just now... and i realized that being badawi is tough...
first he's got crappy dudes all around him trying to make a quick buck and get their 15 minutes of fame, and the only rare times he'll probably get a good day in the office are those when he finds that rare instance when someone's really interested in doing something for the country's good and not his/her own... talk about crappy job...
to top it all off, his wife is going thru cancer treatment... well, if anyone would want to runaway and hide from it all i think he would have an excuse to do so...
first he's got crappy dudes all around him trying to make a quick buck and get their 15 minutes of fame, and the only rare times he'll probably get a good day in the office are those when he finds that rare instance when someone's really interested in doing something for the country's good and not his/her own... talk about crappy job...
to top it all off, his wife is going thru cancer treatment... well, if anyone would want to runaway and hide from it all i think he would have an excuse to do so...
Saturday, October 01, 2005
perky
lol... it either shows i hardly blog or that i'm having mood swings:P...
feeling quite perky today, as opposed to my previous post... heh, a few reasons for perkiness...
this system i'm able to keep unfinished notes down to below 10, which means end of course exam hopefully won't be so stressful:), and... mostly this week for the first time in many, many weeks... actually managed to end the week with money in my pocket... huh, probably due to having dinner at home the WHOLE week(feels wierd actually)... and playing only 3 dotA games over the whole week... admittedly yesterday i went to watch, but at least i didn't play:P
feeling quite perky today, as opposed to my previous post... heh, a few reasons for perkiness...
this system i'm able to keep unfinished notes down to below 10, which means end of course exam hopefully won't be so stressful:), and... mostly this week for the first time in many, many weeks... actually managed to end the week with money in my pocket... huh, probably due to having dinner at home the WHOLE week(feels wierd actually)... and playing only 3 dotA games over the whole week... admittedly yesterday i went to watch, but at least i didn't play:P
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
tired
heh... the IE auto-complete informed me this isn't the first time i'm blogging about this...
well... i'm tired... just... tired... at moments like this i really wish i had a girlfriend to talk to...
frens like mei and all are cool and all... but well, you can't keep on bugging ppl about your troubles all the time...
well... i'm tired... just... tired... at moments like this i really wish i had a girlfriend to talk to...
frens like mei and all are cool and all... but well, you can't keep on bugging ppl about your troubles all the time...
Saturday, September 24, 2005
plasticine
i had a dream about plasticine last nite.. heh, i'm not one to blog about dreams and stuff.. but it's kinda stuck in my head anyway...
you know when plasticine get's rolled in dirt, it's almost impossible to separate the two. imagine if you rolled a ball of white plasticine with a block of black plasticine, and kept on rolling and rolling it. it's almost impossible to separate the two.
Now imagine that block of plasticine is you.
Sometimes the dirt shows on the surface, sometimes it's hidden underneath. So sometimes we try to pull out the dirt but there always seems to be more underneath the surface, and we seem to keep on sticking back the dirt onto the ball. Sometimes we try to cover the dirt back up so that on the outside it looks all white and nice.
Some of us hate ourselves for being so dirty that we try to cover it up, but somehow... the dirt still keeps on coming back to the surface as we roll about.
Some of us hate others for their dirt showing up on their pieces of plasticine, and so we avoid those dirty pieces of plasticine and stick to other "cleaner" pieces of plasticine... but the truth is.. all of us have some amount of dirt stuck on and in us.
I suppose the only way to be able to get thru life with the dirt removed, and really removed.. is if we let the Maker of our plasticine ball remove the dirt. At times it hurts cos' it's taking a part of ourselves away. At times it's the unnatural thing to do cos' we've gotten so used to the dirt being there cos' it's always been that way. But unless we let the Maker take the dirt away, it's going to get more and more, until all that's left inside and outside is dirt.. and nothing clean is left.
But it's only when we let our Maker start pulling away some of the dirt off us that we begin to be able to start loving ourselves cos' we wonder how anyone could love us so much to dirty His hands to pull out the dirt out of a plasticine ball. Then He tell's us it's because underneath all the dirt we've picked up, there's still that part of you that He made that He'll always love no matter how dirty the outside may seem.
