done

IMS done... research left...
and then study all the way till february...
wow... what fun i'm going to have...
L...
O...
L...
=_=

and then there was one

home alone...

everyone's gone back...

well... only one more day, then i have my 4 day holiday...

aku takut cicak

i'll admit... i'm terrified...

when i moved to seremban 3, i knew i'd have to put up with a lot of things...

so when the insects came... that was ok...

when the flying ants came in swarms... that was ok...

when the gonggoks kept on coming... still ok...

when the lizards came... i thought they'd help keep the insect population down.. so.. that was ok...

but today...

there was a GECKO!!! it wasn't just a small mini lizard... it was a whole gigantic GECKO... measuring almost half a metre... err.. ok, not so much... but at least 10-15cm long...

it was... HUGE!!!...AAAAAHHHHH!!!!

and it attack me when i was about to take my bathe...

scary...

now i'm same as yeangwee... scared of cicak...

i'm coming home early tmr to buy sulphur...

postpostpost

hmm... haven't been blogging in a while...
won't be in church today... cos' supposed to be studying...
aih... nid to kickstart my EOS7 revision....
it's DECEMBER already!! 2 months ONLY more!!!

but december doesn't just bring stress with it...
there's also plenty more to life than just exams...
like STUDY, WARD WORK, REVISE, PREPARE SUMMARY, CFCS, RESEARCH....
ahh... bodoh punye IMU... semua benda dia kasi letak pada "holiday season"... dah lah tak bagi holiday...

but more importantly...
it's CHRISTMAS... yay!! :)
heh... and it's not just about the presents... there's also...
Christmas Celebrations and... reminders about why I believe in what i believe :)

decisions

haiz...
i hate tough decisions...
especially depressing decisions...

music

hmm...
sometimes i wonder if i should be doing medicine at all...
life would be so much easier i think if i became...
a musician...
i mean... all i'd have to worry about is practice... having fun while making great music...
can get to meet all sorts of funky "artistic" ppl...
of course... if i was going to earn any money i'd have to be good at playing music... which i suppose would be where the stress would come from...

other benefits would be...

i'd be SO FREE!!!
no need to STUDY!!!
heh... get to try smoking... drugs and getting high... lol... all those musicians either smoke or take drugs to get the "creative" juices flowing... hahaha...
can listen to GREAT music ALL the time...
yeah... actually since reading about substance abuse in Kaplan's i've been really curious about what it'd feel like...
hahaha... curiousity is the first step to drug abuse rite?
maybe that's why i'm studying medicine... so that one day i can sneak a vial of morphine to shoot up my right arm...

lol... i have such a great imagination... and no... i'm not high on drugs or nicotine...
my mum would kill me before the intoxication does... :P

*magical* prediction no.9

i'm doing something i haven't done in a while...

Today...

The true meaning of Merdeka will resonate in your ears

the above pic is a picture taken from a merdeka trip we had in melaka...

and err the picture kinda summed up what we did...

syok sendiri...

in the true spirit of merdeka, syok sendiri epitomises the malaysian culture...

well... merdeka is long past... and the only reason i'm blogging about merdeka is bcos' i so happened to pull this "prediction" out...

exams next week...

STUDY!!!

psychiatry

psych... is frustratingly boring...
even as i entered the posting i began feeling a sense of intense apathy...
hmm....

well... the subject does have it's interesting points...
just that they're not relevant or clinical...
take for example sleep disorders... which would be so majorly interesting if i could see real patients who had them...

Dyssomnias

1)Cataplexy
-brief episodes of muscle weakness or paralysis with no loss of sonsciousness (due to sleepiness)

2) Ekbom syndrome (Restless leg syndrome)
-uncomfortable sensations in legs at rest... relieved by movement
*i think i got this

3)Kleine-Levin syndrome
-periodic disorder of episodic hypersomnolence
-may sleep excessively for SEVERAL WEEKS and awaken only to EAT VORACIOUSLY

Parasomnias
1)Sleep terror disorder
-sudden awakening usually sitting up with intense anxiety

2)Somnambulism
-brief episodes of LEAVING bed and WALKING about without full counsciousness
-amneisa for the event
-can usually be guided back to bed (cool... imagine if you guide him back to other places)
-can sometimes be initiated by placing child in standing position... lolz...

3)Sleep bruxism
-tooth grinding THROUGHOUT the night
*i wonder if je has this... whenever i'm standing near him i can always hear him grinding his teeth

and lastly... just for the funky name...

4)jactatio capitis nocturna
-rhythmic head or body rocking just before or during sleep

haiz... psychiatry... is moving slooooooowly....
to an end...

birthdays

this month is a month of birthdays :)
amongst the many... there are a few that are close to me...
daniel celebrated his on thursday 25th...
err.. i was actually looking for something i wrote up abt him... tapi tak jumpa... rasanya sudah ter delete...
but... in spite of my apathy... dia seorang kawan yang baik...
sometimes feel like wan to keep him in a plastic bag so that he stop making lame embarassing jokes and touching my face... sometimes best when i got mood to play wif him and can do lame jokes...
but the best thing about him is...
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he's FAT... haha... no la... he's a good friend la...

the other guy is.... ANDREW the frog!!!
although he's not here... this guy also is a good friend... similarly hilarious but always nice to play and joke with...
always ready with some dumb stuff, he's actually very manly although he looks gentle and sensitive...
btw, by "not here" i mean he's in Otago, NZ... not meaning "not here" as in... u know... lol

others on the birthday roll whom are close too but i won't blog about for the sake of brevity are...
leena sim (a good friend since... kecik.... sangat kecik)
chiyuan wong (also overseas... now holidaying... so tak berapa tau lokasi yang tepatnya... dia abang kawan baik aku punye girlfren... complex rite)
timothy lai (some old married guy... lol.. shh...)
err... if i forget anyone sorry yah... you all lah... who ask to born all together...
never hear b4 contraception and spacing meh...

401

my 401st post..
hmm... but actually i have other things on my mind other than having so many posts...
i've been noticing my memory becoming poorer recently...
maybe it's because i'm doing psychiatry that i'm thinking i have a dissociative amnestic disorder...
but my memory.. more specifically recent memory is at times... dejectedly abhorrent...
i mean.. i can go downstairs to get something (not that there's anything downstairs to get)....
ok, i can go upstairs to get something for my room..
the actions involved would be... putting the thought into my mind that i want to get... say... a ruler...
so then i get up, walk up the stairs... and the when i reach my room... i'm either distracted by something that grabs my empty brain's attention... or just sit down and think what is it that i wanted to get...
more often than not i'm going back downstairs to continue whatever it was i was doing until i need that ruler again...
case in point would be my forgotten SHIRTS...
and i have been forgetting my clerking excercise book a couple of times this week and during Obs posting...
my distant memory and immediate memory is fine... just... recent 5 minute memory...
in fact,
i was testing a patient for 5 object memory at 1 and 5 minutes...
she could remember 4 items...
so could i... i couldn't remember the last one...
and i thought...
okay... who's the patient now...

btw... the past 2 nights have been a bit disturbing...
last night i dreamt that i was in the psych ward... and the patients were fine... but everyone was saying i was the one with psychotic delusions in spite of my earnest protests... hmm... scary...
is this folie a deux?

hari raya card

i recieved a hari raya card from yeangwee...
heh, i suppose he had a ball of a time getting people to sign it and give it to me...
i'm mildly amused at his preoccupation with me...
i actually found it mildly odd...
so, i don't know whether i should thank him or do what...
so i just thought i'd acknowledge the reciept of the card and everyone who put in the effort to humor yeangwee and me? to put their little 2cents worth into the card...

yeah... odd...

