Friday, December 31, 2004
aih... i've just realized i've wasted one whole week doing absolutely nothing, when i could have finished studying at least 5 weeks worth of lectures... well... musn't waste anymore time... off to study :)
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
heheh, i was just browsing around n i decided to look at my friendster profile... and hehe, i can hardly remember not to say recognize some of the stuff i typed...
Hometown: KL... the city of 3 towers
Hobbies and interests: my hobbies and interests are interesting hobbies
Favorite TV shows: TV... does that stand for Telephatic Voyeurism? but if there was a TV show i liked to watch it would have to be... something on TV
About me: Me, me and me... i am me, myself and i... let me advertise about myself, i blog at grayblade.blogspot.com... my email is firstname.lastname@example.org... my house got no chickens... my room got 1 bed... i go to church at Canaan Baptist Church...
Who I want to meet: humans, malaysians, little bug like creatures, preferably put the humans in test tubes, malaysians in an incubator and the little bug like creatures in houses...
huh? What? where'd all that come from?... i don't even recall myself being so lame... oh man... i'm worse then i think i am...
Sunday, December 26, 2004
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Friday, December 24, 2004
Christmas is the season for giving and forgiving, christmas is the season when we learn that joy doesn't come from getting, but from giving...
most of all, Christmas is when we remember Christ's gift... :)
A Tale of Two Christmases by Jim Smith
It is the worst of times. It is the best of times.The Christmas you have depends upon you.May you be blessed to follow the Light and choose the right.
A Christmas Poem
C is for Credit Cards that make buying a breeze.
H is for your Headache when your cards are seized.
R is for Remembering everyone on your list.
I is for feeling Insulted when your gifts are dissed.
S is for feeling Stressed when you're on the fly.
T is for the Truckloads of presents that you buy.
M is for your Massive debt that soars into the sky.
A is for the Awful feeling that you've gone astray.
S is for your Sorrow and the tears you'll shed today.
The True Christmas Poem
C is for the Christ child lying in a manager.
H is for the Holy One who saved us all from danger.
R is to Remember Him who died that we may live.
I is to Inspire us that we may always give.
S is for joyful Songs and sacred hymns that praise.
T is to Thank the Lord for showing us the way.
M is for the Miracles that bless us each day.
A is for the Almighty who always puts us first.
S is for the Shepherd who guides us on earth.
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Yes!! That's right, it's just a little bit more to CHRISTMAS!!
that wonderful time of the year :)
about 63 hours left till Santa comes knocking :P
and about 50 hours left till summative 2.. n den after dat... Yay!! off to Christmas!! :)
*studies have shown that around the world, people fall sick less and suffer less stress during Christmas... it's true!, i've studied it myself... it happens to ppl like me:P
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Thursday, December 16, 2004
But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness.
"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery.
But today is a gift... maybe that's why it's called the Present."
How are needs different from wants? Aren't needs the same as wants but for the fact that needs bear greater consequences for not being accomplished as compared to wants?
I've been wondering about needs and wants lately for some reason or other.
I think it began while i was working in Bee's, n i often wondered what would the consequences be if i missed a certain a program in church.
I'm beginning to believe that there're actually no such things as needs... anything can be forgone so long as you are willing to face the consequences.As such, i don't think that going through life there isn't really anything you NEED to do.
"Don't wanna eat? then go hungry-loh..."
"Still don't wanna eat? then sooner or later u get sick or maybe in the end... death. Which taken in perspective.. is just another consequence of life..."
I think it's more meaningful to go through life driven not by needs, but by wants.Wouldn't it be better if we did what we do not because we didn't want to face the consequences of not doing it, but because there's a desire to do it.
like...wanting study not because we'll fail exams, but because by doing so we please our parents and God(uhh, i still find it hard to believe its possible to like studying just for studying's sake)...
or like... wanting to meet up with friends not because they'll be hurt if you don't go, but because you want to see them...
or like... wanting to go for meetings(boring..-_-) not just to make decisions n stuff liddat, but because u get to see God at work in ppl's lives...
or like... wanting to go to heaven not because we don't want to go to hell... but because we want to see God's face.
Carpe Deim, Seize the Day. Find something to aim for today, tomorow and the future. Not because you have to, but because you want to.
yesterday i was studying in the library(aih...-_-) n suddenly i felt like drinking water...
suddenly... without any warning...a terrible urge to consume some form of liquid came over me... and i...
*ok-lah, the above few sentences are quite crappy...
anyway, i was feeling thirsty. so i went up to get a drink... IMU library is designed in such a way dat when u climb up the escalator in the library to go out(non-moving escalator!? @_@) u are able to look at wat ppl r doing in the library com lab... n i saw Thomas :)...and i saw Thomas... Thomas was in the com lab... and Thomas was using the computer... and Thomas was...
*uhh... today really crappy-lah... something's quite wrong with me...
so, actually Thomas was viewing my site while i was passing by... for some strange reason, suddenly like got pressure... cos' i realized i haven't updated... n also suddenly like quite happy... cos' got someone viewing my site... wahh...
on the other hand, Thomas asked me wat 8tv n ntv7 means... hmm...n i realized dat not many ppl will know wat the title of dis site refers to... uhh, i'll probably put up a column sometime soon explaining it...
on yet another hand(3 hands alredi),.. Summative Results are FINALLY out... in an hour's time... trying not to think abt it... more den 20% failed...
Sunday, December 12, 2004
wait... why am i in the first place posting all my favorite songs??
uhh... hmm... anyway, i think it's a bad habit i picked up from mei...
but hey, nice songs are meant to be shared :)
Superman- Five for Fighting
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me
I'm more than a bird...I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see
It may sound absurd...but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me
Up, up and away...away from me
Well, it's all right...You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy...or anything...
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
It's not easy to be me...
Saturday, December 11, 2004
but not now :)
let's see... stuff dat should be getting me down: taking care of grandpa, exams on X'mas eve, not being able to go youth camp, still single ;P... ehheh, no, not depressed now..
because CHRISTMAS is coming!! :)
nmmm... n also bcos'... mainly bcos' i've found answers to questions i've been asking myself like... why is spagetthi so hard to spell... spageti, sppaghetti, spagghatei?? or, is it possible to get thru christmas without bursting my pockets... uhh, no-lah... more of relationship questions...
but it's good now :)... very good in fact :) good :) in fact actually i think its good because i didn't go youth camp... no, not becos they say it wasn't that fun... but becos i had time to think stuff thru...
no... not depressed... at least maybe not till results come out :P
read: HAPPY!!... gee, i sound demented now...
Thursday, December 09, 2004
i'm also thinking of changing template to reflect the current holiday season... if i find the time-lah...
haih... why does Summative have to be one Christmas Eve...
Christmas is always my favorite time of the year, cos' everyone has no excuse to be unhappy :)... even your mother doesn't nag as much on christmas day;)...
last nite i googled christmas n found some interesting sites...
turns out dat there's a www.christmas.com , www.merry-christmas.com , heheh, the wierd things ppl come up wif... Christmas, the season to warm your heart :)
16 days and counting :)
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
No one can force you to do something you don't want to...
So i asked myself, if i had a choice would i want 2 change everything i'm going thru now... No, because i realized through it all God had been there carrying through. No, because it is through trials that faith is strengthened. No, because.. because i choose the life i'm living now... because i chose to take up medicine knowing full well the costs it would cost me, because i choose to make the friends i have now.. whether for better or for worse... Because I Choose To.
we all have but 24 hours to use in a day... Carpe Deim, Seize the Day; Know what you want, See it and Make it happen. In what little or much time we have, how useful or meaningful we make it is up to us.
