its convocation

yay!! it's convocation :)
that ceremony that finally indicates that you're graduating...
that you've stepped out of the shoes of a student and finally become...
a working adult...

guess i won't be going...
cos' this is a pseudo-graduation...
i'm still studying.. =_=

someone died

so there i was in the ward today... just now actually... and suddenly my fren noticed the doctor doing CPR in the cubicle in front of us and asked why not i go help out... cos' this actually wasn't the first time we helped out to do CPR... only thing was the previous time there was a specialist there, and there were no family members... and the guy was alredi confirmed dead when the dr asked us if we wanted to try out...
so well... since i'd done it b4 i went there and offered to help... anyway to cut the long story short... the guy died...
and this time a couple of minutes later the family arrived... i was ok with the guy dying... until the dr broke the news to the son and he burst into tears... and then it hit me... this guy just died... then all sorts of thoughts flooded my mind...
what struck me was that in spite of the family members being so emotional, we as the medical students and drs had to keep a straight face and the most we could do was say, "I'm sorry..."
as i drove to dinner i was complaining about many things... but the thing that struck me was... why can't we be sad? shouldn't we? aren't drs humans too?

well... not all of us are drs... but at the same time.. as christians... aren't we the spiritual drs of this world... do we feel sad whenever someone.. "spiritually dies"... or do we have any compassion or are we trying desperately to save the ppl around us?... as desperately as a medical student doing CPR thinking he can save the guy he's pumping...

have we become calloused and hard hearted.... forcing ourselves to "not be affected" by the sufferings of the people around us... or perhaps it is because we don't know what is "life" therefore we don't know when some one is "dead" or "dying"...

heh... come to think of it... i don't even know the guy's name... only know he's in for ESRF...

really tired today...

happy mum's day

happy mother's day mummy :)

laif

life is good i guess...
i was going thru my frens blogs...
medical students from all over... australia, seremban, uk(not yet go but still squatting in kl)...
non medical students...
i guess life goes on... this week was kinda first week in internal med...
its been quite up and down i guess...
but i think i realize that no matter how busy you think you are... life still goes on...
its a choice i guess.. to rush through life as a medical student rushing for research, case reports, studies, case presentations... but i don't think it has to be like that...
it just takes 5 minutes to pull out of the rush of the hour to look and feel for a patient... or to just stop and stare and the rain out of the window... to feel wind on your face... to just listen to the silence...
and suddenly everything falls back into perspective again...
life is good i guess...

stress

wah... stress...
i just realized that its been ages since i've really been studying...
surgery somehow didn't really have to stretch so long hours... still had to study then... but it seemed accomplishable...
internal med seems...
neverending...

sien like mad... this whole week... wait, no... it's only been 2 days... aaaahhh... these 2 days have been like neverending...

think i'll sleep early today...

tiga ratus

its been quite a while since my last post i realized...
heh.. maybe bcos' nth much to post abt since internal med started...
its so sien...
everyday just go ward, then tbl... sometimes got Case Presentation, but that's also with dr in ward...
if you're especially unlucky that week then u get to go PD which is even more boring... hmm..
internal med is like one big ward posting... hmmm...
surgery was so much more interesting...
anyway...
watched 300 last nite...
also sien...
hahaha... maybe i just don't appreciate the GLORY!! and SPAAARTAAAAA!! and TONIGHT WE DINE IN HELL!!!!
zzzz...
in the end a line by the narrator some where towards the end appropriately summed it up...
King Leonide's roar was LOUD and LOOOOONG... and yeah, that was abt it...
the whole movie was just like an excuse for 300 men to bash 1million noobs...
somehow i just didn't get what they're fighting for...