Happy Chinese New Year

HAppy ChinesE neW Year!!

don't think so much... play hard now, study hard after this :)

the hero

unexpectedly he came..

flying in through the window uninvited...

all in the house was quiet... busy studying (or trying to)

and then... he ATTACKED!!!

quick reflexes saved me... enabling me to utilise

the DAGON!!

and the BURIZA!!

to obtain victory!!!

here lies the body of another fallen hero...

heh... just bored from studying... or trying to... lol

quiet at home

its been a lonely quiet couple of days at home since monday...

i've been leaving before my housemates are awake...

and when i'm back hl's alredi hidden in his room... 

feng ko is sleeping already... he's quite gg'd past few days due to some overwhelming septicemia i think... saw him briefly in school today...

oh ya... and there's jac... yeah... don't normally see her anyway.. lol

aih... wonder if this is bcos' of the exam season...

trying to keep an upbeat mood...

think i'm failing miserably...

i can't think of something to look forward to tmr...

look out, look ahead

today datuk huat mentioned during lunch that normal ppl look forward to the months of december, january and february... haha.. not us... those 3 months have been nightmare months for all of us since we started med school... always the Exam Finals months...

i guess its hard to keep on going strong when ur failings loom large in your face, 

and hope seems like the clouds far above that are out of reach...

but i suppose if we keep looking at the problem, the problem seems to grow bigger (kinda like how you can see the bacteria thru the microscope by looking longer... lol)

to break the cycle of exams and stress, i suppose maybe the only way is to look away...

look ahead to the good things in store after that... 

look out of the troubles we have now to the good things that have and are happening to us...

it's the best of times, it's the worst of times...

ironically it is during the best of our time.. when we're on holiday or in sem8... that we drift away from each other because we're so busy having fun...

and ironically it is during the worst of times...

during our exams... that we cling closer to each other and find strength in our friendship with each other because we need each other so much more...

try again

had been suffering from an acute bout of loss of confidence these past few days due to a Dato' comment...

coupled with late nights and early mornings and no afternoon naps...

add on a friendly patient that i had been talking to, who was supposed to go home who ended up fainting and delirious last night...

its been a tough couple of days...

ahh... its wednesday going on thursday...

exam stress is setting in...

and confidence is dropping low...

but well, 

i suppose if you want strength, God'll put you in a position of weakness so He can support you

2009

first day of 2009!!

yay!! another year gone by...

a new year to look forward to...

in case you didn't know... I'm sure u didn't...

2009 has been desginated (according to wikipedia)

International Year of Astronomy

International Year of Natural Fibres

International Year of Reconciliation

the coming year is going to be full of beginnings and endings...

ending seremban... beginning batu pahat...

and later... ending batu pahat... beginning work as a DOCTOR!! (hopefully)

ahh... which brings me back to studies =_=

a bit free

i'm actually quite free these few days before christmas...

i just spent about 15 minutes on je's blog thinking what STD baby means.. lol

and i'm home from the library after dinner..

i guess actually i AM quite free... just that there is this voice telling me to study while i still can before i run out of time when sem9 exams come... aihh...

otherwise... i've stopped using IE recently... i'm now using google Chrome :)

not for anything... just that couple of days ago there was a news report i came across on yahoo!

http://tech.yahoo.com/blogs/null/111811

concerning some Major security flaws in IE... well... i was looking for something new to try out anyway... so i popped by google and downloaded Chrome... it looks quite good so far.. very minimalist... makes my screen look bigger than normal.. and yeah.. kinda fits vista... lol

christmas

its christmas soon... haven't been able to really get in the "christmas" mood bcos of books...

but i'll be home for christmas...

and that makes everything ok (=

bored

studying.. bored...

hoping to finish ENT today... then quickly get the other 2 more minor postings done with...

but tmr is a full day =_=... and friday got study group T_T

but otherwise today was a fun day... had a good futsal with an owning team ^^ but i discovered my shoes are broken...

they look like they're gonna last me another 1 more mon

th only... which is actually just nice... cos' i don't know how much futsal i'm gonna be playing in the heat of e

xam prep and over in batu pahat...