And it's only then that we're able to love others cos' no matter how much dirt covers it up, there's always that part that the Maker put there, that'll always be there to love.
And so we try to spread the News of this Maker who's somehow willing to dirty His hands to pull out the dirt off us, so that one day... when we're all finally clean and white again... we'll no longer be plasticine figures... but real people.
this post is dedicated to that pretty girl who's always not at home.
you know when plasticine get's rolled in dirt, it's almost impossible to separate the two. imagine if you rolled a ball of white plasticine with a block of black plasticine, and kept on rolling and rolling it. it's almost impossible to separate the two.
Now imagine that block of plasticine is you.
Sometimes the dirt shows on the surface, sometimes it's hidden underneath. So sometimes we try to pull out the dirt but there always seems to be more underneath the surface, and we seem to keep on sticking back the dirt onto the ball. Sometimes we try to cover the dirt back up so that on the outside it looks all white and nice.
Some of us hate ourselves for being so dirty that we try to cover it up, but somehow... the dirt still keeps on coming back to the surface as we roll about.
Some of us hate others for their dirt showing up on their pieces of plasticine, and so we avoid those dirty pieces of plasticine and stick to other "cleaner" pieces of plasticine... but the truth is.. all of us have some amount of dirt stuck on and in us.
I suppose the only way to be able to get thru life with the dirt removed, and really removed.. is if we let the Maker of our plasticine ball remove the dirt. At times it hurts cos' it's taking a part of ourselves away. At times it's the unnatural thing to do cos' we've gotten so used to the dirt being there cos' it's always been that way. But unless we let the Maker take the dirt away, it's going to get more and more, until all that's left inside and outside is dirt.. and nothing clean is left.
But it's only when we let our Maker start pulling away some of the dirt off us that we begin to be able to start loving ourselves cos' we wonder how anyone could love us so much to dirty His hands to pull out the dirt out of a plasticine ball. Then He tell's us it's because underneath all the dirt we've picked up, there's still that part of you that He made that He'll always love no matter how dirty the outside may seem.
And it's only then that we're able to love others cos' no matter how much dirt covers it up, there's always that part that the Maker put there, that'll always be there to love.
And so we try to spread the News of this Maker who's somehow willing to dirty His hands to pull out the dirt off us, so that one day... when we're all finally clean and white again... we'll no longer be plasticine figures... but real people.
this post is dedicated to that pretty girl who's always not at home.
Friday, September 23, 2005
fur
hmm... ok, since i cutted my hair to this length i've recieved quite a few comments...
most popular was ,"What happened? Why you cut your hair like that?" and its many variations ranging from: "WAH!!" to "Why so desperate?"
hmm... another interesting is that although i still DO have hair, ppl say i cut myself bald...
heh, but my favorite comment is still vikki's comment, "Hi fur~!"
most popular was ,"What happened? Why you cut your hair like that?" and its many variations ranging from: "WAH!!" to "Why so desperate?"
hmm... another interesting is that although i still DO have hair, ppl say i cut myself bald...
heh, but my favorite comment is still vikki's comment, "Hi fur~!"
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
copy n paste
heh... cool-eh? i'm beginning to learn the art of copy and paste blogging...
exhibit one: previous blog entitled "raindrops"... was succesful published without a single "hand-typed" word in it... it was entirely copied and pasted from a lyrics site...
hmm... come to think of it, my mind wasn't actually on the blog last nite... was thinking bout other stuff actually... heh, shud hav waited till this morning to blog it, cos' i can't remember wat i wanted to do now...
oh well, so much for blogging being an "original art"...
exhibit one: previous blog entitled "raindrops"... was succesful published without a single "hand-typed" word in it... it was entirely copied and pasted from a lyrics site...
hmm... come to think of it, my mind wasn't actually on the blog last nite... was thinking bout other stuff actually... heh, shud hav waited till this morning to blog it, cos' i can't remember wat i wanted to do now...
oh well, so much for blogging being an "original art"...