*magical* prediction number 8?

yeah... i'm back online and in seremban...
and so i thought... with nothing much to blog about...
i'd fall back on those magical prediction's that i so rarely pull out of the bottle...

today...
your family will call you unexpectedly. Act Surprised.

well... they didn't call... but i certainly did call them...
because i'd forgot to bring back the shirts i took to wash back to seremban and left them in KL...
thankfully, HL was going to BJ for debate... so i asked him to pick up the shirts since he's there...
so i called home to tell them... well... my sister was ok about it....
but apparently now my mum thinks i'm walking around shirtless under the lab coat... LOL...

HAPPY HOLIDAYS

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!
won't be bringing back my comp this time...
so it'll be 9 days of no computer and no internet...
have a HAPPY RAYA ^^

religious outing

hehe... tomoro i'm off...
so i agreed miss C to go with her for an outing...
well... let's just say that i went in with different expectations from what i got...
the "advertisement" was that this would be a "******* Fellowship" where people of other religions were invited. and also that food? would be provided, and that this would be at an ex-lecturer's house...
so the image in my head was that of some kind of catered food thingy with maybe some religious talk at some point... and then some time to get to meet juniors, ex-lecturers...

well... i won't go into the details, but... i guess i can say the "meeting" was slightly more "religious" than what i expected... hehe, which actually made for a more interesting evening...

but anyways... i observed a few things that struck me about how it feels like to go for another religion's meeting, that i think maybe others may feel if they go for my "religion's" meetings (christian)

1) when you go for "religious" events... don't expect things to be unreligious... in fact, whether christian or otherwise... we try to give invitee's as secular an idea as possible to "draw" people, but most of the time admittedly in christian meetings i've observed that we dish out more religion than was promised...
2) anyone involved in doing anything in the "meeting" is kinda assumed to be a "religious" expert...
3) invitee's try to keep as low a profile as possible... introductions are SCARY... because it IS a strange situation...
4) if you're not of that same religion... or maybe even if you are... or maybe it's just me... i start "comparing" religions...
5) there WILL be jargon or strange ceremonies done that will provoke awkwardness and "don't-know-what-to-do-now" feelings...

but anyway... it made for an interesting and thought provoking evening... not least because i observed that in ******* religion, they have been observing and learning from christian practices alot... church and christians were brought up quite a few times during the talk... in fact, most of the things that were done or discussed were very reminiscent of what we christian's do (but maybe that's just the whole religion thing where all religions run in this "standard format")

which brings me to the thing that struck me the most
6)what makes us different from the rest?

nice

today... is a good day (=
i'm now in PSYCH.... the crazy people posting... yay!! i finally get to meet people like me...
hahaha...
but this should be an interesting posting... and a very free one i think... even more when you consider that next week we're off for RAYA!!! ^^
but today is a good day...
came back after lunch... and slept... slept... slept...slept... it was SOOO GOOD weather to sleep, with cool breeze, hardly any sun, clouds and rain after that... ahhh.... enjoy...
some days are meant for sleeping in...

i'm obviously awake now by the way....

mehjeecal preedeecshehn

today...
you will have a sudden inexplicable, irrepressible urge to act cute.
Give in to it.

hahaha... err... i don't need to act cute cos' i AM... hahaha... right...
but umm... didn't experience any "abnormal urges"...
i think i did dance a little while at the piano in front today.. but that's what i normally do anyways... so i don't think it counts...
umm... i googled cute and came up with this site...
http://cuteoverload.com/
hmm... not really one for cute stuff... never really understood the attraction...
but then again, there are many mysteries in life...
like why shopping is fun...
and other various stuff (=

holes in our hearts

we all have an emptiness within us...
a longing that can't seem to be fulfilled...
man has always lived wanting more. he has always wanted to be more than what he is now. to be in front of where he is now.
it is the driving force that pushes him forward.

we all long for something more.
some seek to fulfill this by taking from others or by improving themselves.
but it remains the same. a vacuum. a blackhole that can not be filled with neither an effort to make or a struggle to take.
it is the very thing that defines our humanity.
and it is precisely our very human nature that prevents us from satisfying our deepest desire.

an ant, can hardly hope to become more than an ant by learning from other ants. from building with other ants. from training with other ants.
neither can it hope to become more by stealing from other ants, from killing other ants, from coveting what other ants have.
the only way an ant can be greater than what he is, is if something greater than it lifts it higher than what it is now.

should we be so proud as to think that we can satisfy our deepest desires by ourselves. If something is truly worth desiring or chasing after, should it not be that which we cannot hope to reach by ourselves but that which can only get recieved as a gift?

Ecclesiastes 6:2- God gives a man wealth, possessions and honor, so that he lacks nothing his heart desires, but God does not enable him to enjoy them, and a stranger enjoys them instead. This is meaningless, a grievous evil.

Psalm 145:16- You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing.

reflections on O&G

clinical acumen is the bane of medical students...
it is the thing we aim for...
it is the thing they try to teach us...
it is the thing that we cannot use because we are inexperienced...
it is the thing specialists always use because they are experienced...
it is the excuse to do something when you don't have evidence to back you up...
it is... guessing when you don't know the answer...

heh... i thought of this as i was studying irritatedly last nite just b4 exams...
but on a whole obs has been a good posting...
heh... it's gone by really fast... i think i'll be dropping by once in a while during psych to do things i never got to do while i was in obs...
but it's been good...

during obs i suddenly realized that now we're no longer mere medical students... no longer just students learning about medicine... but now we're junior doctors... practicing for when we become housemen... and things that we do or don't do will come back to haunt us...
especially things like... haih... i should have enjoyed myself more... lol...
or more practical things like.. i should have practiced inserting branulas and drawing blood more...
but well... i guess i still got 2 years to "make full use of my time"...

tajikstan?

today's prediction says i could be prime minister of tajikstan..

hmm... Tajikstan??

since i'm the new PM of tajikstan, i thought it'd be in order to enlighten the world on the country of my dominance...



here's several fun facts about Tajikstan, picked up from the source of all modern knowledge...Wikipedia


















that's the national flag of Tajikstan, and it's location on the world map...
hmm... fun facts...

1) the main source of income is drug trafficking.. lol, that must be fun... i wonder what the kids ambtions are as they grow up

2)they speak Tajik.. or Persian

3)they celebrate International Woman's Day on March 8 as a public holiday... heh... that'd be cool actually...

4) Tajikstan is not a fun place to be... cos' i can't find anymore fun facts... oh well... maybe the prediction won't come true anyway...

