acknowledgements

to God :), for literally keeping me alive till this very day. Without you there wouldn't have been a 21st birthday for me to celebrate. I offer my life to you in return...

to mummy and papa and ko, and cheng2, for being the best birthday gift i could ever ask for. Friends you get to choose, but family is who you get when you're born with. In that sense, you're the best gift i could ever have because i didn't choose you, but God chose you for me...

to mei, bcos' you were always there... so in that sense... your birthday gift to me has been being given since we first met... some friends come, some friends go... but some just stick there :P

to joyce, daniel, noel, yibing, chiyuan, mok, leena... you're all God's gift to me when i couldn't see what was in front of my eyes cos' i was looking too far ahead... i couldn't ask for more... thanks for not just being friends... but for being friends for an eternity :)

to JQ, hailiang, kexin, szesiew, callista, kimkwan, chinpei, christina, yeangwee, emma, thanks for the cake, msgs and celebration... but my gratitude extends not just for the things you've given me, but for the ppl that you are :)

to yingky, bernard, jane, eeyin, chloe, anna, jenern, thanks so much... you are not just names on a list of ppl who msgd me, but ppl from different places in my life who've all made a difference... Thank You..

ok-lah... it's a bit long and late in being blogged out, but i didn't want to miss out or forget anyone... thanks so much everyone for just being FRIENDS who care :)...

Thank You God for the friends you've given me... I offer all my relationships into your hands... use them as you will Lord...

yup, i think that's about all :)

*edited 1/80/05- heh, my sunday school class threw me a "surprise" party yesterday... for me n jane.. whose birthday falls one day b4 mine(which i failed to remember...ish...)

grace

heh... i rediscovered wat grace means last nite...
grace is something you totally don't deserve and don't expect to be given or done for you but is done anyway...
heh, my grandma gave me an angpau for my birthday... so that was cool... b4 opening it i was expecting 50 bucks or sth like that so i was telling myself, "okay... you're SO not going to spend birthday money on dotA or some useless stuff like dat..."
and then i opened the angpau... and inside got 100 bucks...

oh man...i so don't deserve this...

okay, i'm going shopping monday, to buy some stuff that'll really be worth 100 bucks... yeah, for real... probably some shirts or a watch or something cool to remember... yup, dotA is for losers

update

hmm...haven't updated in a while...
am currently undergoing rotations now... it's actually quite umm... weirdly sucky, or suckily weird.. cos' i'm kinda free... yet kinda have stuff to do...
it's like going to class when all the ppl in the class aren't the normal ppl you hang out with, like having holiday yet having stuff to do, and yet still having lotsa free time... ~_~..
i feel quite "hanging in between"...
oh well... looking fwd to hai liang and andrew coming back tonite from KKB...

games

heh.. i've been spending the whole of last week playing computer games... not the whole week-lah... just everyday, morning till nite till morning for 4 days practically playing non stop:P... heh, its because hailiang's back home, and he doesn't want to take back his laptop, so he asked us to take care of it for about a week... so i ended up with the laptop, and a stack of games...
heh, i've been playing "Evil Genius" like crazy since monday... and took breaks of dotA in the afternoon, meals and sleep... yeah, that's about it... heheh, yeah... never played so much computer b4...
hmm.. not good huh?
oh yeah, i forgot... my right wrist is slightly sore from moving the mouse too much:P..heh, yeah... i was playing that much:P....
but i did find time to finish a book too, "Boy Meets Girl" by Joshua Harris... yeah, its a really good book on christian relationships, and how BGR fits into God's purpose for use :)...

Nephilim

heh... to celebrate the holidays i'm double posting:)
and yeah, i found a new nick for dotA and other stuff...
it's from the bible... and it's really cool..

Nephilim-(Gen. 6:4; Num. 13:33, R.V.), giants, the Hebrew word left untranslated by the Revisers, the name of one of the Canaanitish tribes. The Revisers have, however, translated the Hebrew gibborim, in Gen. 6:4, "mighty men."

Genesis 6:4
The Nephilim were on the earth in those days—and also afterward—when the sons of God went to the daughters of men and had children by them. They were the heroes of old, men of renown.

Numbers 13:33
We saw the Nephilim there (the descendants of Anak come from the Nephilim). We seemed like grasshoppers in our own eyes, and we looked the same to them."

The origination of the Nephilim begins with a story of the fallen angels. Originating in the Book of Enoch {Apocrypha} Shemhazai, an angel of high rank, led a sect of angels in a descent to earth to instruct humans in righteousness. The mission lasted for a few centuries, but soon the soldiers/missionaries/angels became corrupted in their lusting after human females. After lusting, the fallen angels instructed the women in magic and conjuring, mated with them, and produced offspring, who would later be referred to as the Nephilim.

hmm... okay, so maybe the meaning and origin of this name isn't as cool as i thought it'd be..seems like Nephilim are actually the bad guys... but it still sounds nice, so i think i'll stick with it.. besides, i'm not perfect myself anyway, and.. yeah, i think it kinda fits...

if you're interested and have time like i do now.. you can visit http://www.ldolphin.org/nephilim.html for further info on Nephilim:).. but its super long and i didn't bother reading till the end anyway:P

holidays!!!

yeah!! i'm on holiday for one week!! woohoo...~!
hahaha... it feels like an eternity since the last holiday...
anyway, i kicked off holidays yesterday with a dotA package:) wif the guys, pasar malam wif the girls, and mamak with mei... heh, cool~!!

friendster

lately i've been sort of "copy-paste-posting"... so i wasn't thinking on doing another "copy-paste" post, but i couldn't help it... this is, hilarious :>:>.. albeit slightly umm.. hurtful maybe... but wat the heck... it's hilarious :)=)

Written By: Mr Brian -
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=2730629
Date: Sunday, July 03, 2005 1:04:00 AM
Subject: BEST. BULLETIN. EVER. MUST READ!
Message: Okay.
I'm sick of this.