Monday, September 19, 2005
raindrops
Raindrops keep falling on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothin' seems to fit
Those raindrops are falling on my head, they keep falling
So i just did me some talkin' to the sun
And i said i didn't like the way he' got things done
Sleepin' on the job
Those raindrops are falling on my, head they keep falling
But there's one thing i know
The blues he sends to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me
Raindrops keep falling on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Crying's not for me
Cause i'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because i'm free
Nothing's worrying me.
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothin' seems to fit
Those raindrops are falling on my head, they keep falling
So i just did me some talkin' to the sun
And i said i didn't like the way he' got things done
Sleepin' on the job
Those raindrops are falling on my, head they keep falling
But there's one thing i know
The blues he sends to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me
Raindrops keep falling on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Crying's not for me
Cause i'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because i'm free
Nothing's worrying me.
Saturday, September 17, 2005
exams over
finally... respi's over.. i think i have some recheduling to do...
no more going out for a couple of months... for financial and family considerations... haven't been at home for almost a month alredi... first was johor, then orientation, then exams..hmm... i'm only at home to sleep.. heheh, now not even to eat, which is why i'm broke... eating dinner outside costs a bomb... even the monthly dotA bill is peanuts in comparison...
when you're eating outside it's either not enough or its too expensive... and sometimes it's both expensive AND not enough... *blek...
hrmm... and i need to think of a elective to do that won't cost too much...
no more going out for a couple of months... for financial and family considerations... haven't been at home for almost a month alredi... first was johor, then orientation, then exams..hmm... i'm only at home to sleep.. heheh, now not even to eat, which is why i'm broke... eating dinner outside costs a bomb... even the monthly dotA bill is peanuts in comparison...
when you're eating outside it's either not enough or its too expensive... and sometimes it's both expensive AND not enough... *blek...
hrmm... and i need to think of a elective to do that won't cost too much...
Monday, September 12, 2005
hmm...
i don't really know what i'm posting... or for that matter why...
but anyway... the previous weekend was quite hectic...
the coming week will be too, have one week to squeeze all of Respi before friday...
hmm... on the bright side, i have a new haircut
and on thursday or next tues. might be meeting up with mei and nesin with andrew...
umm... yesterday and today woke up feeling really sore all over cos' saturday was moving PA stuff from the comm. hall back and fro... heheh, haven't been excercising in a while...
what i would give for a massage... :|
but anyway... the previous weekend was quite hectic...
the coming week will be too, have one week to squeeze all of Respi before friday...
hmm... on the bright side, i have a new haircut
and on thursday or next tues. might be meeting up with mei and nesin with andrew...
umm... yesterday and today woke up feeling really sore all over cos' saturday was moving PA stuff from the comm. hall back and fro... heheh, haven't been excercising in a while...
what i would give for a massage... :|
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
camera
hehe... i'm wishing i have a camera now, cos' there's a picture i really want to put up online...
Saturday, September 03, 2005
comments on orientation
hmm... by bro. made some interesting points about orientation... and heheh... being long winded my reply stretched too long that i decided to make it into a post...
"ragging" new believers..mwahaha, sounds like an excellent idea:P... no-lar...
hmmm...gud points, umm... but if i said that orientation does make IMU a better place to learn by preparing you for situations in real life where there'll be ppl who are out to get you but there are others who're out to help you... does it make sense?
and hmm... shudn't uni be a place to have fun and not just to study?
but uhh... on a serious side, i was just wondering whether we understand what it means to suffer as a christian, cos' most of the time, esp. in an urban culture... becoming a christian doesn't entail much suffering...thus IMHO we sometimes lower our standards to "fit" with the world, so that we can go thru life easier and go thru "less" suffering, and thus in a way, "skip this earthly orientation that's preparing us for heaven"?... umm... hope i'm not blaspheming or anything, but just thot abt it...