*magical prediction~*... no. 8 i think..

today...
an old friend will stir up pleasant memories...
hmm... well... haven't met any old friends recently...
and this magical prediction was pulled out about a week ago..
hmm... but i think i've been too busy for pleasant memories...
heh... so sad...
well... the busy-ness is drawing to an end..
interesting how busy-ness doesn't always equate with fruitfulness...

heh... any old friends interested in stirring up some of my pleasant memories on reading this post? (=

*magical* prediction...

today...
someone will see you naked....

yeah... right....
i lock the doors when i go bathe... and i don't sleep in the buff...
hmm....
unless... someone has been taking secret pictures of me...
on the other hand... i do take off my shirt in public...
when i'm playing futsal... hahaha...

btw, my housemate took pictures of the bottle and tried his own luck at a *magical prediction*
you can read all about it at fengyblogstoo.blogspot.com
lol

*magical* prediction

today...
A girl is going to say "I Love You" to you...
She might not Mean It though...

lol... i smiled when i took this one out...

it's been a long weekend... call wasn't so bad i suppose, considering i skipped a large portion of it... :P
shhh....

but i thank God i made it throught the day with a smile on my face :)...

*magical* prediction 3

this isn't actually today's prediction... it was yesterday...
but yesterday and the day before was quite busy days... cos' of on call and subsequent tiredness...
so i only pulled out the prediction at nite and blogged about it today...
it says...
today...
you'll be blessed with POWERS OF INVULNERABILITY... unfortunately it'll last just 1 minute...

heh... yeah... it must have been that 1 minute while i was sitting over the toilet bowl...
no wonder i felt something leave me after the 1 minute was over...

ehhneeeweeyyy....
gonna be on call tomoro and sunday...
gonna be a long week ahead wif no weekend to rest...
anddd... not going back...
hope i don't look drained on monday...

today's *magical* prediction 2

today's *magical* prediction is...
TODAY... you will waste a lot of time trying to figure out things that should never be figured out in the first place.
hmm... well... today i had quite a lot of free time... i think it was the most "relaxing" day of OnG yet... cos' Dr. Zain was off, so i didn't have much to do... and afternoons i discovered are boring in the ward...
so spent most of the day trying to palpate as many patients without seeming like a nuisance...
didn't really have much to figure out...
oh...
unless you count trying to figure out what the meaning of "figure out" in this message means, cos' then i'd have wasted about 5 minutes trying to figure out what i was supposed to be figuring out... lol...

having a good week...

the *magical* bottle of amazing predictions

someone gave me a bottle of *magical* predictions... one to take out everyday...
haha... it was nice, but i took them all out to read already...
but it'll be fun to take one out each day and blog about how it might have retrospectively applied to me *magically*...
so, today's *magical* prediction...

Today... Something will make you wish that you were born a girl...
(*note... prediction may have be modified for public viewing and reduction of embarassment on my part)

As a matter of fact... I did wish that i was a girl today... bcos' i'm in a obstetric ward where ALL the patients are female... and examining them requires a female chaperone... which WASN'T available today... at least for a while... but it was a bothersome while to wait...

haha... its nice to have pleasant surprises like this to come home to after a long day at the hospital...

stress

talk about hitting the ground running...
OnG is a crazy busy posting...
on call once every week for 5 weeks (including exam week)
on call on weekend once... for the whole weekend.. whole day... sat and sunday
one report due every week...
one report for each time on call...
not to mention i don't know aNYTHING about obstetrics (thankfully its just Obs now and not yet Gyne)

on top of that i come home to a non working internet...
housemates away for FUTSAL!!! i guess i could have gone, but i doubt it'd have improved my mood... and anyway, i felt tired enough to sleep in the driveway...

hmm.... at least i'm done with scheduling rosters... and rooms have been booked for 2 weeks...
hopefully nothing overtly bad happens for the 5 weeks...
i'm actually somewhat bothered now about what to do if someone oversleeps and asks me to overlook their lateness or absence (cos' i've to take attendance too)

not to mention weather is rainy and gloomy...

holidays ending

holidays are ending again...
only got less than a week left :)
this holiday has been good... really good...
i didn't travel much, but that's ok... didn't really do much either... but that's ok :)
but it's been a good holidays...
good... because i rediscovered God over these past 3 weeks...
i started off by "fasting" from using the computer and putting entertainment to a minimum... heh, which was why i was kinda absent online... but it was a good choice i believe...
by making entertainment not the focus of the holidays, i let God come back into my life...
it would've been easy i suppose to "make the most" of these holidays by making plans and going places, but i think that it's become a problem cos' when i'm working, i'm rushing here and there for studies and stuff... and during the holidays if i'd been running here and there to "relax".... heh, don't think i'd be as satisfied as i am now...

but i suppose these holidays wasn't a story of what i did, so much so as what God did :)

is ignorance bliss?

i have a dilemma of sorts...
after much trial and error... and referencing from the internet...
i've finally managed to install EVERYTHING into one OS... which i am proud to say... is XP...
and not Vista...
oh..umm... everything meaning... all my hardware drivers...
so that now... currently.. EVERYTHING works on my XP...
including my video card...
working beautifully...
problem is... i haven't tried running anything that even slightly taxes it...
in vista, due to what i originally thought was a driver problem, whenever i play games or do anything that needs the vid card to work harder... the screen goes black every 5 minutes or so... before coming back to life... it lags too at times...

so... i thought that running XP would solve my problems... and so i thought... however, when i tried playing on XP... the thing crashed all together... hmm... and at that time... it appeared to be a driver problem again... cos' the pirated version of XP that i had couldn't seem to get the driver in fully also...

well... which brings me to now... now... everything's fine... from a software point of view...
but i haven't tried playing anything...

partly cos' if i do... and if things go wrong... then it'd mean i have no idea what's wrong... OR... that the problem is with the hardware...
hmm...
is ignorance bliss?

maybe i should just quit gaming...

interesting sites

i decided not to study today...

not that i've been... but yesterday i picked up a book n read a bit, so to make me look good i officially state that i've started studying...
but i digress... i decided not to study today...

so i went surfing...

btw, if you're wondering why u can't see me online... it's bcos (ref previous post) i can't log in to msn or access any microsoft websites from my vista computer... but with my other house computer i can(which lags so bad and no music)... so i was actually looking for a solution for this...
but anyway...

i discovered some interesting websites... umm.. i exclude blogs so that it won't seem as if i like certain ppl...








this is one cool site... you can post questions to about ANYthing... and ANYone can answer :)...

note... *ANY*...

and there ARE some pretty fun questions...like:



question: what's the meaning of life?

answer: hard to describe
but life is like a hamburger with everything on it
there are parts i like
and parts i just wanna get through
but overall the hamburger is good



: According to the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, it is 42.



question: why is it cool to be stupid?
answer: Cause stupid questions earn easy points. ;)



question: What types of parrots are the least noisy of the parrot family?
answer: srry all parrots r noisy



and many others



and then... actually not today but about last month, i discovered





if you're into art... and even if you're not... there's some really funky pictures here... all original... some hand drawn, painted, computer drawn... but mostly good...
Hoon is really good...
so is elvenkind and gilad... good updates are rare though...



and last but not least...






http://hammyblogs.blogspot.com/




haha... this doesn't really qualify as a blog... cos' its.... dead :P
i just love this site...not for its updates...lol...
more for that little chatbox at the side... haha... i doubt the owner even knows what's going on...

well... i doubt u all are as free as me anyway...

unable to connect

zzzz....
i'm back online after a week...
and the message greeting me after all that time is...