Monday, December 06, 2004
this week everyone's off to youth camp... so staying in sri petaling is kinda lonely, i'm almost imagine this is what being "left behind" after the rapture is like... hehe, definitely not nice :
anyway, i'm back blogging...
i can't say i don't sort of miss the guys who're in PD now... daniel, jinqfeei, mok, joyce... my sister.. the house is really quiet... and every now n den i keep thinking of all the fun they're having in PD...
but on the other hand...i can't say that being "left behind" in s/p is a totally bad thing...
in fact it could be the best thing that's happened to me this year...
from Ps. Bernard's sharing last saturday, i've realized i made my friends the centre of my world... not exactly a bad thing in itself, but when u consider that when i begin to place friendship above God, now that's bad... a bit like an unhealthy addiction...
but i've realized now... that above all else, God must come first... friends, relationships...
it's also comforting at times, cos' when u've got a friend that doesn't treat you that nicely, and u realized that the most important person in your life, God.. will always be the best friend you could ever have...
it also helps bring things into perspective cos' i realized i've started to focus to closely to the closest people around me that i start to lose focus my other friends...
hehe, like a bit serious rite? ;P... sommor first blog after so many weeks...
on a lighter note, last week i had ice-cream... something i haven't had in a really, really, really LONG time... doctor says ice cream is good for the brain :)
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
among others, are that i have to take care of grandfather, i'm sick, i'm not on holiday... haih... all sucky stuff :(... can't wait to get throught this "valley of darkness"...
i'll probably should be able to be back blogging regularly in about two weeks or so... or worse come to worse in january... :)
Monday, November 29, 2004
at least no fever... but the sore throat really sucks...
i'm thinking i either got it from VBS last week, or from my last hospital visit...
hopefully this sore throat clears up by tomorrow...
i can't stand sore throat.. it makes your throat, uhh... sore...
Saturday, November 27, 2004
the past few weeks have been quite trying...
first i had my accident, then my dad had his about 3 weeks ago...
last monday my grandfather(father's side) had a fall and fractured the head of his left femur...
it rained when i had my accident... it rained when my dad had his accident and the day after that when we were trying to collect his stuff all over klang...
rain hasn't been good for the past few weeks... until today...
the first two times i visited my grandfather, i couldn't explain it... but it really hurt to see him lying helpless on the bed... all of a sudden i felt really tired, and i really wished i had someone to just call up to tell everything... how difficult it is having to put on a face and pretend like nothing is going wrong... having to be smiling all the time...
today i visited my grandfather... and it rained..
hehe, my grandfather walked today... i'm really happy now :)
and it rained... :>
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
thanks for reading regularly, although my life isn't exactly fun and interesting... thinking about that, then i'm really wondering what keeps u guys still reading??
but thanks :)
Sunday, November 21, 2004
i'll be rushing back n forth from church to IMU because i'll be helping out in the morning n den after dat got classes...
i think God is sort of transitioning me out of church life in Canaan... cos' VBS is something like a "fixture" in my life for the past 10 years... same like christmas n other stuff... but i realize dat when i start Internship n practicing i won't be enjoying the same holidays n all that... so i'll probably won't be able to help out in VBS n enjoy Christmas the same way i used to soon...
i feel like i haven't posted for a very long time aldy... but yet, the last post was last wednesday... wait.. that was 4 days ago... okay, it's long..
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
I have to admit... i'm really wasting my time... let's see: I've played computer, gone online, gone cybercafe, watched movie, have lunch(uhh... lunch as in, outside wif frens)... the only thing yet to do is study... haih, just can't get down to doing serious stuff...
on the other hand, yesterday i was in MidV, taking my mum and sister to see the Body Adventure thingy... dat wasn't the main thing for me... after dat we went MPH... i realized i haven't been reading books in quite a while... it's been a REALLY, REALLY long time since i read anything...i can't even find my "Thing's Fall Apart" anymore... hehe, i found a few books dat look interesting... there's this book about Alexander the Great-"Conqueror"... i also scanned through "Dreamer"-about Martin Luther King Jr... it would be really nice to get a book to read, and reread and reread... especially when it's raining :)
oh yeah, i found Chinua Achebe in MPH too... heheh, although i read a lot of times, everytime i reread Thing's Fall Apart i still love it...
Sunday, November 14, 2004
the newest one is where an indian guy get's off to a bad start with his new malay neighbours, but finds out that the husband is really an old friend who used to help him... n den in a show of manliness, they hug each other... :P
uhh, dono y-lah.. i like perpaduan ads... give u a warm feeling inside :)
Saturday, November 13, 2004
For The First Time- Kenny Loggins
Are those your eyes, is that your smile
I've been lookin at you forever
But I never saw you before
Are these your hands holdin' mine
Now I wonder how I could've been so blind
For the first time I am looking in your eyes
For the first time I'm seein' who you are
I can't believe how much I see
When you're lookin back at me
Now I understand what love is.......
Love is.....for the first time.....
Can this be real, can this be true
Am I the person I was this morning
And are you the same you
It's all so strange how can it be
All along this love was right in front of me
Such a long time ago
I had given up on findin' this emotion....ever again
But you're here with me now
Yes I've found you somehow
And I've never been so sure
And for the first time I am looking in your eyes
For the first time I'm seein' who you are
Can't believe how much I see
When you're lookin back at me
Now I understand what love is...
Love is...for the first time...
nice song :)
Friday, November 12, 2004
So me, andrew and hai liang went out togeder... it was really umm, "fruitful":P
let's see, leave house at 9.45... reach Vista at 10. hai liang not yet wake up so we had to wait... and wait... and wait... and wait... until about 10.45 den only he finish bathing and washing clothes..huiyoh, too much-lah...
anyway, left for breakfast all in all only at about 12 we really started looking for stuff to do...
well, when guys go out there isn't really dat much to do... so we watched Incredibles... it's really been a long time since i've watched a really, really good cartoon feature... really too long... but at least this year the movies aren't too bad... there was Spidey 2, Troy and now Incredibles.
anyway, its the stuff after which was a really "useful"... played CC until 6.30.. uhh, means about 2 half hours...
so, we gathered 2 lessons from our outing:
1. when guys go out we spend MUCH MUCH less den girls...
2. hehe, it would appear that studying medicine isn't stressful at all...
i may yet live to regret that 2nd statement, but as it stands now... yeah, like dat-lah :P
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
okay, actually i learned alot, but that's not the point...
ok, i'm rambling...
i learned what the title Doctor means... it doesn't mean healer, it doesn't mean helper, doesn't mean physician or anything u normally would associate with doctors and physicians and the health care service...
Doctor means "to teach"... i found this really umm... meaningful, cos' before going to IMU, i was actually considering going into teaching... so i was deliberating between teaching and becoming a doctor... and i actually more or less thought that teaching was what i was meant to do, until of course local U and IMU results came back and i had to do some reconsideration before finally choosing wat to do...
well, strange... but interesting...i hope to see how this turns out 5 years down the road...
for the uninformed, i'm studying behavioural sciences for 2 weeks, this and the next after Raya week.
Although not much to study, in fact practically nth 2 study... but a lot of practicals... which means most of my afternoons are taken up...hmm... meaning dat VBS week i really won't be able to even set foot in church, n will be coming back "late" most days...
still, it's not all doom and gloom... got holidays coming up at least :)
and... Chelsea are on top in the Premier League; not that i'm a Chelsea fan, but it's nice to have somebody other then Ars and MU on top...
it would be even better if Bolton strung up a 10 match winning streak to go top :P
Sunday, November 07, 2004
ok-lah...uhh, update a bit abt ppl around me... i'm not THAT self centred.. :P
uhh, mei n e1(both final year students) are stressing out over assignments n exams.
yalah, they both need alot of ntv7... but den after ntv7 oso still so stress :|... i'm thinking wat to do for them... besides pray-lah, dat's a given...
but den on the other hand this week got Thursday holiday, n oso nex week got Raya break for one week.. so, happilah :)... n got Incredibles coming out oso :)
so, got some stuff to look fwd to
Saturday, November 06, 2004
i'm playing too much computer again... i admit my sin, but then nth to do-lah... study, oso study finish... ok-lah, of course more can be done, but then i'm not a nerd(contrary to popular opinion)...aiyoh, it's actually a super ironic situation, cos' the only other thing to do is finish Sunday School reading assignments... so my choices are between reading "How to Read the Bible for All it's Worth" and playing Diablo... uhh, Bible or Diablo?
more often den not i'm playing.. :|
i can't say playing computer is evil, but den... haih, for me once something you do starts controlling you instead of the other way round, den its bcoming wrong... but den i'm only at act II :( it's actually a very straight fwd choice.. do what u want-lah... bt den wat i would really want is to play Diablo AND to play it openly AND to study appropriately enuff... so actually it would be good if i could study n control play Diablo a little bit... why am i talking about this... i'm sure nobody wants to hear about the problems i have playing Diablo... i wouldn't be interested either.. ;)
Thursday, November 04, 2004
okay... this is pretty wierd... the "failed" posting i made before this wan... came out after this wan... anyway... it's above... that's the original wan... the first wan i thot failed... won't be surprised if suddenly the 2nd wan oso jump out of nowhere...
dunno when-lah... seems like an eternity...
anyways... today while waiting 4 CF after prayer meet i learned how to dance...
no really, dance.. as in move your hands and legs following a rhythm. i found it's quite fun actually:) and also quite addictive:P i found myself dancing in the small cubicle i call my toilet dis evening...