"ragging" new believers..mwahaha, sounds like an excellent idea:P... no-lar...
hmmm...gud points, umm... but if i said that orientation does make IMU a better place to learn by preparing you for situations in real life where there'll be ppl who are out to get you but there are others who're out to help you... does it make sense?
and hmm... shudn't uni be a place to have fun and not just to study?
but uhh... on a serious side, i was just wondering whether we understand what it means to suffer as a christian, cos' most of the time, esp. in an urban culture... becoming a christian doesn't entail much suffering...thus IMHO we sometimes lower our standards to "fit" with the world, so that we can go thru life easier and go thru "less" suffering, and thus in a way, "skip this earthly orientation that's preparing us for heaven"?... umm... hope i'm not blaspheming or anything, but just thot abt it...
end
yay... it's ended...
orientation's over... and i'm dead tired... i came back this morning at 730 with no more energy to go for telematch cos' i stayed over at hailiang's place since variety nite finished so late...
heheh, ok... fun's over... time to start studying... i'm wayyyy... behind.. and i'm tired...
i'm so thankful i chose to stay home and not go telematch... if i went TU without sleeping today, i'd be half dead...
orientation's over... and i'm dead tired... i came back this morning at 730 with no more energy to go for telematch cos' i stayed over at hailiang's place since variety nite finished so late...
heheh, ok... fun's over... time to start studying... i'm wayyyy... behind.. and i'm tired...
i'm so thankful i chose to stay home and not go telematch... if i went TU without sleeping today, i'd be half dead...
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
orientation
hrmm... orientation has started :)..
yeah.. it's all fun and stuff, but besides the occasional rebel, there was one comment from the juniors that piqued(woohoo, BIG WORD) my attention:P
umm... i believe she said that upon being approached to crack an egg on her head, she said that she "had self-respect" and thus didn't want to be dirtied and so proceeded to refuse the offer of having and egg on her head... heheh, amazing how i'm able to make ragging seem so nice;P...
anywayz, i'm of the opinion that ragging DOES serve a purpose and IS good for the juniors...
here's why i think that is ISN'T degrading, and IS beneficial... tell me what u think...
Does refusing to get dirty show you have self-respect? do garbage collector's have self respect? if anything in orientation would show you don't have any self-respect i would think it would be all the vulgarity and coarse language in the cheers you have to shout out to the whole of IMU to hear that would be "degrading" or that shows you don't have any "self-respect"... as it is, most if not all of the juniors are willing to put up with all the vulgarity but the (IMHO)spoilt few aren't willing to put up with the getting dirty part.
if anything, refusing to get dirty shows more about YOU(jr.) then about US(sr.)..
1. you DON'T have a sense of humour.. what, you don't find getting dirty fun? go live in an air-conditioned box...
2. you are a SPOILT brat who doesn't know how to roll up your sleeves and go thru suffering wif a smile on your face... which if you don't know how to do, i seriously advise you to quit studying medicine or whatever it is you're studying and learn more about real life... real life serves up ppl who REALLY want to put your face in the mud and step on it, while we seniors are merely presenting a "physical metaphor" of what you're gonna get for the rest of your life from ppl around you, ppl close to you, and ppl whom you don't know...
3. you DON'T know how to be a friend... your frens all around you are "suffering"(since you view it as such) and yet you aren't willing to help support them and "suffer" along with them...
hmm... that's all i can think of... it makes perfect sense to me, but i fear it could be because i'm standing on the other side of the fence...
anyone on the junior side(way down below there looking up on us hi n mighty seniors:P) care to "enlighten" on why ragging is bad?
yeah.. it's all fun and stuff, but besides the occasional rebel, there was one comment from the juniors that piqued(woohoo, BIG WORD) my attention:P
umm... i believe she said that upon being approached to crack an egg on her head, she said that she "had self-respect" and thus didn't want to be dirtied and so proceeded to refuse the offer of having and egg on her head... heheh, amazing how i'm able to make ragging seem so nice;P...
anywayz, i'm of the opinion that ragging DOES serve a purpose and IS good for the juniors...
here's why i think that is ISN'T degrading, and IS beneficial... tell me what u think...