We were unable to sign you in to Windows Live Messenger, possible because of a problem with the service or with your Internet connection. Please make sure that you are connected to the Internet.

To let us try and troubleshoot the problem, click the Troubleshoot button.

Error code: 81000306

zzzzz

garden

hmm...
today started well enuff... woke up n went jogging...
then did gardening (=... i have a patch of earth about 10 by 1 metres...
fit for weeds and grass... i find it quite relaxing to just periodically pull up random green shoots which i think are weeds... they probably are, in that unhealthy looking, rock strewn patch of dirt i think only weeds can grow....
i tried transplanting 3 patches of grass onto my "garden"... they don't seem to be dying but neither do they seem like proliferating..
anyway, pulling weeds is quite therapeutic... now, if only i could find more grass... a cangkul... and some real plants to put into the earth... then maybe it'd be more fun :P

lol... zhiyong the gardener

scary face

my friends say i have a scary face when i'm upset...
my grandma just passed away this afternoon...
half of me wants the scary face on...
half of me wants to talk to someone...
currently my scary half is on...
well... going back home again tmr... probably will be back by thursday evening or earlier...

i thought this was supposed to be a happy week...

fam med

family medicine is drawing to an end...
this 10 week holiday has proven to be...

a holiday..

i still think it's quite a waste of time n money...
no doubt there're plenty of things to learn but coming at home at 12 or 1pm and having nothing much to do gets boring after a while..
it was fun initially i guess... but now my brain feels rather empty...
this week is OSCE... not really motivated to study...
dr.loh's not really helping things when he tells you that he doesn't fail anybody...

heh.. and next week we have absolutely nothing until MCQs on friday... hmm....
and then the 3 weeks of semester break b4 sem7...

feel flat

dun feel too good today...
things started of poorly enuff... the night b4 i was sleeping in my home sofa cos' my brother was sleeping in the bedroom (i was too tired to pull out the mattress)
so although i slept earlier (1130) i still felt tired when i woke up (730)... i think cos' the exhaustion from the previous day still hadn't cleared (kg angkat project)...
also... the night b4 i took albendazole (deworming med) cos' i was playing football barefoot in the kg (on the upside i scored a goal and helped create another :P... we lost 2-7 btw)
so well... felt crappy the whole morning...

well... now i'm home... (thanks to sautjun... it'd have felt worse if i had to take the ktm back)
still feel... flat... not reli happy, not reli unhappy... yeah... but its just for a while...

happy birthday

a bit late... but nonetheless...
yesterday was birthday for me (=
well... i'm not one for birthday celebrations... so i don't have any expectations...
but the two celebrations, one was the "surprise" at midnite 26th... the other dinner on 26th.. were cool (=... quite a lot of ppl turned up which was nice...
so to cut the long story short... here's a short list of tqs...
thanks to everyone who msgd (= although i may not hav all your numbers, but now i do...
thanks to everyone who turned up for either and both celebrations :)
thanks to all those overseas ppl who msgd, taggd or thru various methods let me know that they remembered... it felt great to have an "international" celebrating my birthday... :)
thanks to... mei who called :)
thanks to... feng ko who blogged :)
thanks to... mummy who msgd 1 WHOLE day earlier claiming eagerness.. (i think she forgot)
thanks to... the christina,ss,chinpei,kkwan who hosted the first "surprise"...
thanks to... yeangwee who put a lot of effort into the CAKE!!! (i know he enjoyed himself more there) check out http://www.fengyblogstoo.blogspot.com/ for pics of the cake...
thanks to... everyone who wished me in school... i still get a great kick out of being wished happy birthday even though its belated (ann was quite funny... she wished me once on 26th, again on 27th morning.. and 20 minutes later again... lol)
last but not least... thanks to... God (= who made the whole day special...

Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
Psalm 139:14

hariputer

WARNING: HARRY POTTER SPOILERS AHEAD (but then again.. if u can read this, u've probably alredi read the spoiler below...lol)

Harry Potter's is actually Lord Voldemort's Son...
Here's the final action scene as copied from the book

voldemort struck harry's wand away from his hand with the Hand Decapitus Spell...
harry: " wo de chiu arrrrrrrrrr!!!"
voldemort: " lu ah beh bui si..."
harry: " wah ah beh sii liao!!"
voldemort: "harry.... wah si lu a beh..."
harry: NOOOOOooooooooo........

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-tbJ4HavnKE
i even have a video to go along with it...hahaha



what?! don't tell me you actually believed that happened in harry potter...lol

fengy

today is Feng Ko's birthday :)
yes...
i don't hav any pics of his recent b'day celeb cos' i don't hav a camera...
so a short summary of who feng ko is and what he's done should be in order...

Feng Ko is my housemate... in fact... he's my toilet-mate.. haha, we share the same toilet... cos' his room is next door...
we both have very loud speakers which we sometimes use to abuse our other housemate (hl) who has no speakers....
Feng Ko has recently picked up dotA... he hasn't started going to cybercafes yet (hopefully not :P) but he spends a reasonable amount of time at home playing it anyway...after having trained him, he plays reasonably well against AI and actually should start playing against humans more if he wants to excel now... but that's not important... lol...
his other achievements include being on the Dean's List from Phase I...
He's the resident studies pro in the house, so on matters involving studies i consult him regularly since i'm not so pro...
He's very popular with girls...lol... quite lah... undoubtedly due to his charming personality and dashing good looks, killer abs, pearl white skin and smooth as silk skin, and various other complimentary adjectives... haha... anyway...
for more info, check out his blog at http://fengyblogstoo.blogspot.com/

and while going thru the b'day pics checkout which girl feng ko currently has eyes for :P...
but bear in mind he's still single n available anyway...

tikitikitikitikitikitiktiktiki

heh.. learn a hokkien word a day...
TI KI... means stubborn in hokkien...
yeah...
how did i learn it?
well... my batch has a medical students yahoo group...
and recently there was a super hebat discussion that kinda went a bit out of control...
and it was about a minor point on whether to asucultate(hear) of palpate(feel) first...
anyway...
you know you're in a medical student's group when the discussion that draws the most posts is the one about MEDICINE rather than all the other "NORMAL" posts all put together....
and you know you're not really passionate about the "finer" points of medicine when all that i took away from that lengthy discussion was...