Relieving? why was today relieving... uhh, no.. not because i went to toilet alot, but bcos' i was finally able to get a load off my chest...
uhh, wat load?.. heheh, stay tuned to find out wat load it is... :P
next post only-lah...
Monday, November 01, 2004
not particularly bcos' i don't have class on friday, but because i had never been so busy over the weekend, busy driving around dat is...
over the past weekend i've driven to klang and back so many times i think i could have gone round the world twice.. okay, dat's an exaggeration... wah, but really-ah... up and down the kesas highway is extremely boring.. thank goodness never fall asleep or anything liddat. :)
btw, thanks for all the sms's n prayers... special thanks to magdalene who kept on msging me after she read my prev. post... it's hard to believe she's not even in secondary school :)
good news... my mum says my dad's coming home tomoro... ;>
Saturday, October 30, 2004
for the past 10 months i have been battling myself over a sin i'm facing... time and time again i have come face to face with the mercy and forgiveness of God...
about 3 weeks ago, i met with an accident and mercifully survived though it could have been much, much, much more worse...
what is grace?
after my father's accident today i am more convinced of the answer i have discovered..
grace is when you can come home again... when after wasting the father's fortune on profligate living, the son still can come home again...
when after driving dangerously with eyes half closed, God practically carries you back so that you can come home again...
grace is when your Heavenly Father watches over and holds your earthly father so that he can come home...
grace is when after you have sinned, and sinned, and sinned, and yet again sinned... and after 10 months of living in sin, seeking forgiveness and coming before the throne of mercy... the offer made at the first is still the same as at the last... "will you come home again.."
"Is there no one who condemns you?"
"Then neither do I, go and leave your life of sin..."
I have never ever felt so totally helpless in an emergency before... today when i recieved the call from the blessed stranger who helped my father on the road... my mum was out with my sister for lunch... i was alone at home with my grandparents... the red car was still under repair, i had no real vehicle besides my bicycle to go and look for my parents... when i made the call to church, Siewteng and Ps. Chua were out...
i suppose it is only really when you're totally helpless that you know who are your true friends... friends aren't always those that're are laughing with you; true friends are those that are willing to extend a helping hand when it inconveniences and even troubles them; true friends are those who are always ready to call or sms their support when you're weak; true friends are always ready to drop whatever they're doing to pay attention to your problems... those who really consider you as precious...
many thanks to EeWan who drove me to look for my mum around SP, all the way to the Tengku Ampun Rampaiah Hospital in Klang, to panda;) who was the only one who called, to Daniel, MokCK, Jinqfeei for sms's...most of all to that stranger who stopped to help... mere words cannot express my thanks...
Thursday, October 28, 2004
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
anyway, i've just realized dat i hardly watch tv anymore... computer has become my sole source of recreation and entertainment... i used to watch on thursdays but nowdays... haih, Diablo II and internet take up all my time... no, this is not good...
i hereby proclaim that i shall limit my Diablo II playing to 3 times a week... if that's possible-lah, especially with summative over ;P...
haih, one computer for 3 ppl in one house is simply not enuff... i always seem to be the one "losing" out...
Dad:"you want to use the computer?"
Me:"no-lah, i'm studying..."(but secretly wishing he gets off the computer)
...then half an hour later when he does get off the computer, my sister jumps in the chair and i'm stuck with studying once again... hmm...
i haven't had a good long chat wif anyone for almost 2 weeks alredi... hmm...
Sunday, October 24, 2004
hmm... this coming weeks promise to be quite tough for everyone but me... hmm, everyone's either busy wif assignments or exams...
joyce got end of sem, SPM n STPM is here, so got one whole bunch of ppl very busy now, e1 seems 2 be permanently stuck on assignments n exams, mei oso very busy n always asking me for ntv7 but never reply mail:)...
on the other hand, last saturday we finally had the 5 in 1 b'day celebration.. it was really fun preparing the presents and food, but really-ah...huiyoh, thank goodness is end of the month... wah, really pokai-ah... i have real reason to fear october now...
umm, i've been visiting joyce's new blog n mei's blog, i'm not implying anything bad, or at least i'm trying not to; anyway, it's something good... i've noticed dat my posts dun generally have much "spiritual" stuff in them... i wonder if that's good or bad?
on the other hand, i'm not praising my family... but i liked my dad's sermon today...
"you don't really know what it means to trust God until you "push the boundaries".."
in other words, unless u put yourself in or face a situation where u have no choice but to trust God, your faith is... not so solid, to say the least...
i was thinking how true this is, especially in an incident last friday...
every wednesday its either nice to come home or not nice, cos' we employ a maid to come in on wednesdays... so its nice to come home to a room dat somebody else has tidied and cleaned for u;), on the other hand... stuff goes everywhere... last week i was doing my book report for sunday skool on wednesday b4 going IMU, n den being smart i left it downstairs... wah, when come home n see the book without the report papers... wah, immediately know what happened... sure enuff kenot find... there was this small voice telling me not to worry n to trust God... but den after spending about half an hour re-messing the house oso kenot find... so after praying, haih... have 2 trust God n go to study...
heheh, friday i found it strangely just right on the table where the book was...
i'm either super-lousy at finding stuff, or God is really amazing... or mebbe both :)
wah, today's blog really very long-ah...
Thursday, October 21, 2004
then it struck me... that moment of enlightenment...(pause here for a moment and imagine a bright light shining around me ala levelling up)
no-lah, nothing big... just dat tomoro no class... n monday also... which gives me a 4 day weekend, which could have been even better if not for the fact that summative is next thursday..which means i'll should be studying on the long weekend, which i probably won'tlah anyway...
heheh, talking about enlightenment, i was on the phone the other day with a panda... and we were talking about enlightenment :) generally among panda circles, when a lesser panda doesn't understand what a greater panda is talking about... the greater panda will ask the lesser one to go to the toilet... of course this leads to the "throne" being the place of "en-light-enment"... which of course, could be taken literally to mean that u get "lighter" after sitting on the throne"... uhh, dun understand all this panda talk? nvm... didn't think any of ya'll would :)
dun worry, just go toilet and think about it :P
forget the panda if u want to... panda's aren't important
heheh, my crappiness level is quite high now :)
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
daniel sent me all his classic DOS games.. Prince of Persia, Prehistorik, Cat... haih, all those classic games we used to play when computers were still being introduced...
but den i haven't actually got down to playing any... cos' i'm actually playing Diablo II now... umm.. just killed Andariel last nite, or rather this morning... hmm... summative is coming up, really should be studying more...
den i've lately been introduced to "soldat"... a 2D shootemup game... downloadable at http://www.soldat.prv.pl/
i actually have more "game assignments" to play then homework to do... well, i'll probably continue Diablo II Act II only after summative... b4 that... try, try, try to concentrate on studies...
Monday, October 18, 2004
hmm...i probably should have let some of u all know earlier, but didn't really feel like talking about it until after i made the police report which was a few hours ago...
anyway, so here's the "official" version...