Friendster has been chewed up and spit out like
bad bacon by Malaysians. Why? The bad use of
English, the act of retardedism and most
importantly, the disgusting and unfathomable
pictures of you guys acting cute.

Puffing up your cheeks DOES NOT make you look
cute. It just emphasises on how you're trying to
hold back a burp. You look like a pufferfish. A
moronic pufferfish.

Taking a shot from the top is alright, but do not
ever open your eyes super wide and act cute.
Never. It freaks people out, gives hentai lovers a
description of how you're begging to get your face
sprayed all over with cum. Oh yeah, you look like
a dog too. My dog. So bark?

DO NOT EVER PUT THIS IN YOUR CAPTIONS
NOR
YOUR PROFILE ! : aIyaA,pEoPle sAY i CutE aNd
PrEtTy bUt i dUn thInkS sO liAu,wHat dO u
tHink ??

DO NOT EVER DO HAND GESTURES. It just
symbolises
on your stupidity and how you are trying so hard
to speak 'Retard' in sign language.especially the
peace sign. it's so friggin annoying. with the puffy
cheeks,big eyes and peace sign. ugh,lalaness !

euu; miie; blahblahblahinserthereenlongatedword.
They are creative, so to speak, but when you write
compositions, you don't spell them like that, do
you? I'd rather you take the time to spell every
word correctly and leave a good impression on
foreigners, than leave your dimwit-slime all over.

Get your grammar and vocabulary right. "Love
hurts", not "Love hurt".

I merely want you all to change for the better of
not only the country, but for your own sake too.
But hey, read on.

Whoever doesn't sign admits the fact that he/she
has condemned himself or herself to my list of
so-to-speak dumbpricks and/or crackheads.
Inducing
on that fact, you are also welcome to my full list
of insults, garbage and junk.If I have offended
any of you, you are a loser as you are easily
agitated by just an internet mail.

dEn sOmE pE0p|e lIk3 t0 tYpE liKe ThAt i dUnN0
wHy..SeE liA0 eY3s aLs0 p4iN mAn

I'd also like to give this bulletin a finishing
touch. All that copying and pasting forwarded
testimonials, are lame. Please. Dumb. Disgusting.
Totally. Write your own testimonial or don't send
one at all! Oh, I forgot to mention. Testimonials
are statements or character and conduct
presented
to others as a mark of esteem. Not places for you
to type teddy bears and pictures. moron.

lol...
on the other hand... i do think this guy is a jerk..but that doesn't make this any less hilarious :P

paradox of our times

We have taller buildings, but shorter tempers;
Wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints;
We spend more, but have little;
We buy more and enjoy it less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families;
More conveniences, but less time;
We have more degrees, but less common sense;
More knowledge, but less judgement;
More experts, but more problems;
More medicine, but less wellness.
We spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
Drive too fast, get too angry too quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too seldom, watch TV too much and do not pray often.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.
We talk too much, love too seldom and lie to often.
We have learned how to make a living, but not a life;
We have added years to life, not life to years.
We have been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbour.
We have conquered out space, but not inner space;
We have done larger things, but not better things;
We have cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul;
We have split the atom, but not out prejudice;
We write more, but learn less.
We have learned to rush, but not to wait;
We have higher incomes; but lower morals;
More food but less appeasement;
More acquaintances, but fewer friends;
More effort but less success.
We build better computers to hold more information, produce more copies than ever, yet have less communication;
We have become long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are the times of fast foods and upset stomachs;
More kinds of food, but less nutrition.
These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare;
More leisure and less fun;
These are the days of two incomes, but more divorce;
Of fancier houses, but broken homes;
Tall men and short character;
Steep profits, and shallow relationships.
These are the days of quick trips, throwaway morality, 1-night stands,
and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
It is a time when there is much in the show window, and nothing in the show window.

hmm... you may have recieved this at one time or another thru the mail or anywhere else... its long... but i think its worth thinking about... and probably doing something about too...
what is our life full of? nyeh... some of the stuff applies to me too... so i'm going to try to change the stuff that i italic'd in my life... yay... :)

studying

heh... it's 1 am n i'm up studying... feeling surprisingly awake for some reason...
hmm... was reading thomas' blog...don't reli know how i'm gonna handle sem 3 EOS when it comes... seems like a whole lot of stuff... well, no use worrying before it's time... i'll handle it when it get's here... but why oh why does it have to happen during CHRISTMAS of all times... hmph...

Welcome to my life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like

To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like

To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like, what it's like
[x2]

Welcome to my life [x3]

was listening to this the other day...
i think its really quite sad but true.. ppl all around us are hurting and hurting each other... and all we do is ignore and continue on with our own lives because we don't know what it's like...
and then i think that if this song were sung to christians it would be quite true... cos' most of us have NEVER had it tough, and if we have we try not to show it in church, so church becomes a place not for ppl to be given a chance, to be "saved", but just another place to try to be better...
heh, who am i to talk... i'm not much better... but i can't help but notice... that when life sux, the first ppl i go to aren't christians... but my other "normal" frens who would understand wat i'm going thru without telling me how i should be behaving or doing stuff...