TI KI...
tikitikitikitikitikitikitikitiktiki
haha.. sounds really cute... like some animal...

tire-ing

heh... fam med can also be tiring!!!
the past few days... ok-la... 2 only... have been quite tiring...
today one of my groupmates looked at my eyes and mentioned that i have PANDA eyes~!!
haha... is that an achievement?

yesterday i went to help out at the music nite rehearsal (i got conned into it).. didn't really want to go... but while i was driving on the way there, it struck me that though i may not WANT to be there... wat i WANT is to keep my promise to help out... so the desire to honour my word is the motivation the be there, even though i don't have the basic desire to BE there at all...

anyway... fam med still being fam med... i AM quite free still... in spite of suddenly having a lot of things popping up...
such as CFCS, research, IMS... yeah, a bit of stuff... think i shud start reading a bit also...
but still... i'm free-er... so still "buzz-able"...

in this period of freeness... i've started asking myself questions regarding christianity... i think i'm rediscovering my religion... but i'm going thru a bit of a dry period spiritually...

getting tough to choose

i COOK (=

hehe... i cooked my first meal at home today!!!
i feel so pro today...
although a series of unfortunate events led to this weird occurence, it happened none the less...
i went to jiajia (local supermarket) and bought
1 packet of maggi mee containing 5 servings - RM 2.50
1 packet of Japanese Sawi (or sth like that, can't remember wat its called exactly)- RM 1.41
1 packet of Chicken Sausage- RM 1.99
Grand Total - RM 6.00

ooooo.... that's 6 bucks for about 3 meals or more...(can't expect to make 5 cos' the Maggi mee is really really small, so i put 2 into the pot...

sooo... the basic recipe was reli simple, dump everything into the pot in this order- boil water, maggi mee, soup powder, sausage, sawi.... stir and act as if you're really cooking something... and jeng jeng... you have... FOOD!!!
if you'd like to know... the japanese sawi, i bought 3 stalks... in today's meal i used 3 leafs from 1 stalk which has about 6-7 leaves...
the chicken sausage i used 2 out of about 10 sausages i think...
wahaha... so total cost of entire meal... INCLUDING water (couple of cents considering my water bill for a MONTH is 5 bucks), driving (one week 30 bucks, but this is only to jiajia, so at the most 50 cents? or a buck?), electricity? (i no gas, so can only use electric steamboat machine, one month about 60 odd bucks, but use for such a short while only... probably about 20 cents at the most) errr... labor costs? (i do myself :)
making this meal a grand total of less than 3 bucks...

i'm still full :)... if not i still got apple... and various junk foods....
i'm thinking of doing this 3 times a week... just enough to not be anti social yet save money :)
woohoo... talk about cheap...

gotta push

heh... this is posting is turning into 10 weeks of laziness...
gotta get up and do some studying or i'll really have an empty brain going into sem7...
hmm...
on the other hand... it IS a welcome break of sorts...

court

heh... quite a few people have been asking about this so i'll make a short entry.. it's quite embarassing actually...

last month,
my road tax expired on the 1st of May... i went to watch spiderman3 on the 1st of May at 10pm... but we couldn't find our way into Terminal One where the cinema is (seremban being a small town has no idea what the word accessible means)... so we wandered around outside until we were late for the movie and had to watch the 12am one... to cut the long story short...
i ended up driving us home at about 2am 2nd of May...
Murphy's Law states that: things will go wrong in any given situation... how sienly true...
i got stopped at a road block just outside the road turning into my house (less than 100m)... 2 hours after my road tax expired... (realizing that i'd forgot to renew it didn't really help things)

so yeah... that's why i got a court order to go to court on the 21/6
i won't humor you all with what happened on the day i went to court... that's even more embarassing... o_O

court

hhmmm.... going court tmr..
sien...this is disrupting my holiday...
heh, unless i get sent to jail...
that'lll REALLY disrupt holidays...

home (=

yay!! it's a joyous occasion...
i'm home :)
you don't realize how much you miss home till you're away from it...
home cooked food is still the best :)
clean floors and clothes that you didn't have to clean yourself are the best :)
SOFAS TO SLEEP ON are the BEST!!!!!
yes!! home... i'm lovin it...

on other matters...
i found out on dr. jimbo's blog that a rather famous patient had passed away...
i'm rather... disturbed, cos' i knew him also... not personally though... but still...
if you're wondering... this is the acro guy with multiple pathology due to the acro...
hmm... not really depressed cos' i didn't really know him... but well... wonder how things'll be when i start getting to know patients better... feels scary... +_+

but still... i'm home :)

done

after a hectic 3 days...
i'm done...
and now i'm on holiday...
its been a long wait...

i'm coming home...

zzzzz

sienzzz....
internal med clinical exam next wed...
MCQs for surgery AND internal med next thursday...
zzzz.... i am gg'd...
they should have distributed the groups so that the SMART ppl do the 2 REAL postings together and let the lesser NORMAL ppl do the PSEUDO-fam-med-posting with 1 of the real postings...
hmm....
aaaaannnnd... next week also got report to pass up BEFORE the one week break...
=_=

but i shouldn't complain... heh, i don't feel as if i'm going it alone anymore...
i've got Someone watching over me and Friends in high places... (=

good day

heh... it's been quite a while since i had a good day like this... ^^
what was good?
i went to church :)... that was good... reli good... no.. it wasn't just because worship rocked, or msg was meaningful... it was, i guess... i went looking for God... and i guess God reveals himself to those who ackowledge their weakness and... i guess the word that fits would be wickedness.. yeah, kinda hard to take... that we're all wicked... but i think unless we get the idea that we ARE wicked.. then only we appreciate the grace God has to offer us (=
heh... visited eeyin who was down with fever.. that was nice... heh, reli wish that the idea of a CG had gone thru somehow...
then... went back home and slept... yeah... that was nice... and it rained :)
rain at home is thrice better than in seremban cos' there're TREES at home... unlike seremban which is desert-like...
driving home was fun too cos' it was raining like siao, haha... scary but... fun lah (=

oh yah, the day ended with owning AI+... yeah, that was a nice topper...
all together... a good day... looking forward to a great week ahead with God, the same way today started :)

waiting on the world

Waiting On the World to Change by John Mayer

Me and all my friends
We're all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing
There's no way we ever could
Now we see everything is going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don't have the means
To rise above and beat it

So we keep waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
Its hard to be persistant
When we're standing at a distance
So we keep waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change

Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would've never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on the door
When you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cuz when when the only information ooohhh,
They can bend it all they want

So while we're waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
It's not that we don't care
We just know that the party's there
So we keep waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change

We're still waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
One day our generation
Is gonna rule the population

So we keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
Know we keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change.

its been a while since i've posted songs... this song's been playing recently i think... quite... nice...

yeah... nice :)

its convocation

yay!! it's convocation :)
that ceremony that finally indicates that you're graduating...
that you've stepped out of the shoes of a student and finally become...
a working adult...

guess i won't be going...
cos' this is a pseudo-graduation...
i'm still studying.. =_=

someone died

so there i was in the ward today... just now actually... and suddenly my fren noticed the doctor doing CPR in the cubicle in front of us and asked why not i go help out... cos' this actually wasn't the first time we helped out to do CPR... only thing was the previous time there was a specialist there, and there were no family members... and the guy was alredi confirmed dead when the dr asked us if we wanted to try out...
so well... since i'd done it b4 i went there and offered to help... anyway to cut the long story short... the guy died...
and this time a couple of minutes later the family arrived... i was ok with the guy dying... until the dr broke the news to the son and he burst into tears... and then it hit me... this guy just died... then all sorts of thoughts flooded my mind...
what struck me was that in spite of the family members being so emotional, we as the medical students and drs had to keep a straight face and the most we could do was say, "I'm sorry..."
as i drove to dinner i was complaining about many things... but the thing that struck me was... why can't we be sad? shouldn't we? aren't drs humans too?