It was the evening 6pm, of 17th October.. it was after sending jois back home, i was just 10 more minutes from my house... had just passed the Bukit Jalil Golf Club traffic light, was in front of the Anjung Hijau Apartments... and was falling asleep... i know i should have stopped to rest but, haih... i know i'm a reckless driver, and all i could think of was getting back home...
well, i didn't notice the grey merc. which was on the right side of the road and by the time i did, i couldn't avoid and hit his back left corner... damage wasn't that bad... could still drive the car... i thank God i'm not injured and that Sam and Peiyiing just happend to be passing by.. first thought that ran through my mind was that this accident could have been MUCH MUCH worse bcos' if u're driving while u're sleeping anything can happen... thank goodness too that jois or jinqfeei weren't in the car, although theoretically if they were i wouldn't have been falling asleep.
so yeah, that's about it... and yeah, i forgot to take down the car plate no... so that meant that while reporting the accident today i listened to En.Zainuddin talk to me about Malaysians not knowing what to do in an accident while foreigners do... hmm... i promise to be a better driver...
i won't speed anymore and i'll rest if i'm sleepy.. :-... haih, 10 more minutes from home...
i spent most of last nite rolling in guilt and scolding myself for being stupid, but n/eway... wat's done is done...
Remember boy's and girl's... STOP and sleep if you're sleepy while driving!! you're endangering your life and the lives of the ppl around u.
Saturday, October 16, 2004
i donated blood today... for the second time... donating blood is fun :) especially when u see ppl who never donate b4 donate 4 the first time :)... u get 2 feel quite proud, when they're so scared... like got this "been there, done that" feeling...
Friday, October 15, 2004
i discovered lately dat daniel n jois follow Samurai X too... the one on Astro just finished the Shishio Makoto saga, so not really worth watching aldy, but on Sunday TV2 at 5pm oso got... n Kenshin not yet reach Kyoto also on TV2... so anybody interested in Samurai X(the best anime) go watch :) really... go watch, u dono wat u're missing...
btw, today we won volleyball.. n i missed it... hmph, all bcos' of daniel and amway... suckysucky... but at least we won :) yay, go M2/04!!
today n tomoro i only have 1 hour of lecture... it could have been fun, if not for the fact dat sum. ass. is two more weeks n quite pressure... haih... at least i've handed in my elective form... so, less one worry for now...
i've just realized i've got an affinity for rain... my favorite songs include, "Raindrops are falling on my head", "Kiss the rain" and yeah... the above song ;) give me rainy days over sunny days anytime..
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
its not that nothing has happened.. maybe too much has happened...
i used to have this idea of blogging like my life was a fantasy story... where dragons, orcs, towns would be symbolic of certain people n places... i still think its a wonderfully fantastic idea... just dat i haven't really the time to sit down an make one...
i've been sleeping in class for the past two days... i never thought i was the sleep-in-class type like David Liew... but somehow i haven't been able to pay attention during lectures.. which leads me to boredom... and boredom leads to sleepiness... come to think of it, i was sleepy during sermon on sunday also... hmm...
yesterday, the M2/04 volleyball team progressed to the finals after a tense game wif Sem 5... yeah, i sense a victory coming :)... its fun to cheer on your team when you're winning...
Sunday, October 10, 2004
and the First Malaysian Idol IS...Jaclyn Victor!!woohoo!! you go girl!!
to some it may seem a lopsided victory, to some an unfair competition... i say, let the winners win and let the losers lose... does experience make a person a worse competitor? If Jaclyn Victor was the best, then by all means... let her win.. and besides, the Malaysian public chose her... so she was obviously the most popular contestant... so what's wrong wif everybody's favorite girl winning?
yeah! Jaclyn Victor, The First Malaysian Idol... a title well and truely deserved...
on a side note.. i think its really cool dat Roslan Aziz has indicated that he's staying true to his word and going to sign up Dina.. truely, to be able to reach the Final Two is an achievement to be applauded...
i think to say that Dina was the underdog and that Jac's victory was expected is quite unfair towards Dina.. IMHO, they're both at the same level... can't wait for MI album and Jac's album to come out...2 thumbs up to 8tv, tv3 and MI for coming up wif the best show on Malaysian TV for a LONG LONG time...
the best songs on MI, Jac's "When I Fall In Love", "Tunggu Sekejap", "If I ain't Got You(Alicia Keys)" and "Gemilang", Jac and Dina's "I Believe I Can Fly".. uhh, i can't remember which Dina song.. she sang about two really good ones.. and there's also i think Nikki's "I Keep On Falling" (Alicia Keys)...
on a side note, ppl wonder why i "advertise" for 8tv so much... the truth is... i'm really Gary the IT guy ;)... no-lah, not really... but if 8tv can come up wif good shows, i don't see why i shouldn't praise it.. plus, it's good shows are LOCAL shows... so maybe its just bcos' i'm looking for something local to be proud of.. but wat's wrong wif being patriotic?
haih... after MI, Friday n Sunday nites will no longer be the same...no more Malaysian Idol
*update- Rydee sang Alicia Keys' I Keep On Falling; Nikki sang C.Aguilera's Voice Within... heheh, memory not dat good :P
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
harder than steel,
hotter than fire,
crueler than death.
Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.
-William Butler Yeats(The Second Coming)-
Poetry n music have this certain effect on you... i'm not a real poetry freak, but some stuff dat're really cun, like W.B Yeats Second Coming can have this "buzz" on you...
at times it feels like when you're listening to a piece of music that's really good, or dat brings back such memories, or dat simply just gives u that "buzz"... quite like wat i get when i listen to my Spirited Away OST...
its really quite indescribable... but u know something good's gonna happen, or is happening...
Monday, October 04, 2004
excellent stunts, rather predictable story-line.. uhh, yeah.. but you could obviously see jackie's getting old alredy... wow, his face is like almost unrecognizable...
so, was it worth the 6 bucks? hmm... a bit-lah... 4 bucks would be a better price...
Saturday, October 02, 2004
The Classic IQ Test
What's Your IQ?
Your IQ score is 136
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.
Your Intellectual Type is Facts Curator. This means you are highly intelligent and have picked up an impressive and unique collection of facts and figures over the years. You've got a remarkable vocabulary and exceptional math skills — which puts you in the same class as brainiacs like Bill Gates.
heh, if YOU too have too much time on your hands, take the Classic IQ test... i'm not showing off (^-^)
yeah, i just have too much time on my hands...
i'm wishing i had my own laptop or computer... ;)
continuing on that note, i also wish for a brand new pair of shoes, something without shoe laces maybe, and not made from canvas...
i'm also wishing i had enuff cash to get a new handphone... okay, so its less den a year since i bought my First handphone and i'm already wishing for a new year. but doesn't everyone love new stuff... don't tell me you don't... i never thought i'd say this, but having a camera phone would be kinda cool... Samsung E-700 really looks good even though its kinda old by now...
on a brainier note... uhh,ok i don't really have anything brainy to say right now :P
Friday, October 01, 2004
new MONEY!!, new handphone credit!!
yay, i'm freed from the oppresion and suffering of poverty...
last month i literally spent everything i had, down to the last cent... my wallet was left literally empty... except of course for those 1 sen n 5 sen coins...
on the other hand, when u think about it, my kind of poverty would actually be someone else's wealth on another side of the world...
Thursday, September 30, 2004
my dad was using the comp. yesterday, n i DID have something to blog :)
which unfortunately i can't think of now... hmm, how-ah?
yeah, today M2/04 volleyball won sem2's 2-0... really sapu them... i think dis is the only sport we got chance to get 1st :)
Monday, September 27, 2004
our girls won 4-1(3 on 3) but our guys lost after a VALIANT effort(30something-50something)...
but it was fun :)... can't remember the last time i cheered so hard for anything
Fight, fight, fight like champions,
Win, win, win like champions,
Fight like champions,
Win like champions
All the rest can go fly kite,
Fly kite, fly kite all the rest can go fly kite...
Go... M2/04 :)
Sunday, September 26, 2004
i suppose the reviews are true, it was gruesome, but after the movie, a few things struck me...
It definitely CANNOT be a movie for entertainment...
unlike other hollywood movies which glorify death and torture... this definitely didn't...
there was nth entertaining watching a man being literally butchered alive, for no apparent reason... and also to have the "bad guy" escape without any punishment...
which leads to another conclusion...
Christianity is the only religion that depicts a suffering God... no other religion does so...
if there was a movie depicting a suffering Muhammad, u'd get muslims worldwide condemning the movie...
and yeah, precisely bcos' the POC isn't an entertaining movie, den to just watch it just for fun and to have it not make an impact would either render u to the level of the Roman soldiers who enjoyed the torture of Jesus... or to the Jews, who either watched silently idle or supported His crucifixion...
maybe u might think its reading too much in2 a movie... even if u don't believe dat the Crucifixion is a real thing dat happened, i think i does reflect on what u find as entertaining... what more if you ARE a christian...
