politics and medicine

there's been a rather amusing thread going on in m204's yahoo group.. it may be sensitive to most since its about race and racism in our country... but i found it rather amusing... heh... mostly cos' i skip the long mails and just read through to the end...

so i thought i'd add me 2 cents to the discussion... which i thought sounded rather intelligent... lol

heh... so much talk about politics and race...
oh well... i know for sure ganesh can't be a politician... he is anything but "politically correct"..

haha... i guess this is sth like med school maybe...hehe... wonder if you guys would agree...

any medical student can diagnose problems...
the heart got problem...
the brain got problem...
the lungs got problem..
everyone has their own different "diagnosis" of what's wrong with our country...
heh.. in fact i think politicians do good jobs of "diagnosing" problems (more often than not other ppls problems.. lol)

but i guess to be a doctor we need to have a plan of management...
and hopefully we all agree on the plan of management, which i think ganesh's last sentence rather quaintly addresses...

i quote: "we can't change politics (unless you become a politician lah.. which some of us will i think... except ganesh... lol)
it's too idealistic...
but we can change ourselves to become better citizens..."

cheers
zhiyong

p/s- it sux to be a final year med student... your brain nids to be that of a doc... but ur heart still wants to be med student... =_=

short changed

last saturday i came back to kl...
first thing to do was to have lunch with a bunch of guys...
so well... lunch lunch lunch... then after lunch have to pay bill...
so... nobody's has change... so i came out money first... total bill was 125... but yuans and gang came out 50 for their stuff... so i came out about 75... collect collect collect from the rest...
after came home onli realized that i onli got back 40 bucks..
short changed... literally.. =_=
and ironically brandom mentioned that this always happens...

and then well.. then actually after that supposed to do some bible study/discipleship thingy with the guys after lunch wan... and actually the only reason i came down to kl was to do this...
mana tau... things didn't work out cos' of ppl coming lates...
so that was like... i invest my saturday sunday time to come church...
and then my time got sort changed also... =_=

aih... too bads... i guess

5th year medical student

today is the first day of being a 5th and final year medical student...
i certainly don't feel like one...

the amount of work is almost depressing...

gonna need some chocolate or chips...

i'm awake

i'm awake...
ready to go...
final year of medicine is going down in a flash...

final preparations to make...
HAVE FUN for the last 3 days!!
its not gonna be an easy journey from here out...

one last post

i'd been wanting to post this for some time now, but i suppose i've been distracted the last couple of days...
but anyway... just one last post on juliang

i suppose it'll take some getting used to, to stop praying for juliang..
we've been praying for him for almost 3 years..
i suppose at first it did seem like our prayers had gone to waste..
but looking back, i think instead of wondering why God did not heal him absolutely... i suppose we could look at it as God granting us a stay of 2 years before taking juliang home..
in this 2 years i guess we've seen that God really does answer prayers... and that miracles do happen...
and i guess, what would mean more to us would be that God granted us 2 years to say goodbye...

maybe the thing that bothered me the most was why God would seem to answer our prayers but at the last minute, "pull back".. why grant the "minor miracle" of his heartbeat picking up...
why grant the bone marrow donor when in the end everything went to "waste"...
i already found it hard to believe in miracles that somoene can survive after septicemia and multiple organ failure... and these last "flickers of life" seemed like cruel tricks to grab on to hope for a miracle only to let us down at the last moment...

i struggled with this for a while until i came to be satisfied with the understanding that all this was done not for juliang... but for us... so that we might continue to believe in miracles... so that we might be able to always see the light when all seems so dark...
and i think in the end that kinda sums up all that juliang went through...

not because juliang did something wrong... not to test his faith... not to "take us for a ride"
but so that we might believe...
that it IS possible that..."to live is Christ, and to die is gain"
so that we might live in the knowledge that our lives now are just a preparation for the greater and better chapter..

ending

today... it ended... i'm not sure what time, but i got the message at 12pm...
not quite sure how to feel...
i guess its still too sudden...

juliang

Jesus loves me this i know,
for the bible tells me so.
little ones to him belong,
they are weak but he is strong...

this post is for juliang.. who is in critical condition...
because we believe that He is still taking care of us even when things don't look good...

saturday

heh.. looks like my attempt to blog everyday wasn't so succesful...
oh well... i suppose i'm not a habitual blogger...

otherwise... today's saturday :) i haven't spent saturday in seremban in a while...
and yeah... i'll be away tmr at camp... heh, quite wish i could be there till wednesday... but well... exam's more important i guess... lol

hmm... this is still quite a lala post...
i think it'll be my last short post... which means that the next update should probably be taking quite a long while to come... lol

eksam

today exam...
did ok i guess... ok enuff to pass...
i noob-ly identified a wrong murmur...
but i guess i'm ok with it...
i need more clinical practice heh... well, at least i have a direction to aim for...
more clinical practice... yes... will get down to it...