well... not all of us are drs... but at the same time.. as christians... aren't we the spiritual drs of this world... do we feel sad whenever someone.. "spiritually dies"... or do we have any compassion or are we trying desperately to save the ppl around us?... as desperately as a medical student doing CPR thinking he can save the guy he's pumping...

have we become calloused and hard hearted.... forcing ourselves to "not be affected" by the sufferings of the people around us... or perhaps it is because we don't know what is "life" therefore we don't know when some one is "dead" or "dying"...

heh... come to think of it... i don't even know the guy's name... only know he's in for ESRF...

really tired today...

happy mum's day

happy mother's day mummy :)

laif

life is good i guess...
i was going thru my frens blogs...
medical students from all over... australia, seremban, uk(not yet go but still squatting in kl)...
non medical students...
i guess life goes on... this week was kinda first week in internal med...
its been quite up and down i guess...
but i think i realize that no matter how busy you think you are... life still goes on...
its a choice i guess.. to rush through life as a medical student rushing for research, case reports, studies, case presentations... but i don't think it has to be like that...
it just takes 5 minutes to pull out of the rush of the hour to look and feel for a patient... or to just stop and stare and the rain out of the window... to feel wind on your face... to just listen to the silence...
and suddenly everything falls back into perspective again...
life is good i guess...

stress

wah... stress...
i just realized that its been ages since i've really been studying...
surgery somehow didn't really have to stretch so long hours... still had to study then... but it seemed accomplishable...
internal med seems...
neverending...

sien like mad... this whole week... wait, no... it's only been 2 days... aaaahhh... these 2 days have been like neverending...

think i'll sleep early today...

tiga ratus

its been quite a while since my last post i realized...
heh.. maybe bcos' nth much to post abt since internal med started...
its so sien...
everyday just go ward, then tbl... sometimes got Case Presentation, but that's also with dr in ward...
if you're especially unlucky that week then u get to go PD which is even more boring... hmm..
internal med is like one big ward posting... hmmm...
surgery was so much more interesting...
anyway...
watched 300 last nite...
also sien...
hahaha... maybe i just don't appreciate the GLORY!! and SPAAARTAAAAA!! and TONIGHT WE DINE IN HELL!!!!
zzzz...
in the end a line by the narrator some where towards the end appropriately summed it up...
King Leonide's roar was LOUD and LOOOOONG... and yeah, that was abt it...
the whole movie was just like an excuse for 300 men to bash 1million noobs...
somehow i just didn't get what they're fighting for...

Memorable Moments in Seremban (MMS)

the past few hours have been hilarious...
it all began when a mosquito bit a human...
the human contracted dengue...anyways...
fast forward to today... the foggers came...
and they wanted in... and they wouldn't take no for an answer...
so the girls locked their door and didn't let them in... we being the friendly neighborhood doctors who save people from fire on a regular basis, opened our doors and welcomed them in(we were obviously the only idiots who did so, everyone else locked their doors like it was darurat)
fast forward 10 minutes later... we have 7 guys from 2 houses squatting outside their houses waiting for the smoke to subside... idiots... hahaha, including me lah...
who upon entering the house found it to be STINKING of fog... and the floor OILY from some herbicide/pesticide/humancide... so what i had originally planned to be a night to finish my case summaries ended up being a nite to clean the house... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.....

anyway, the fun had just begun.... so we had to sweep the floor b4 mopping it...
now...
our house has a LEGENDARY RELIC, from ANCIENT times...
reknown among housekeepers...a mystical object only heard of and never seen... our house has not 1... but TWO... BROOMS OF NEVER-ENDING DUST....
now before you wonder what this wondrous contraption does, let me enlighten you...
IT PRODUCES DUST AS IT SWEEPS... now who could ever ask for a more wondrous tool... i mean... what else do you need in the world but a broom that makes more dust as it goes along...
so anyway... you need a little background knowledge...
ah teik recently just moved in and doesn't know about the broom...
and so.. he was sweeping....
and sweeping...

and sweeping...



and sweeping....







and sweeping....

we almost finished sweeping and mopping the whole house when we discovered him toiling to cleanse his room from the cursed dust...
hahahahaha... well, at least he finally realized the folly of his actions....

fire

today there was a fire... -_-, it happened while i was sleeping...
actually... yeah... i WAS sleeping at least... and then hl woke me up and we had to go save the day... haha... not quite... but yeah, the house opposite had a KEBAKARAN... not just a little bonfire, but a FIRE...
no the house didin't burn down... the living room was up in flames, and that was about it... and yes we did go to try save the day
but...
what should you do first when a neigbour's house is on fire?
A. run out of the house and shout FIRE FIRE FIRE!!!
B. call the bomba
C. save the victim
D. put out the fire



haha... the answer is... A!!
hehe..if you answered B, you're too straight... in real life... by waking up the neighbours... you can accomplish all of the above at the same time...
where as if you tried calling the bomba... you'd probably get frustrated at their "tidak apa" attitude and go back to sleep and then the house would burn down...
oh and yeah... save the victim is more important than put out fire... haha.. sounds obvious, but when you got fire in front of your face u'll probably think of being the hero and putting out the fire while the victims suffocate to death in the upstairs room...
but yeah... today was exciting... waking up at 6 to save the world... hmm... being a doctor is tough... lolz

crazy

haha... we're all going crazy... i think it's bcos' all surgeons are going crazy...
today we discovered that one of the patients whom we were all crowding round had active TB... lolz... so then some of us starting running around like chickens without their heads asking wat to do... hahaha...
and today on the way back kugan claimed that aishwariya rai msgs him... hahaha... i think it's only a matter of time before we turn into real doctors...

yeah... tuanku jafaar rocks... haha...
weng teik's now living downstairs... yeah... for a month only lah... and he's not at home most of the time... hahaha... does he think he's staying in a hotel?

haha...i think that's how my mum feels when i treat my house like a hotel...

going home

after almost a month... i'm going home...
heh... i suppose i'm kinda wierd in a way...
other ppl staying further away... muar, ipoh, johor... all leave seremban when the weekend comes...
but me n feng ko whom both are from kl are happy just staying in dead old seremban...
hmm... i was thinking maybe we enjoy the freedom more then we miss the family... heh..
bad huh? anyway... feng ko went back last week... this week's my turn :P... so well... i'll be around this weekend...
think it'll be different somehow...

on other matters...
i handled a testis today... dissected from the body bcos' it had a tumor...
cool huh? it feels... smooth... surgery is fun:)... wouldn't mind doing surgery...
it sure looks like fun after 3 weeks... all the other doctors look like life's hell... but surgeons seem to be having all the fun :)

free

yay!! Dato' Kandar's not free tom morning... which means i have tomoro morning off...
haha... that makes it 2 fridays in a row since we began...
i think we're taking surgery a bit too lax... still haven't really started studying... i mean... yeah, got read up stuff... but... ward rounds now are easy now that u know that u just have to clerk pts... OT, Endo n SOPD is just being there... i mean... umm... ok-lah... maybe it's just me... but there's not much "work" to do actually... or maybe there is and i don't know about it yet... haha...
on the other hand there's a couple of long term projects i've yet to get down to doing...
haiz... have to look out for some chronically sick dude to become my CFCS patient, meet up with Research Tutor to discuss a research topic... finish at least 1 case report and 1 case summary(personal target) by this or next week... got lah work to do.. but... hmm... don't think i'm as stressed out as other ppl... like those in internal med... think it's just a matter of getting used to it hopefully...