(tORn_by_frfefarfearz)

hmm.. this post... is like one of those "blonde"

 posts i dislike reading... where the "blonde" goes on about how the day went, how he/her felt, what they ate, how long they waited at the bus stop...

and they usually end with...

a cute picture...

_______by_BenoitPaille

haha... no, that's not cute... and that's not me... lol

pictures sourced from deviantArt.com the site for all cool pics...

ok, i wasted enough time... 

back to foreign bodies in the ENT..

rainy

its been a rainy gloomy couple of days...
felt like blogging... but the past few days hav been rather uneventful...
just... studyingzzz....

rain is normally nice... but too much is no good...
my clothes are still damp =_=

topsy turvy

its been an upside down kinda 2 days...
still not quite used to waking up so late in radio/anaes... which has got to be the most lethargic posting i've ever been in...
like dato' joked in gynae... the radiologist looks like she's been exposed to too much radiation and the anaesthetist looks like he's been anaesthetised... they're both SOOOOOO slow... soft... selamba... slow to respond... slow to hear...
but... on the other hand... this is the only 4 weeks (3 since i can't quite count christmas week in) i'll have to get my sem8 postings ready for EOS... so hopefully i don't drift off and find myself 4 weeks later suddenly having done nothing...

on other things...
a good friend helped me to realize during an episode of low mood...
that sometimes the people that we want to pay attention to us
:- take us for granted, don't appreciate us and pay us no attention

but while there are actually people that DO pay attention to us, and actually care for us... but we don't realize it because we're looking in the wrong direction at the people who don't care for us... so we think that nobody cares for us while there are actually many who do...

yeah.. thanks for the reminder friend :)

coming home

yeah... its ending...
faster than i thought it would... 4 weeks is really a short time...
my last week of gyne... exams on tuesday and wednesday...
will be home on friday... after 3 weekends not going home...

heh... even exams can't get me down..

pictures

last friday after a hard days work... we chilled out by playing pool...
it's pretty obvious we got the style, but none of the substance... lol..
but the above pic is our resident Club 7 Pro.. Rikimaru/Tjunoosis




















This... looks quite pro rite... lol... the guy next to her is the "si fu"... who is err... supposed to be better than her... lolz...

and this... is a ball..

if you look closely you can observe that it has been "blest" with some oral secretions so that it can go in to the hole...

yeah.. these pics are from my new phone.. in case u don't know i have one.. lol...

my hand is quite shaky... hence some of the pics not so nice... but still trying... haha..

yeah... i guess this post is more cheery than the past few... lol :)

gynae

posting from home...
won't be seeing this place for a while cos next week...
gonna start gynae for 1 month...
its going to be a long 1 month...
i hope i can make it to the end of the month without too much "injury", heh...
which means i'll be in seremban till about december...

well.. at least i'll be able to celebrate christmas...

hmm... EOS coming near... i can feel the stress already... especially with the past 2 EOPs being so sucky...

an ideal world

i'd just finished watching this video from daniel's blog...
heh.. yeah, it really does make one feel all warm and fuzzy remembering "good old days"
but it was the sentences at the end regarding what was happening at that time that really caught my heart...

i sometimes do wish things didn't have to change...
that we could have keep on staying the same... having fun and not having to move on to "newer" and "better" things...
but life isn't like that i suppose... and it does kinda sux sometimes...

in an ideal world...

ju liang would be healed and still be with us right now, preparing for vbs...
i wouldn't have to keep on coming back to seremban and what not because of studies...
jane wouldn't have to be in belgium...
clifford and clement wouldn't have to be in australia...
noel would come to church every sunday...
all those canaan people doing their studies overseas would be able to do it in malaysia...
every friday and saturday night would be set aside for dakei...
every sunday afternoon everyone would be able to have lunch together and cendol after that without any worries...
work wouldn't suck...
all the people and friends we meet wouldn't be segregated into church, work, school friends and what not... everybody would know everybody and we'd all be friends...
people wouldn't get sick and die...
we would have fun preparing for church events yet not have to bother being busy at work or trying to get leave...
people wouldn't fail exams and get left behind...
everyone would keep in touch with everybody all the time...
people wouldn't leave to look for "better" churches to go to...