tyred

so crazy pig tired today...
think its the cumulative effect of playing badminton on wed and futsal on thurs...
i wish i could go to sleep in seremban and just wake up in kl...
wondering if i should drive back...

today

i opened the bottle today... it said...
"today.. will be a completely, totally, utterly different day from yesterday."

heh...
its nice having the promise of today because the PRESENT is always a GIFT...

on the other hand... after i came back today
i realized the whole day as quite wasted, cos' it was spent attending a "seminar" on organ donation... which i quite slept thru...
oh well... at least i've gotten my 10 survey patients done dy :)

i feel like some kinda lala boys blogging like this about mundane stuff actually... =_+

quantity/quality

went to ward today... to practice examination...
tired but feeling accomplished...
did a good deed today: took cpei to pasar malam to try cheer her up...

if you've noticed, i'm blogging shorter but more frequently...
wonder if in a blog, quantity matters more over quality...

on other matters... i've just been buzzed by someone alerting me to a very interesting post on suchuen's blog... its long...

but... nice :)

accomplished

today woke up.. made a list of stuff to do..
1. call GP to arrange GP posting
2. relaod TnG
3. deposit Boo cheque
yeah... just now did all... didn't forget any... well done to myself :)

reflect

xinli suggested i do some reflecting on my b'day...
i thought that was quite a good idea... hadn't thought of b'days in that perspective before...
a day to reflect on the past.. and plan for the future...

the past one year... has been good i guess...
this same time last year i was stressing out over upcoming sem7 exams to be held in january...
heh, fast forward to now... i'm kinda stressing out over upcoming sem9 exams to be held in january again... but i hope to be able to be looking back without stressing over any more exams this same time next year... heh... i think that'd be a good idea to re-look this next year...

relationships haven't gotten anywhere... heh, i guess the past year has been spent thinking about choices to make... but i guess i realized in some weeks ago that if anything is gonna go anywhere, its gonna take more doing and less pondering...

spiritually i guess i am in a way moving forward... beginning to see a direction to head for... but i guess this is rather closely related to my relationships... its gonna take more doing and less pondering... otherwise, i'm really quite glad that discipleship stuff is gonna happen soon... and my so called spiritual struggles have found an answer i can be satisfied in...

looking forward... i guess there are mainly 3 goals in my life now...
i'm rather lousy and multi-focussing... i can only focus on one task at a time, but well i believe things happen together for a reason, and if God brought me so far... He'll bring me through...
Church: discipleship and trying to get the youth i come into contact in to find out where God fits in their life...
Relationships: i suppose i've been moving forward in a way... but heh... its still a long way ahead... so hopefully i have the patience to take things as they come...
Studies: i really want to be a good doctor... so i guess that means i have to study more... heh... well, don't quite see any other way around this...

well... hopefully one year from now at this same time i'll be able to look back and see dreams achieved and hopes attained...

but yeah... thanks to everyone for all their b'day wishes... and yeah... thanks to everyone whose been supporting me in studies... in church... and in relationships...
heh... i don't think i can say one area is more important than the other now... currently all 3 have a place in my heart and my head... they just come forward when i'm in different places and cicumstances.. but they're all just as important to me now...

glass wall

it feels like i'm behind a glass wall these past few days...
well... maybe its an improvement from a cement wall...
cos' at first i wasn't able to log in to msn at all...
so although i know there are ppl online... i can't see them and they can't see me...
and we can't talk...
then it became a glass wall.. lol
now i'm able to log in... so i can actually see the people online...
but the connexion's so bad they can't see me... and i can't msg them most of the time...
so i can see them and maybe they can see me... i dono... but we can't communicate...
hmm... never thought i needed msn that badly...

a day in my life

today's a good day :)
although i went to sleep the previous night with a growling stomach because i couldn't find a midnight snack... woke up feeling fresh... hadn't had that in a while^^
had psychiatric community visit this morning... which ended up back in IMU because we lost the hospital van after the 1st house because we were all too busy talking in the car... lol... quite embarassing i think... don't think anyone's ever done that before... but we didn't think it was much of a deal anyway... cos' everyone told us it was a waste of time to go and we wanted to go back to the ward to clerk the case for tomorrow's case presentation...

so anyways... after the brief highway adventure... we ended up clerking a nice old man and his son in law...
so well... that was done for the day... so after lunch i headed back and accomplished quite a few things... photostated some papers... bought my midnight snacks... and had a hair cut at YOKA SALUN :)... hadn't had an indian barber hair cut in a while, so it was nice...
Uncle Frankie cut my hair and besides the hair cut, and some small talk... there was also some "neck cracking" which you don't get in any unisex saloon... :)

well this was followed by badminton and futsal... til.. now... haven't been so tired in a while... quite an eventful and productive day i'd say...
i think i can finish my selective report tonite... hopefully... lol

one more time

starting sem 8 again tomoro...
one more time...

tired... physically and mentally...
the week hasn't begun and i already want it to end...