but yay!! free for a 3 day weekend... kinda only lah... still have to be in school tomoro a bit... but that's nothing stressful :)

surgery

heh... since i have internet i guess i don't really have an excuse to not post regularly anymore...
haha... right... of course... i can always lay claim to being tired right?
hmm... just got back from on call at A&E and surgery ward... today was better than the previous day i guess...
getting to know some of the hospital staff... talked with some seniors and a surgeon... heh, generally starting to do/learn stuff... instead of walking abt the wards like noobs during nursing week... heh... but yeah.. it's tiring...
it's been a while since i've been feeling tired... so, heh.. i guess that'll take some getting used to...
waking up to go to the hospital by 730(or try to)... come back by 4-5pm or 8-9pm if on call...
well... just takes some getting used to i guess...

here again

yeah...
i'm back... and still alive...
haha... dun know for how long...
but for now... INTERNET is finally on... it took a while... but finally we're connected to the world...
yay!!! but then again... probably it'll be for a while only...
cos' semester really starts tomoro... so, heh... i'll only be free and online for 2 days... including today...haha... but still... it's something :)

beginnings and endings

tommorow... will be my last day in s/p...
it's the ending of the holidays....
and the beginning of the school term...
heheh... beginnings and endings... without one the other cannot be...
i'm looking forward to the beginning

spread the word

haha... spread the word for those of you who don't know...
the legendary m204 has a yahoo space... and it's yahoo! :P...and it's spacious
come join the fun and to keep in touch... its at...
m204 :)... come and be part of the family...

uhh... that is... if you are lah... if not... dun simply simply come and join...

CNY

haha...yeah, it's chinese new year...
that time of year when i get to refill my pockets without taking any money from my parents...
hmm... techinically i do take a bit... but eheh, don't count that lah...
but money asides...
hmm... money asides....
is there anything else?

Happy Year of the Pig/Boar(for the politically correct)/Khinzir(if you want to be nice to malays)/Babi(if not...)

va-what-tine?

today... is valentine's day.. the day of lurrrrv...

right..
most of my friends are mainly single... somehow... don't know why it's so... but yeah, most of my friends are single...
among single ppl i realized there's some kinda "peer/social pressure" in asian/malaysian cultures to act as if valentine's isn't important... i mean, yeah... i'm part of that group too... i don't think we're "acting" that valentine's isn't important to us, but after reading a couple of "anti-valentine's" posts i get the feeling that my group of ppl have this pressure to "not want to celebrate" valentine's...
hmm... maybe its some kinda defence mechanism to console ourselves when we're sitting at home on valentine's day playing maple story... or oblivion... or dota... while even our parents are out having dinner in some dark restaurant...

on the other hand... i think amongst couples there wud be some kinda social/peer/couple pressure to do something on valentine's day...

hmm... there's just no in between group i guess... like... single guys who celebrate valentine's day... but don't have girlfren... actually i'm thinking if can it'd be quite fun also...
fun but not that gud also... something like... the fun of having a girlfren without any of the problems of committment... hmm... best of both worlds?

PRO

haha... i feel pro now...
i solved my first router problem by myself... haha...
of course, cos' i pressed reset, so now everything's back to default and i'm suspecting the networks not secured... heh.. so still need kent's help to bring everything back to secure...
but yeah... i still feel pro today...

vista

i'm currently using windows vista...
critically acclaimed and supposedly next big thing from windows...
hmm... so when i bought my new comp, i thot it'd be a gud thing to get it first..
well, maybe not so... after thinking it over... i realized XP won't actually be phased out until for quite some time more...

and well.. the new vista, partly cos' its so new... has problems...
like compatibility issues wif AVG and other software...
well.. actually my main grouse is that some compatibility issue with the antivirus software causes it to run in background when a scheduled task occurs... this.. irritatingly makes everything slow down cos'... well, antivirus software running in the bg takes up lotsa processing power...
and cos' its in the background... i can't cancel it... making me having to wait it out... atleast for half an hour... well... yeah... and cos' its new... there's not much tech support available online... yet...
i feel like some beta tester that paid 300bucks to test it on his computer and upon discovering problems, suddenly discover that can't go back to previous versions...

oh yah... loading maple story also causes my version of vista (which is 100% ori) to lose some functions... so the past 2 times i installed it to play, i had to uninstall it and revalidate my vista which bcos' of the maple story somehow caused something to disappear and make it.. "non-original"... oh well... hopefully time will improve things...

oh, and by the way... anyone have any idea how to transfer emoticons from one comp to another? cos' my old emoticons are in my old comp... any one more tech savvy than me able to help?

i got tagged~!

ok... so i got tagged...

okok... let's see... what to do...

okay... the rules of the game, as blatantly curi-ed and put-ed here (ironically the phrase "curi and put" is also curi-ed and put-ed here without any concern of right infringements)

Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog.

ok...
so 6 weird things...

1. ok... i like to say... ok...
2. umm... i also like to say... umm...
3. i like "grinding"... umm... ok, this is a computer gaming term... mainly from online games... err.. it mainly means doing the same stupid thing (killing small evil animals) over and over again to gain lvls... so that you can do the same stupid thing again... go check out the link for wikipedia's definition...
4. err... which brings me to my next weird thing... i enjoy games.. umm..let me make this clearer- games which most ppl don't spend a lot of time on.. like Snake on a nokia h/p... or Dragonfable.. which i'm sure only kids 13-15 play...
yesterday i just started playing Maple Story also... which i discovered... is something small kids play only i think also..
5. i drive a WAX 1662 Mitsubishi Gallant... which is OLDER than me... which is something like the most recognizable car in s/p and IMU... the windows all don't work, except the driver's... you front passenger seat can't be opened from the inside.. which makes me look like a gentleman if a girl is sitting in fron :P... and its now covered in a layer of dust which makes it a bit hard to look out of the windscreen... haha... now THAT'S a car with personality... haha... everyone wants me to take this car to s'ban.. but too bad... i'm taking my mum's white iswara (a car without personality)
6. hmm...oh ya.. i like bottles... i would have taken a pic if i had a digi cam... but i have a collection of bottles in my room which very few ppl know of... maybe one day when i hav picture taking capabilities i can display to the world this weird passion of mine...

okok... now the last thing to do is...
find 6 ppl to continue this chain of time-wasting...