but i suppose... that's life...
it's imperfect... and we struggle against the things we don't like in our life...
i suppose.. it all happens for a reason...
so that when we are done struggling against the night... and we finally lay our heads down to rest...
the morning that comes seems so much better than what we've been struggling against...
so that heaven will really seem like heaven in comparison with this imperfect world we live in...

a place where...
we get to see again those people we miss so dearly now that have gone on before us...
we meet once again with people who are separated from us by distance or circumstance...
we no longer have to struggle with time, and work, and suffering..
staples of this life that we never get used to...
because i believe these imperfections were not supposed to be there in the first place....
and that there IS a place where these things will cease to be...

"He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

mail :)

i love getting snail mail...
so it was a really pleasant surprise when i got back last weekend to find a letter waiting for me...
In it were these:...































































very,... veryy,... nice :)...
now i know... autumn maple leaves really do exist!! :)
i'd actually forgotten all about the request... hahaha...
thanks vickie (=

back

heh... i'm back...
yeah... i know its been a while...
but.. .haha... i don't usually update when i'm on holiday...
hehe... blogging is kinda a study/work thing... so when i'm on holiday... blogging takes a break too...
or maybe i'm just too lazy.. .hehe...

but yeah... back... and starting medicine tomorrow...

today... and tomorrow

today... i had a triple layer peanut butter sandwich...
it was nice...
i topped it off with licking the bottom of my peanut butter jar...
yum...

its cos' i have exams tomorrow... i'm not the only one la...
hl, tekjee and a couple of others are also gonna have clinicals tomorrow...
we're different from the rest cos' we're gonna be sitting to clinicals AND written exam tmr...
so it feels like everyone else is starting to enjoy themselves cos' they're clinicals are over whilst ours aren't... its probably just me la... but having exams on the last day is sien cos' of that...

so i'm quite looking forward to the end of this sien feeling tmr...
no quite so much because of the end of paeds.. this time paeds was quite fun i think... the kids were more fun to play with... but just... cos' its the end of another rotation...

in addition tmr's the last day of uni.. we're out for a week for raya :)

in addition... gonna get to turn in my WAX for my WKB again...

in addition... gonna get to go home for a week... holiday again... did i mention? :P
which i'm gonna spend watching GODfather I,II and III... the Hulk... and whatever else i can get my hands on...

yes.. looking forward to the end of tomorrow...

no time

when you're in

sem 1.. dono what's happening... can't study yet
sem2... not exam sem... dun study first
sem3.. daji first only study
sem4... holiday.. study what?
sem5... short daji only... one fast push then study...
sem6.. adjusting to seremban... can't study
sem7.. must study dy... but wait nearer exam onli intensive study
sem8.. holiday again..
sem9.. not time study.. die..
sem 10... dun wanna think bout it...

politics and medicine

there's been a rather amusing thread going on in m204's yahoo group.. it may be sensitive to most since its about race and racism in our country... but i found it rather amusing... heh... mostly cos' i skip the long mails and just read through to the end...

so i thought i'd add me 2 cents to the discussion... which i thought sounded rather intelligent... lol

heh... so much talk about politics and race...
oh well... i know for sure ganesh can't be a politician... he is anything but "politically correct"..

haha... i guess this is sth like med school maybe...hehe... wonder if you guys would agree...

any medical student can diagnose problems...
the heart got problem...
the brain got problem...
the lungs got problem..
everyone has their own different "diagnosis" of what's wrong with our country...
heh.. in fact i think politicians do good jobs of "diagnosing" problems (more often than not other ppls problems.. lol)

but i guess to be a doctor we need to have a plan of management...
and hopefully we all agree on the plan of management, which i think ganesh's last sentence rather quaintly addresses...

i quote: "we can't change politics (unless you become a politician lah.. which some of us will i think... except ganesh... lol)
it's too idealistic...
but we can change ourselves to become better citizens..."

cheers
zhiyong

p/s- it sux to be a final year med student... your brain nids to be that of a doc... but ur heart still wants to be med student... =_=