Saturday, September 25, 2004
so, heheh... lets talk about my grandparents.. i got 4 grandparents... 2 fr mum, 2 fr dad...
my dad's parents stay wif us.. n my mum's stay in DU...
i actually find my dad's parents quite amusing... especially "kong kong" cos' he has all these funny ideas about how the world should be run... and he always runs in2 trouble wif my "ah ma" bcos' of the stuff dat he does, like falling asleep watching tv, telling her how to cook or do stuff which he doesn't really know about... u know-lah...
this is wierd... blogging about my grandparents...
anyway, i realized last nite, dat after 10 seasons of Survivor... i've finally gotten sick of the back biting and "community" living displayed in survivor... i mean twist and turn as they may, the basic concept of the entire game is getting boring... i mean, every new batch dat comes around basically does the same things, talks about the same things... hmm, i think its time they stopped the show...
Thursday, September 23, 2004
When I say I am a Christian
I'm not shouting I'm clean livin
I'm whispering I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven.
When I say. I am a Christian
I dont speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumbled
And need CHRIST to be my guide.
When I say. I am a Christian
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that Im weak
And need HIS strength to carry on.
When I say. I am a Christian
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say. I am a Christian
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But God believes I am worth it.
When I say. I am a Christian
I still feel the sting of pain,
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say. I am a Christian
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, ..somehow.
*recieved in the mailbox*
i'm in a certain "zone" today... that sort of unreal feeling where u've woken up after a long nap n its alredi dark.. dat sort of feeling where u're not really sure if u're asleep or awake... pretty matrix-y :)
yeah, i find the above poem is pretty meaningful... pretty meaningful... hmm... can't think of anything else to say... really got that "twillight zone" feeling... on the good side, there's Monk today...
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
"Christians are never more then poor beggars telling other poor beggars where there's bread."
what this means of course, is that we as christians should never bcom so proud n think we're better den other ppl bcos' we're so holy... the fact is, it should be seen dat we tell others of what's wrong in their lives not bcos' we've got it right but bcos' we've got it wrong b4... n we've found out HOW to make it right(which of course doesn't necessarily mean we are doing it rite ourselves)
but anyway, i'm still a-wondering who's chairoll n mitosis...
oh yeah, almost forgot... apparently my 1st posting DID get uploaded so i now have 2 of the same post(diff dates bcos' of midnight)... i think i won't delete it... too lazy to anyway...
anyway.. really busy this week... i hate being busy... wasting time double blogging doesn't help matters :(...
we just finished bio-chem last week, so wonders of wonders.. we're starting with the nervous system this week... on top of that, it's IMU Cup(sports month of sorts) starting yesterday...
and... from Mon-Wed nite, i'm attending a talk by D.A Carson on Rev. 12-14.. which is quite good by the way... and ofcourse the various distractions that try to keep me from studies... yeah, of course there's s.school assignments which bug my conscience over being just stuck on the cupboard...
i fully appreciate the wisdom of making joyce's b'day present last week instead of this week :)
i hate being busy... joyce is busy wif projek, jinqfeei wif assignments, daniel isn't busy but two guys don't really do much togeder...
haih, bzbz.. :(
a good thing to thank God for tho, would be that at least... at least...
i don't know... maybe my ping pong smash getting better? :)
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
but i really hate being busy.
this week, besides finishing bio-chem which means we're starting on the human body(finally) and not some distant imaginative body functions we hardly think about... and so this week we have.. the brain n nervous sys.*groan*... add to that, fr mon. to wed. nite i'm attending a talk by D.A. Carson on Rev. 12-14, we're having IMU Cup this 3 weeks starting yesterday(sort of sports month) and hmm... various other distractions to my studies..
i hate being busy :(... but on the other hand, i suddenly percieve the wisdom of having finished joyce's b'day present last week instead of dis week :)
on the other hand, i know mei facing her final final final final punye final's final...
haih... everybody beezee, joyce oso finishing projek, jinqfeei bz wif assignment, daniel beezee being free even tho he got assignment... heheh, it's no wonder we call them ASSignments...
Friday, September 17, 2004
i don't wanna use you,
just to have somebody by my side
And i don't wanna hate you
i don't wanna take you
but i don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool i keep losing my place
and i keep seeing you walk through that door.
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
there's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Now i could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes i may have hurt you
but i did not desert you
Maybe i just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
And there's no way home
When it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where i used to lay
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know its your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
i'm in the mood for songs :) songs songs... what would life be without songs
Thursday, September 16, 2004
You never let me down before
Don't imagine you're too familiar
And i don't see you anymore
I wouldn't leave you in times of toruble
We never could have come this far
I took the good times, I'll take the bad times
I'll take you just the way you are
Don't go trying some new fashion
Don't change the color of your hair
You always have my unspoken passion
Although I might not seem to care
I don't want clever conversation
I never want to work that hard
I just want someone that I can talk to
I want you just the way you are
I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew
What will it take till you believe in me
The way that I believe in you
I said I love you, and that's forever
And this I promise from the heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are.
hmm... actually i'm not really in the mood to talk or blog much now, but i thot of this song, n so decided to blog about it... i think when you're younger ppl are constantly on the look out for new stuff... the coolest thing in town, but i find nowadays the thing i really want the most is for things to stay the same day after day, week after week, year after year... permanance and reliability seem more attractive then innovation and creativity...
oh yeah, i just finished reading the Da Vinci code, by uhh.. heheh, i finished an entire book without knowing who the author was :)..
ok, i discovered it was written by Dan Brown after blogging it...
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
My IMU tutor is this chun nigerian guy named Dr. Francis Achike :)... i feel really motivated to study now, no really.. i'm serious :P
apparently he believes in such a thing as the sixth sense, ESP or intuition and thinks we should be using it to help us study, but that's not the best thing about him... i think that would have to be his accent... he has this slightly thick nigerian accent which makes some of his words hard to understand, but really enjoyable to listen to... not in the funny sort of way, more of a really chun sort of way :) its kinda hard to explain so i'm not really going to try.
Monday, September 13, 2004
aiyoh, that was crazy man... wah, first time i actually spent SO much time preparing a gift.
we met for lunch at 1pm... i reached home at a little past 8pm... wah, siao-eh!
anyway, i googled and yahoo-ed "birthday gifts"... i suppose i shouldn't be surprised, but it appears money really makes the world go round... any gift u want to get HAS to be bought with money...hmm, my income output for joyce's gift was practically 0.00 bucks... if u don't count petrol n lunch money... electric n streamyx bills...haha, i'm proud of the fact that i can still come up with a gift worth remembering that doesn't cost a cent! bet that less then 0.1% of M'sia's population can say the same :)
on another note.. yesterday was a dark, dark day for Malaysian Idol.. Nikki got voted out and Jac was in the bottom 3!!:(.. aiyoh, how can... on any given day she's WAYYY better then Saiful, Andrew and even Vick... it's all those darn girls fault who only know how to vote for a pretty face... if either Saiful of Andrew become The MI, i'm cutting my hair bald...
Friday, September 10, 2004
apparantly medic students there although don't get as "bad/fun" an orientation as i got, it appears that medic students wherever they are, are a uhh... dirty minded?; the english dictionary doesn't really have an appropriate word for "ham sup"... somehow studying human anatomy for a living does strange things to you...
which then makes you think about what doctors and nurses really think about while they're operating or checking up on you :)...
heheh, visit your nearest doctor for further clarification...
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
Today is the second day of funerals for victims of the Russian School Siege... it's a sad, sad day that parents should have to bury their children.
Theoden(The Two Towers) :"...Alas, that these evil days should be mine. The young perish and the old linger...No parent should have to bury their child..."
Mass funerals while Russia mourns... responses from world press
Monday, September 06, 2004
30,000 bucks per sem and they can't even get someone who speaks proper english... i'm sure its no fault of his but, uhh... couldn't they get someone we can understand... i'm not sure if i would prefer someone who speaks perfect english but has a killer boring tone though...