1. fengko (of course... wat.. you think i'd think of ANOTHER 6 ppl)
2. vickie (haha... cos' he tagged you too)
3. daniel (cos' i know you're too free in the office)
4. ashbee wong wencheng (cos'... you sometimes visit this site)
5. christina (cos' you just came back from taiwan and now got nothing to do also.. haha)
hmm.. i don't think i can tag myself... ooo... i know who...
6. debbiedear (bcos' we're all bored together ;)

yeah... i managed to waste 20 minutes doing this post... which i would have spent doing nth anyway.. so... maybe this is time well spent... kinda la...

yay... done

doh...

i discovered a couple of "duh!" things today (including after 12am)

last nite.. or rather this morning i was trying to get the router to work wif kent's help...
after many many tries checking wires, configuring settings... we finally found the problem...
i was still try to dial streamyx when actually the router had alredi done it for me...
when the revelation struck me it was like... "doh~~!!" and kent was saying like... "alamak you're alredi connected... just USE the internet!"
haha.. so that was "doh!" moment no.1...

"doh!" moment no.2 was actually just now... as i was logging in to blogger...
i have been using the new blogger account for quite some time... and i knew i had to log in with my gmail account... in the beginning... or rather until just now only.. i had thought it was quite dumb... cos' then i'd have to log in twice... once into blogger, then the next screen was to log in to gmail... then only i get to the blogger Dashboard...
the it finally struck me... from the blogger start menu itself if i just type in my gmail username and pass, then can get here aldy... swt... luckily no one knows i've been logging in twice every session for almost 2 months(haha.. till now) well... i don't think i'm the only one... i'm sure there are others...

new comp

i have.... it...
after much trials and tribulations...
it is now in my room...
it is good... it is good...
it is...
my new computer!! ^^

was feeling quite noob-like when i just got back from low yat earlier actually after getting the pc... cos' i knew i shud hav checked everything b4 leaving... and last nite i was actually berating myself for not bargaining wif the pc guy, and for getting "tricked" into getting a 290 bucks casing when it could have easily have been 90 bucks... and was quite occupied with thinking how to get hold of an original MS Office... i'm quite broke... and i don't really want to ask my dad for more money to get Office (which outrageously goes for cheapest at RM411 for the teacher's edition .. o_O) but complaints aside... i'm quite satisfied with what i have... would have prefered to have it a little cheaper, but what's done is done...

but i've learnt that i'm extremly noob-like when it comes to buying stuffs... not just computer stuff... i'm the type of guy whom if u tell me any price i'll just take it as it is without asking further... heh, easy to bluff but well... luckily doctors are "well respected"... so in the future b4 buying anything just do a bit of small talk and say i'm dr. maybe will be getting discounts anyway... and then ppl think doctors are smart so they won't dare to bluff me...

yeah rite -_-

just to be

the past few weeks have been kinda weird for me actually...
besides the fact that i'm really free...
some things have actually been bothering me...
ever since last month when i was absent from church for almost a month due to holidays and seremban stuff, i've been wondering what it would be like to live life as a non christian... the idea seems appealing honestly...
cos' among others... i wouldn't have to concern myself with the problems of the church, i wouldn't have to behave in a way as to please other ppl, wouldn't have to care about wat other ppl do, wouldn't have to wake up early on sunday morning...
i'm kind of a easy going guy... i really hate responsibility, and throughout the years when i was president of TU, there were good times, bad times, lonely times... but i always knew one thing..
it was always like wearing a shirt that doesn't quite fit... like doing a job you're not good at doing... cos' the burden of responsibility really weighs heavily on my mind...
so the past month when i was able to "let it all go".. it was really, a relief... i almost swear that i woke up smiling on that first sunday morning away from church...

since then, i've really been considering living life "away" from church...i've been in a way considering "backsliding"... in a way.. it wasn't helped that the first sunday i got back, i was asked to 1. teach in sunday school the following ; 2. play for worship 2 weeks from then ; 3. prepare a coming TU program... heh, so much for church not just being about serving...

well.. to a cut a long post short...
i think i finally found my answers...
i've not decided to fall out of church... in fact i'm think i'm gonna stay on and serve in what ever way i can...
i can't remember what it was that triggered it actually... but as i struggled with this question... i think i realized that we serve not out of duty or obligation... but out of gratitude...
gratitude... my cross may seem heavy to me... but i bear it all the same because of He who bore His before me...
we are called first and foremost, just to BE christian by recieving from God... it is when we realize how much we have recieved that then we tell others how much we have recieved, and we then serve the people around us in whatever way we can because Jesus Himself humbled himself to serve us first...
but i suppose what we always forget when we lose sight of the prize ahead is that we are called first and foremost just to be... just to sit at his feet to recieve from Him first...

driving

heh... lately my sister has been asking my mum, dad and me to let her drive...
i discovered i'm not as patient as i thought...
almost every other time she changes gear i'm alredi thinking...
faster lah... faster...
cut that car...
gear 4, gear 4... then gear 5...

lolz... learning how to sit in the slow seat nowadays...

yay~~~~....

yay... i finally finished the brood wars last mission...
wow... i feel so...
accomplished...
strange... i took almost a week of loading and reloading to finish the stupid mission and now i don't even feel vaguely satisfied...
hmm...
i don't think i'll ever conquer the world... i wonder if evil geniuses ever realize that once they conquer the world they'll have nothing to do...
it'd be like finishing the last mission that can ever be accomplished and then...
and then have nothing to do... swt
why would anyone even want to conquer the world i wonder...
i wonder what someone who has conquered the world do the day after his magnificent victory...

sleep in?

it's up

yes... it's up...
new template... all fully 100% of it, done with blogger v2...
quite cool actually the template editor now... makes things much more easier...
problem would be ofcourse... nth beats hands on html code editing for freedom of adjusting...
but well... i suppose i'll settle for a "normal" blog look... seeing as i'm a tad lazy to edit scripts now...
so... links are updated, some have been removed, some added... umm... now i have a description... kinda lah... and yeah... everything's working... even the history :) (which i think, in the old template didn't work...)

and amazingly... fengko managed to discover my blog whilst it was under construction while i was out for lunch... hmm... ok-la.. lunch was a bit long today, and i came back to sleep after that...

...

after i think 2-3 weeks of hols...
it's official...
i've run out of things to do...
i've also kinda run out of money to do things which led me to run out of things to do...
i've also bcome BORED... which kinda led to run out of money to do things.. which in turn led me to run out of things to do...
haiz.. life is a viscous cycle...
wat to do, wat to do...

heh, i was just browsing around and i posted this in sueyi's blog... which i think quite appropriately describes my current and future(for 1 month) state of affairs...

it's over

it's over...

and like Sam says at the end of the novel...

"I'm home"

almost there

we're almost there...
just a little bit more...
and it'll all seem like a dream...
and we'd have arrived at the end...
the end of the beginning...
before we all move our separate (or not so seperate) ways...

it has been a blessing, an honour and a privelege to have been in the class of M204... some of my sweetest memories have happened in the short 2 n half years that have passed...
i have been reminded especially over the period of this week as i faced EOS5...
that i stand tall, not by my own two feet... but because i stand on the shoulders of the giants around me... my batchmates who have been the ultimate help in studies as we support each other... and my church friends who have been so supportive in prayer throughout this trying period... some prayers came from the most unexpected of people... some, like well made chairs that you know will support you when you need them.. are always there supporting you even before you ask for help... but most of all... i stand tall not because my ability is great or my knowledge is vast... but because i have a good God... a GREAT GOD... on whose shoulders i stand the tallest...

just a little bit more and EOS5 will be end...
and then it'll all be over...
all over...