=_=

pernolasity stet

i realized one way to keep the posts moving on is to do surveys...
heh... took this off fengko's blog
it looks like i literally copied the whole thing...
but it really is my own...

zhiyong,
Your personality is Phlegmatic Melancholy

Melancholy Strength:3 Weakness:8 28%
Phlegmatic Strength:16 Weakness:12 70%
Sanguine Strength:1 Weakness:0 3%
Choleric Strength:0 Weakness:0 0%

yeah... for definitions check out fengko's blog...

teg melayu

haih... semalam saya telah pulang ke seremban untuk sebentar sahaja tetapi rakan saya kyw terlalu gembira untuk bertemu saya... manalah saya tahu kenapa...=_=
haha... tambahan pula saya mendapat tahu bahawa saya telah mendapat "kerja rumah" ini... semoga orang yang membacanya akan berpuas hati...

7 fakta tentang saya
BM saya sebenarnya sangat teruk
Saya tidak mendapat A1 untuk BM
Semasa lebih muda saya makan apa pun tak gemuk, tetapi sekarang perut sudah mula buncit
Saya tidak menyukai "Tingkap Vista"
Saya teringin menyelam skuba di pulau sipadan
Saya juga seorang yang pendiam
Beberapa fakta tentang diri saya di sini adalah ditulis berpandukan apa yang tercatit di blog rakan saya fengyblogstoo.blogspot.com

7 perkara yang menakutkan saya
ular
cicak yang sangat besar
doktor yang garang
bertemu dengan orang yang berkuasa misalnya dato kanda
menonton filem yang penuh keganasan
kehilangan ibu bapa
kemalangan jalan raya

7 lagu buat sekarang
Tristram- Blizzard Diablo Soundtrack (lagu ini best)
Your love is just a lie- Simple Plan
Saya's Fear- OST2 Blood+
Amazing Love- Vineyard
Say it to me- OST Once (Glen Hansard)
Way back into love (versi demo)- Hugh Grant dan Drew Barrymore (Music and Lyrics)
Hero's Come Back- Nobody Knows (Naruto OP)

7 perkara yang saya selalu sebut
walau...
ehh...
umm...
err...
so...
hi...
saya pelajar perubatan tahun ke-4, saya ingin...

7 perkara yang amat bernilai
Tuhan saya
Keluarga saya
Kawan-kawan saya di gereja
Kawan-kawan saya di IMU
Kawan-kawan saya yang tidak di IMU atau gereja misalnya mei, william dan lain lain
Koleksi botol botol saya
Komputer saya

7 pertama kali dalam hidup saya
Kali pertama ber-blog dalam bahasa melayu
Kali pertama pergi ke IJN
Kali pertama ponteng pergi ke IJN hari ini
Kali pertama ber-blog begitu banyak tentang diri saya
Kali pertama ber-blog tentang kali pertama
Kali pertama pulang dari seremban pada pukul 1 pagi
Kali pertama pergi dan pulang dari seremban dalam masa kurang sehari

7 orang bertuah yang ingin mencuba nasib mecabar melayu aku
KYW
feng ko
christina ng
tan jen ern
lim sau tjun
daniel MCH
err... siapa siapa lagi lah... saya tidak terfikir siapa lagi yang akan cukup boring untuk meneruskan ini...

Sekian sahaja. Kalau boleh saya ingin menamatkan tag ini dengan satu ucapan yang biasa dibuat oleh rakan rakan melayu saya, tetapi itu mungkin tidak sesuai kerana sesetengah orang akan berpendapat itu akan menyinggung perasaan orang lain. Sampai sini sahaja lah...
-_-

merdeka

don't know why i got around to watching them today..
but, i love petronas ads.. i think most malaysians would...
but i guess i especially love merdeka ads... i guess the idea that we could be one nation that does not regard race or colour really appeals to me...

here are a few that brought a tear to my eye and warmed my heart...

hm... and i can't remember how to post videos anymore... =_= comes of being too lazy i suppose...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LSesjYw4KxU&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V0P_BTvfJ4k&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ezOSTYAhjZA&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o8zPNP3uLK0&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=05ILlMySCQE&feature=related