*note-denise is my M2/04 batch mate
Sunday, September 05, 2004
its truly ironic and disturbing that in this age of "civilisation and modernity", such acts of barbarism and inhumanity still get carried out... which makes you think that in spite of our scientific progress, we've regressed morally...
Saturday, September 04, 2004
orientation is over... uhh, on the one hand it was fun(for some reason i find having eggs one my head fun:P) so its kind of a downer that is over... on the other hand, i DON'T HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY!! finally, i get to wake up at a reasonable hour... the past few days have been totally UNREASONABLE in my waking up hours...
although i remember a long time ago having to wake up at 5.30... haih, nowadays its just a distant memory... even 7.00 seems early nowadays...
hmm... no good,no good... must berdisiplin... yeah right, as if...
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
anyway, back to mundane stuff :
i was thinking abt dirty jokes. heh, no.. not thinking OF dirty jokes... thinking ABOUT dirty jokes :P
i've realized dat as we move on in life, we get more exposed not only to dirty jokes but to "sins" of the world. u know, stuff dat used to be wat u thot was definitely a no-no... like sex b4 marraige, porn.. and dirty jokes. I suppose there really are only 2 responses a person can give to stuff like dis... one of course is the easier way... which is to just play along, "everybodys doing it", "it doesn't harm anyone", "don't take stuff like dis so seriously, it's all for fun"... and there's the other harder response.. which is to draw the line earlier rather then later and to raise the standard rather then 2 lower it...
i suppose after 8 months of only interacting wif "goody guys", there's a sort of a "culture" shock when u get back to the real world... and maybe its just a little thing... but i can't help thinking... that if our purpose in life is to bring pleasure n 2 glorify God, does this glorify God or does for my own pleasure...
uhh, contrary to wat it may seem... i'm actually enjoying orientation... it's just this part about the dirty jokes dat get 2 me.. :)
Sunday, August 29, 2004
after the first two days of listening to lecturers talking(presenting an ideal IMU)
last friday i finally got to listen to the students of IMU, namely my seniors... talk...
well, to say that it isn't exactly ideal would be an understatement...
haih.. and we wonder why doctors nowadays aren't that good.. orientation week is gonna be downright dirty... and i don't just mean physical filth...
aiyoh... come on-lah... so sexual innuendo's are to be the rite of passage from school life to uni life? and i thought that uni students were more matured... apparently not... i mean, if this was in secondary school it wouldn't be that bad... but University students... studying to be Doctors!!
hmm... and we wonder why things in the world get worse and worse...
sin really encroaches all around us... call me naive or whatever you want :, but i truly believe clean fun is better den dirty fun...
post update:heheh, its amazing what wonders a bath can do for you :)... i've discovered dat part of the difficulty i had in deciding to actually say: no i won't do it... was bcos' i was trying to please a bunch of ppl who quite frankly don't really care whether or not i please them and who hardly know me or are known by me... well, that's something off my mind :)
Thursday, August 26, 2004
i can't remember the last time i had to follow a schedule...
well, first impressions of IMU are that the lecturers are boring ;)(what lectures aren't) but the programme as a whole seems pretty interesting what with self learning and all...
one good news i just found out is that i'm potentially free to serve in VBS! but the bad side is that i won't be able to go for any camps this year... hmph... that's a real downer...
IMU does seem like a pretty fun place actually... there's a pool table, foosball, full Astro subsciption, sofas in the student lounge and other what nots :)...
oh yeah, my parents are out of town till Saturday.. YEAH!!
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
i do know that the beginning of tomorrow is the end of my oh-so-long-and-never-ending holiday...
Closing Time by Semisonic from the album Feeling strangely fine
Open all the doors and let you out into the world
Turn all of the lights on over every boy and every girl
One last call for alcohol so finish your whiskey or beer
You don't have to go home but you can't stay here
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
Time for you to go out to the places you will be from
This room won't be open till your brothers or your sisters come
So gather up your jackets, move it to the exits
I hope you have found a friend
Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end
Friday, August 20, 2004
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
Some time ago i made a list of 10 things i liked about my sister... which i'm NOT going to put down here, cos' some things are only for family consumption :)
Anyway, it was partly out of having nothing to do and because every year at birthdays my sister always gets me something but i don't on hers... so i thot this year i'd do this 4 her on the occasion of my birthday, but... things didn't happen as planned... the list was a little bit too hard to mae and i didn't finish it in time, but anyway... yesterday i slipped it under her room door... and less than 12 hours later she had discovered it... i got a reply POEM back from her! which i'm NOT going to put out for viewing cos' some things are only for family consumption :)
I just LOVE my sister :)... heheh, its safe for me to put this up here cos' she'll never see it :P
i think he should be pretty proud of himself... b4 this i hadn't found anything on the internet that could pissme off or anything dat was worth getting pissed off at (including pop-up ads, internet chat and unhelpful toolbars) that is until now of course.
I never actually thot i'd feel so stongly about someone denouncing my religion... so anyway, i left my mark on his site... i wasn't the only one it seems, who feels strongly about a Muslim denouncing Christianity, i think mei also found out about him and left her mark there...
so, later that nite as i was thinking over Menj's site, i kinda felt in a wierd sort of way that God(if it really was Him) was telling me to uhh, not give the typical "i'm right you're wrong answer"... a verse from my devotion struck me too. "Do not repay evil with evil, but overcome evil with good."
So anyway i came up(or if you must..God gave) me this answer...
It seems strange that the 3 religions of our world, which have so much in common, should be so divided... you don't find Buddhists and Hindus or even Atheists argue as hotly over a personal belief as the Jews, Christians and Muslims do. Why should it be that we who have so much in common look for differences to divide?
I'm not a scholar and humbly beg forgiveness for my ignorance, but i doubt that in the Quran, Prophet Muhammad commands Muslims to denounce other religions, look of lousy followers of their faith &tc... i do know as a Christian that Jesus didn't...
I have heard that it is said Islam is "The Way of Peace"... shall we not then, brother have Peace?
A person will undoubtedly have questions upon reading of another's faith... but should not questions be put forward to people who have authority to answer them? rather than to put forth an accusatory opinion to the general public and thus raise up bad feelings and strife?
even later that nite i also wrote down an answer to his use of scripture, but i don't think i'll post it there...
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Anyway, i went to the barber today. It seems that there's a change of worker again. Did i mention i go to an indian barber? The 1st time i went there, there was this indian guy who was quite old i think whom after about 5 or 6 months got changed to a bespectacled, kinda blurry indian guy.Today i found out its a young indian chap whom i think so far,uhh... gave me my 10bucks worth. I can't say whether its good or not cos' i can't really tell difference.
So, after cutting my hair, surprisingly he went on to do this neck thingy on me... i don't know what's it called... its not a massage, but the 1st time my indian fren in mbs did it on me, it felt really good. it's sort of like cracking the knuckles except that u do it with your head and neck? anyway, he then proceeded to continue to my back and give me a thumping... uhh, i think that would be what you call it. So anyway, for 10 bucks getting hair cut, sideburns shaved off, neck thingy and back thingy... i think i got my money's worth. Best of all its just 10 steps away from my house :)
Support malaysian.. go for indian barber :)
Monday, August 16, 2004
hmm... if you don't try thinking about the meaning of the colors and the "maksud tersirat" then i think its a rather enjoyable movie... sad-lah, but enjoyable...
well, at least it's better than "Hero"... Zhang Yimou's previous show which really was inunderstandable to the intellingence of the average Malaysian cinema-goer...
its not that i don't think there isn't any "maksud tersirat" but its just that you can just look at the "surface story" and enjoy it by itself...
the flying dagger scenes are REALLY GOOD... yeah, besides the scenery &tc... the bamboo scene is much more believable den the wan in "Crouching Tiger.."... and the fight in the flower fields is really good...:) i oso think Z.Ziyi did a good job at playing a blind girl in the beginning...
now all i'm waiting for is "Puteri Gunung Ledang" coming out on the 31st of August, our Independence Day... the clips & trailers seem pretty okay... M.Nasir as Hang Tuah looks good...
Sunday, August 15, 2004
The other girl to leave MI(M'sian Idol) was Sufiah...hmm... i actually have no recollection of what she sang :)..
hmm... everyone seems so emotional on the show... even Jien wasn't smiling at the end... lets see... i think most of the contestants were crying, Jee was crying... probably Roslan Aziz was too... i think only Paul Moss wouldn't cry... everybody's crying...
on the other hand... it does make the show interesting :) although i can't really explain why...
why DO we like watching ppl cry?