Does refusing to get dirty show you have self-respect? do garbage collector's have self respect? if anything in orientation would show you don't have any self-respect i would think it would be all the vulgarity and coarse language in the cheers you have to shout out to the whole of IMU to hear that would be "degrading" or that shows you don't have any "self-respect"... as it is, most if not all of the juniors are willing to put up with all the vulgarity but the (IMHO)spoilt few aren't willing to put up with the getting dirty part.
if anything, refusing to get dirty shows more about YOU(jr.) then about US(sr.)..
1. you DON'T have a sense of humour.. what, you don't find getting dirty fun? go live in an air-conditioned box...
2. you are a SPOILT brat who doesn't know how to roll up your sleeves and go thru suffering wif a smile on your face... which if you don't know how to do, i seriously advise you to quit studying medicine or whatever it is you're studying and learn more about real life... real life serves up ppl who REALLY want to put your face in the mud and step on it, while we seniors are merely presenting a "physical metaphor" of what you're gonna get for the rest of your life from ppl around you, ppl close to you, and ppl whom you don't know...
3. you DON'T know how to be a friend... your frens all around you are "suffering"(since you view it as such) and yet you aren't willing to help support them and "suffer" along with them...
hmm... that's all i can think of... it makes perfect sense to me, but i fear it could be because i'm standing on the other side of the fence...
anyone on the junior side(way down below there looking up on us hi n mighty seniors:P) care to "enlighten" on why ragging is bad?
Thursday, August 25, 2005
xus larom
no... it's not latin... it's just that moral sux so badly...and today it was extra bad...
hmm... firstly its from 4-6 which is BAD... really BAD.. especially when you've alredi been in uni since the break of dawn...
and then you have a..umm... she's actually not a bad lecturer... just one woman with a terribly bad attitude when she's kinda unhappy :(...
haihz... anyway today, we found out that we had a movie report to do... play to prepare... umm.. how much else?
oh YES!!... there IS something else... and the suxy moral teacher refused to move our moral exam next week which is happening at the same time as Orientation Treasure Hunt... and this when more than half the class is involved in it... ish, she's quite nice most of the time... but come on...~! it's ORIENTATION!!
but on the bright side, results came out for CVS today...n i got an A!! :)
no, i'm not boasting... i know what i did.. or rather how much i didn't do...but somehow God still sees fit to grant me this results...still, it's quite tough to go round telling other ppl u got an A when most of your friends are looking at a fail in the eye(fail in IMU btw, is B-)... hrmm...
oh... and to cap it all off today, after the super sucky moral... we went to "de-stress" and p-x... and for some reason... today all the ppl we played today are SUPER sucky players... not noobs mind you, though they aren't good players either... in fact, i shouldn't even call them players... i mean, how can you call yourself a dotA player when you join games and then leave when you're losing.. COME ON!!! what're you? even royalty knows how to lose.. and here you are leaving games just cos' u got a sucky hero or cos' u died first... and not once or twice... FOUR TIMES!!!... that's it-la... i'm not playing anymore unless its with own IMU ppl or at nite wif full team when there's REAL ppl worth playing against who don't LEAVE!!... or maybe i should quit dotA altogether :P... heheh, i remember i posted about quitting dotA b4... looks like it's a long way away... :(
hmm... firstly its from 4-6 which is BAD... really BAD.. especially when you've alredi been in uni since the break of dawn...
and then you have a..umm... she's actually not a bad lecturer... just one woman with a terribly bad attitude when she's kinda unhappy :(...
haihz... anyway today, we found out that we had a movie report to do... play to prepare... umm.. how much else?
oh YES!!... there IS something else... and the suxy moral teacher refused to move our moral exam next week which is happening at the same time as Orientation Treasure Hunt... and this when more than half the class is involved in it... ish, she's quite nice most of the time... but come on...~! it's ORIENTATION!!
but on the bright side, results came out for CVS today...n i got an A!! :)
no, i'm not boasting... i know what i did.. or rather how much i didn't do...but somehow God still sees fit to grant me this results...still, it's quite tough to go round telling other ppl u got an A when most of your friends are looking at a fail in the eye(fail in IMU btw, is B-)... hrmm...