Saturday, August 14, 2004
well, finally after the long wait... the 12 finalists of Malaysian Idol(MI)...
and in the words of Paul Moss:"Average, just simply average.."yeah, last nite wasn't the greatest show on earth n not even the best episode of MI, hey... even the wildcard card show was better...
but it wasn't all that bad... Zamri & Dina stood out.. can i say more so then Jacbecause you kinda expect it of her...she still is the best performer of the lot even when she isn't trying hard(like last nite).. but to quote mr.moss again,"i really hope you don't win this just because everyone else isn't good enough...i hope someone comes along and pushes you so that your real abilities/potential is shown"...
anyway... last nite definitely wasn't a night for the chinese contestants.. the "Vicks"(both), Andrew and Nikki gave performances that ranged from average to boring to cringe-worthy~.. but i must say worst perf. of the nite and my vote for contestant to get out would have to be Fazly... ugh... what was he thinking... his rendition of Maroon 5's This Love was laughable! why one earth did he choose this song?
i really think the wildcard show had more quality then last nite's show...anyway, as of now, i'm actually hoping the winner is a Malay..preferable Dina: she undoubtedly has the ability, n i personally think she stands out wif her personality... oklah... the wierd finger thingy has to go... but ever since mr. caterpillar eyebrows didn't make it (although i found him irritating at first; in the end i was hoping he'd make it) i think she would be the best remaining option... i'm not really supporting Jac cos' she's kinda like the favorite... i DON'T support favorites.. give me the underdog anyday....
my choice for top 3: Jac, Zamri & Dina... yeah... anyway... the 1st MI has proved to be entertaining so far... quite-lah nyway.... i'm looking fwd to future seasons where hopefully the quality will improve :)
Friday, August 13, 2004
Last nite was expecially good...
Normally after i come back from wherever i've been on thursday nite... if i'm out... there're two excellent shows on tv3 and 8tv...
every 11pm tv3: Monk, a series about an obssesive-compulsive detective(Tommy Shalhoub) who uhh... fights crime, sort of anyway...
followed thereafter by 12am 8tv:Latte at 8.. what i think is m'sia's best talk show, hosted by Jason Lo televised live(used to be, now they're showing repeats) from Sunway Starbucks..
well... yeah, concurrently showing on ntv7 12am is Fear Factor... so that advertisement times aren't a factor... but 8tv has relatively short ad breaks anyway... and well, if i'm up to it Latte at 8 continues with Late Show with David Letterman on ntv7 1am...
yeah, don't you just love tv :)
btw, i still think 8tv is now the best local free tv channel... hands down, no competition...
among other good shows now showing on 8tv are... Malaysian Idol!
they also broadcast live short "quickies" between shows on weekdays at nite which are really good... really good...no, really really good... okay so maybe its because i think Marion looks good...
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
I hope something happens soon,
Tuesdays used to be 'pasar malam' days,
hmm, nobody to go wif nowadays, since i stopped bee's.
Today's connection is really slow,
37.2 is the fastest the jaring line can flow,
Only 16 more days to starting IMU,
So from now till then i'm hoping for more to do.
haih,it's that boring,
nothing to do but lame poetry writing,
my mind is aching, my body is hurting,
from the amount of boredom i'm enduring.
Monday, August 09, 2004
1984-1990:-memories of... growing up? hardly-lah...
-i do remember there was this one occasion on a family trip where i nearly drowned after being swept away by a river current... but i'm not sure how old i was.
1990 : memories of... kindergarten life
-i remember chasing chickens in some strangers house, the sg. besi army camp flat which was the BEST! place to stay.
-My grandfather's vege/fruit/plant garden complete wif well, fertilizer and stinky stuff, i remember also sleeping under christmas trees by the side of the road on the way back from kindy, frenly neighbours 2 play wif.
-yeah those were the days when i went to St. Gabriel's wif John and James Chan
1991-1994: memories of... primary school life in SK bandar baru seri petaling
-i remember playing bottle caps, football in corridors wif mineral bottle water caps, representing school in chess
-moving to the Wan Empok house(rented) in seri petaling, which was kinda a step down from the army flat but still better den my present house...
-yeah, this was when i started going to Canaan BC
-ppl i used to know: Kien Mun, Siew Boon, the chinese gang, the NCA gang(mainly girls), Salman & various others... when you're std6 everybody knows everybody...
1997-1999: memories of secondary school life in Sek. Aminuddin Baki
- lasting memories of going to CYBER CAFE!!(Starcraft and Halflife are still the best games i've ever played)
- a few scattered memories of scouts, acting, failed attempts at starting CF, reading Dragonball(only Manga i actually finished)
-ppl i used to know- Virata, Reagen, Singh, Debbie, Ayish, Jessica, Faye..haih, the whole SAB gang
2000-2003: memories of secondary school life in Methodist Boys' School
-lasting memories of CF!! & SU CAMPS!!... starting to learn what christianity is about...
*2000-2001:memories of getting to know MEI!!, literature classes, BK competitions and classes -ppl i used to know-Alex, KM, Tze Chao, Chew Liang, Bernard, Silas.. this group roughly still keeps in contact once in a while so i can't really say i "used" to know them...i still do..
*2002-2003:form 6, year of the ACCIDENT(2002), leading Chapel and mainly the RELIEF at being able to leave it...
-ppl i used to know- uhh, most are still in contact.. its only been a year surprisingly...
-an event of note...Mei's grandpa passing away which was the closest death has come to me, being the close relative of a close friend...
-life is not without a sense of irony it seems... b4 this time, i remember saying that i would be okay without learning how to drive... after learning how to drive i can't imagine living without driving.
2004 (Jan- ): memories of Bee's, getting to really know Daniel, Leena, Joyce... life's been good so far... looking forward to starting uni life in IMU
-events of note would be experiencing GRACE and getting my handphone (Samsung SGH-C100)
just for the sake of it, here are some of the ppl who know me and are known by me... and still remember who i am :)...outside of church- William KCH, Mei, Nicholas LKK, Sharon Khor, Reuben, Rowen, Ying Khai
ppl who still remember but will potentially 4get within a few more years...- Beh, Tze Chi, Emerson, Simon, Yean Yee, Jenn Jiang, Rajiv, Wei Leik, Kevin... other form6-ians and CF-ians...
church ppl close to me...- E1, Leena, Joyce, Daniel, bigMok
those a little further down the line...- Tim, Andrew, Jane, YiBing, Evon, William LZK, Jhow Weh, Guan Han, Noel, Joel, Ju Yuan, Ju Liang...
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
Where a hero's welcome, would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face
And a voice keeps saying, this is where I'm meant to be
I'll be there someday, I can go the distance
I will find my way, if I can be strong
I know ev'ry mile, will be worth my while
When I go the distance, I'll be right where I belong
Down an unknown road, to embrace my fate
Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you
And a thousand years, would be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime, but somehow I'll see it through
And I won't look back, I can go the distance
And I'll stay on track, no, I won't accept defeat
It's an uphill slope, but I won't lose hope
Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete
But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart
Like a shooting star, I will go the distance
I will search the world, I will face its' harms
I don't care how far, I can go the distance
Till I find my hero's welcome, waiting in your arms
I will search the world, I will face its harms
Till I find my hero's welcome, waiting in your arms
Disney- Hercules- Go The Distance- Micheal Bolton
don't know why, but today's a good day for this song... not that i went any distance today :\.. maybe its because i'm dreaming of a far of place called heaven where life doesn't suck..
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
anyway, out of boredom i came up wif this story cos' i didn't feel like studying :
Christmas Bulldog stared deep into zhiyong's eyes.
"When is he ever going to put up the shelf.. lazy bum?"
"There he goes again, digging his nose, what is it with human & nose digging?... we soft toys get along fine without digging OUR noses," said Birthday Bear as she turned up her nose at him.
"No this isn't the story i was talking about, so stop interrupting me," said zhiyong.
The egg snuggled closer to the wall.
"Mmm... the room seems to have shrunk a little since last week... but at least it's more cosy now."
Well, it certainly was comfortable... warm, snug... what more could Egg the egg ask from life? The sun was shining and life was treating him pretty well.
"Ooohh... limbs! I always wanted a pair.. Finally, some way of manoveuring myself."
Egg had awakened in the morning finding himself with hands and feet. Now he could finally turn himself to that upside down position & fell the rush of blood to his head he had often heard the neighboring eggs talk about. This was fun, he could do it all day to the beat of his heart. Deep inside though, he realized that the room had shrunk again... but he kept it to himself... & not that there was anyone to tell.
"Oh no, now i'm really in trouble."
Egg had turned himself upside down because the top of the room had seemed unnaturally hot & now he was stuck.. he seemed to have grown wider around the hips...
"I knew the room had shrunk."
The first spasms of pain shot through his body as he realized the room really was shrinking... and at an alarming rate! His face squashed against the wall.. Pain... Darkness... Suffering...
He closed his eyes and waited for the end to come. Darkness washed over him. There was a loud CRACK and he knew it... his bones were breaking. He felt numb all over. The pain was unbearable.
then... relief finally, as a bright whiteness blinded his eyes. He tried opening his eyes and everything was white.. A seemingly darker shade of white approached..
"Am i dead?"
"No-lah, you're alive... in fact, your life has just started!"
"But i thought i dying... & how'll i go back to my egg now?"
"Hah, you call that a life? Being stuck in a shell?"
"But it was comfortable!"
"That's what you thought, but that's only because u're used to it.. NOW life really starts, you're FREE from the shell!"
"Will i be able to go back to it? I'll need somewhere to sleep.."
"Haha, is that a joke... Egg, when you've experienced life OUT OF THE SHELL, you'll never want to go back to it."
"You're pretty lazy yourself!" said zhiyong as he tried to sit Christmas Bulldog up after writing down the last words of "The Egg Story".
*blek* CB stuck his tongue out at zhiyong... or so he thought he did..
okay, it's a lousy story, i know... but i had nothing to do... n i don't wanna study...
Monday, August 02, 2004
i actually was going to post yesterday's sunday lunch disaster, but after talking to mei, msging joyce, chatting wif jinqfeei n eyin... it isn't so bad alredi... for the most, i'm thinking it's on account of me being a little "small hearted"... so bcos' today started out so wonderfully :), i'm not going to spoil it by putting something unhappy on my blog :P... maybe some other time when my mood's not as good :\
Kiss The Rain- Billie Myers
Can you hear me?
Am I gettin' through to you?
Is it late there?
There's a laughter on the line
Are you sure you're there alone?
Cause I'mTryin' to explain
Ya just don't sound the same
Why don't you
Why don't you
Kiss the rain
Whenever you need me
Kiss the rain
Whenever I'm gone, too long.
If your lips
Feel lonely and thirsty
Kiss the rain
And wait for the dawn.
Keep in mind
We're under the same sky
And the night's
As empty for me, as for you
If ya feel
You can't wait till morinin'
Kiss the rain x3
Do you miss me? I hear you say you do
But not the way I'm missin' you
What's new? How's the weather?
Is it stormy where you are?
Cause you sound so close but it feels like you're so far
Oh would it mean anything
If you knew, what I'm left imagining
In my mind In my mind
Would you go Would you go
Kiss the rain
And you'd fall over me
Think of me x3
Kiss the rain...
Whenever you need me
Kiss the rain
Whenever I'm gone too long
If your lips, feel hungry and tempted
Kiss the rain, and wait for the dawn
Keep in mind
We're under the same skies
And the night's
As empty for me, as for you
If you feel, you can't wait till morning
Kiss the rain...
heh, i like this song.. partly on account of it's sheer senselesness: How do you kiss the rain?
Sunday, August 01, 2004
well, normally zhiyong doesn't blog on weekends, but i think he'll make an exception today..last saturday was a day for old times..as in really old times...
(Last time saturdays)wake up in the morning, go market, come back, have breakfast, help keep marketing stuff(peel prawn &tc.), sleep/do own stuff/ practice piano(yeah back in the days when he had to practice piano :), have lunch, afternoon nap, go TU, go grandmother's house..more or less that was how things used to be...
(Saturday 31/7) wake up in the morning, go out for breakfast at coffee shop, come back, help keep marketing stuff(peel prawn &tc., finished LOTR(last few chapters), practice piano (yeah, for some reason :), have lunch, tried to sleep but watch tv instead(this was oso something he used 2 do), go TU, watch movie, come back late... okay, so it wasn't a carbon copy but there were similarities :)yeah... I, Robot is good
Friday, July 30, 2004
i suppose now is as good a time as any, although a bit late:) this card as well as the one zhiyong's sister sent him are probably the two most meaningful cards he's ever recieved :) The msg on his sister's means especially alot :
hey~...20th happy birthday!!
hope u like this card arr...i choose so long long n so hard..n summore nice nice u noe:P...enjoy yer b.day. i may not b a good sister but still u still treat me nicely, goodly;)...u r da coolest bro!!
God bless ya!
lots of xoxoxo,
- yer sis
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
wahh... zhiyong is like.. so "happy" that his pay from that one week of teaching in MBS has come(finally)... he got a whopping RM40.00!! imagine... for 5 days of working he got 40 bucks... that's like 8 bucks a day... given that he worked from 1.30 to 6.30 that would be less then 2 bucks an hour... WOW...and he thought Bee's was stingy... he's SO going back to teaching after this experience!!don't try arguing that he actually taught for less then 4 hours each day... the fact of the matter was that he was payed to be in school from 1.30 to 6.30.. waiters don't get payed less just because there're no customers.. wow, the pay is so darn shockingly CHEAP that i'm too shocked to be angry.. even working in a factory for a week will get you more...
On the other hand... yesterday was zhiyong's birthday:)... many thanks to all those birthday msgs, esp. those from mei, beekun, yingkhai.. sunday's "church lunch" .. ofcourse, not 2 mention the family dinner:) tenq, tenq... zhiyong feels so appreciated:P... heheh, i just couldn't leave this out... there was this one small detail of zhiyong having to stay at home on the 26th :)
oh, i feel "SO RICH" (@_@)*rolling and rolling eyes*
... oh yeah, for emphasis on zhiyong's "richness problem"...todate, as of 27th July 12 noon, zhiyong has RM1.60 of credit left in his Samsung SGH C-100 :(...
the problem wif money is that people who have it wish for more and those who don't have it wish for even more of it..
Friday, July 23, 2004
zhiyong was unable to go online for 3 whole days!!... do you know how long that is...
it's 72 hours...
personally i'm amazed that zhiyong is unaffected by the whole ordeal...
he says that it's actually a good thing...
"yeah, right...*rolling eyes*
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
she really blew away everybody.. and... got into the next round...
pity though.. the contestant i thought was really irritating (Fariz) didn't get thru... i thought he did okay.. at least better then Mr. Good Looking (Vic)
Monday, July 19, 2004
zhiyong thinks it's not fair that all his activities are pushed into two hectic, packed, "rest-less".. days when the other 5 days he's reduced to almost absolute boredom...
not that he's really complaining though... :) at least he's almost forgotten what it means to have monday blues :P... and it's definitely better then having 7 days of boredom :)
Blogger has updated it's interface again... it's now more user frenly, less intellectually challenging, and...
oh.. yingkhai has just introduced me to his new blog... another one joins the community :)
oh... and it's Rowen's birthday.. wow, n i thot it was going to be another boring monday..
Still, it's about time i started opening my books... holidays left with 5 more weeks... :(
Thursday, July 15, 2004
He now realizes that besides church n bee's colleagues, he has hardly anybody else to contact(okay so there's mei:).. what a miserable way of spending these last few weeks of holiday...
Now that he thinks of it, it really isn't surprising since church has been the greatest constant in his life all these years.. but he really MUST get a life outside of church..
King Arthur's out today... let's hope i get to see it within the next few days... and hopefully NOT alone :)
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
Is it raining where you are?
It brings hope everytime the raindrops fall,
Wash away the sin,
Wash away the sadness,
It reminds me of life and freedom.
It is raining where i am,
Is it raining where you are?
zhiyong told me once he loves it when it rains.. heavy rains, light showers..
it brings a small measure of peace.