oh... and to cap it all off today, after the super sucky moral... we went to "de-stress" and p-x... and for some reason... today all the ppl we played today are SUPER sucky players... not noobs mind you, though they aren't good players either... in fact, i shouldn't even call them players... i mean, how can you call yourself a dotA player when you join games and then leave when you're losing.. COME ON!!! what're you? even royalty knows how to lose.. and here you are leaving games just cos' u got a sucky hero or cos' u died first... and not once or twice... FOUR TIMES!!!... that's it-la... i'm not playing anymore unless its with own IMU ppl or at nite wif full team when there's REAL ppl worth playing against who don't LEAVE!!... or maybe i should quit dotA altogether :P... heheh, i remember i posted about quitting dotA b4... looks like it's a long way away... :(
Sunday, August 21, 2005
woah!!
woah!! i haven't been online in a week...
tomoro classes start:(.. well.. no more fun and games.. it's sem3...
hopefully i survive thru this sem.. don't think i'll have much time for dotA anymore... church will be taking up wat's remaining hopefully...
on a brighter note... juniors are coming in this week.. registration on wed and meet senior's on friday... whee~! :)... that's something to look fwd to:)...
orientation hasn't started but i feel that it rox alredi :)
tomoro classes start:(.. well.. no more fun and games.. it's sem3...
hopefully i survive thru this sem.. don't think i'll have much time for dotA anymore... church will be taking up wat's remaining hopefully...
on a brighter note... juniors are coming in this week.. registration on wed and meet senior's on friday... whee~! :)... that's something to look fwd to:)...
orientation hasn't started but i feel that it rox alredi :)
Monday, August 15, 2005
blue skies
Blue skies
Smiling at me
Nothing but blue skies
Do i see
-Ella Fitzgerald
yup :) the haze is gone... not that the problem is solved though... it just moved away to another place...
its now in penang and other northern states...
i'm on my last break this week... won't have anymore holidays till next YEAR!! :(... but anyway... will be gone to JB from wed to friday...
Smiling at me
Nothing but blue skies
Do i see
-Ella Fitzgerald
yup :) the haze is gone... not that the problem is solved though... it just moved away to another place...
its now in penang and other northern states...
i'm on my last break this week... won't have anymore holidays till next YEAR!! :(... but anyway... will be gone to JB from wed to friday...
Friday, August 12, 2005
haze again
hmm.. the haze seems better today... hehe, today i finally "found" vista after some 2-3 days of it being missing...
on other stuff... i'd been going thru old mail and websites... i've added a link to a rather thoughtful and meaningful blog by a chinese muslim who blogs regularly about stuff happening in Malaysia and abroad... it's really good especially if you're into politics and stuff like that... but even if you're not... it really get's you thinking about stuff though...
on other stuff... i'd been going thru old mail and websites... i've added a link to a rather thoughtful and meaningful blog by a chinese muslim who blogs regularly about stuff happening in Malaysia and abroad... it's really good especially if you're into politics and stuff like that... but even if you're not... it really get's you thinking about stuff though...
Thursday, August 11, 2005
haze
the haze is really bad...
there's even smoke in my house!!... that's not all, even my towel smells of smoke!!
how much more worse can it get...
the sunlight is even yellow now... it's almost like some magical place where you have perpetual mist and light without heat... which would be cool... if only if it didn't smell of smoke everywhere and everyone coughing and sneezing... topped of with it being harder to breath...
there's even smoke in my house!!... that's not all, even my towel smells of smoke!!
how much more worse can it get...
the sunlight is even yellow now... it's almost like some magical place where you have perpetual mist and light without heat... which would be cool... if only if it didn't smell of smoke everywhere and everyone coughing and sneezing... topped of with it being harder to breath...
i'm back
yay... i'm really back now :)... actually yesterday back alredi.. but didn't have time to go online cos' was out of the house:... but well, i'm here now... yeah, 1 more day and i have holidays coming for a week...
Monday, August 01, 2005
KKB
will be going KKB this week... hopefully if Ken drives i'll be able to be back for the weekend, but if he isn't well... no big deal anyway...
heh, which means i'll be having no internet access for a week...
heh, which means i'll be having no internet access for a week...
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