good friday

heh... it's good friday tomoro... i've actually nth much to post, cos' tomoro's endo and i've been studying... sort of... between hours of o2jamming.... problem is that endo is just sooooooo light... and i hardly feel any urge to study...
i really really hope the paper doesn't kill me...
but yeah, anyway... it's good friday.. :P heh... i probably would post more if good friday was next week but heh... btw o2 jam and studying... i'm pretty much not thinking about anything else...
hmm... that's bad...
it's reduced good friday to just a bare mention on my blog...

good day

heh... in a very good mood today...
last nite took the girls out to mamak... and before that had 2 cool games...
AND i got no class until 4-6... then nth again... haha... nice... it'll be cool if everyday was like this... but then, i would then take it for granted:P...

fear

you know how you just freak out when you're around some ppl...
i seem to have this weird fear of my tutor.. Dr. Achike... he's ok-lah... a bit on the strict and fierce side, but for some reason... i just stress out everytime i meet him... whether its taking results or during clinical hours...
heh... today i had him for clinical skills.. and it was history taking... aih... yeah, i guess i majorly screwed up in front of him and got nailed... but then again, it was half cos' i didn't prepare and half cos' of just that sheer stress of meeting him... i seem to just can't think around him...
haih... sux... dono how i'll tahan in seremban around worse dr.s

post 101

hmm...
i'm supposed be studying... but its hard... cos' i'm sleepy after coming back from yi bing's surprise birthday party... heheh, birthday parties are cool :P... but having to study after that really kinda pulls you back down.. aih.. and its midnite alredi... faster faster...
aih... and i've since yesterday just started reading a new manga- Blade of the Immortal... the art is super cool cause it's super detailed... even the "cartoon" frames are as detailed as the "serious" ones... it rox... only problem is download speeds are slow... even though i'm grabbing from IRC...
sleepy... and i still got football match at 230 later... and have to wake up early to take my classmate chinpei to bank... =_=... hmm... the next 24hrs are gonna be quite long...
i wonder if i should stay up for football...

good friday

come and see, come and see, come and see
the king of love
see the purple robe and crown of thorns he wears
soldiers mock, rulers sneer as he lifts the cruel cross
lonely and friendless now he climbs towards the hill

we worship at your feet, where wrath and mercy meet
and a guilty world is washed with love's great stream.

for us he was made sin, help me to take it in
deep wounds of love cry out, father forgive
we worship the lamb who was slain

come and weep, come and mourn
for your sin that pierced him there
so much deeper then the wounds of thorn and nail
all our pride, all our greed, all our foulness and shame
and the Lord has laid our punishment on Him
we worship at your throne where wrath and mercy meet.

easter and good friday is coming up :) and this poem kinda reminds me how come we can call a day where we commemorate some innocent dude's murder and yet call that day good.

ball

hmm... i'm kinda decided against going for ball alredi, not just cos' of the cost... but i'm kinda wondering... why ppl go for ball at all...
the cons-
95 bucks!!!
more time and money to get clothes and try to look good...
transport for the day itself...
when you're actually at the ball there's nth much to do except... eat? take pictures?

the pros-
this is my last ball.. uhh, what makes you think i want to go for ANY balls for that matter?
look good? haha... i alredi look good :P
umm... make frens?? haha... that's a joke...
hehe, seriously... wat are the pros of going for ball? oh things maybe would be different if i had a girlfren... but then again, maybe not...

the point is... in a Malaysian context, why do we go for balls, other than to imitate our western counterparts? after all, if you wanna get together with frens, take pictures... stuff like that... just... have dinner together or something like that... go mamak... i dunno, isn't that why they have balls in the west... cos' they don't have mamak...
hehe, if you wanna have dinner and look good then just dress up and go some high class restaurant... aih, come on... i alredi HAVE to dress up everytime i go IMU, so why should i take ONE more night out to uhh... dress up?

bad day

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

heh... can't remember if i've posted this song b4.. it isn't really that meaningful(probably cos' i don't know what most of the lines mean)... but it's a nice song to listen to when you're down..

(: this song is dedicated to anyone who's had a bad day.. having a bad day... or just now that they're gonna hav a bad day... :P oh, and also especially to that girl who's had a reli BAD day and is kinda down now... cheer up k? :P

back to school

heh... today was the first day after 2 months of break...
haiz... i'd forgotten how bad IMU lecturer's accents are... today Nilesh was... BAD!!
between the hypophyseal-hypothalamal tract and who knows what, i was torn between sleeping on the first day of the semester, of the year and... umm... paying attention?... well, i tried... but i'm not sure if half of wat went into my head is correct...
anyways... there's lots to look forward to this semester and some dilemma's to resolve as well... like wat does IMU Ball hold for me, that i would part with 100bucks for a nite of... umm... fun? frenship? heh... give me an dotA package and mamak after that anyday...
anyway... slowly slowly lah.. it's only the first day of school anyway...
but yeah... it's back to studies... oh well...

beh tahan

eh... cannot tahan lah... life without phone... it's worse than life without food... ahhhh....
i thought i had a "temporary" phone, when leena offered me wengteik's phone... then... ahhh.... yesterday i discovered i lost my simcard.... ahhhh.... so now need to wait till monday to see if get to keep old no. or have to get a new one...
ahhh.... beh tahan...

i now understand that the most effective fast for young people isn't to fast food(as in, don't eat food)... but to "fast handphone"... i tell you... if the "fast" deal is to pray everytime you think of handphone when you're "fasting" from handphone...
wah... even if one day fast handphone will surely pray like... more than 24 times in one day...
whereas if you "fast" food... then will only think when hungry... which is like... 3,4,5 times a day?
so the most effective fast for youth is HANDPHONE fast!! hah... and u "suffer" more... which makes the prayer more earnest.... and so only those "serious" ppl who really want wat they pray for to happen will DARE to take the HANDPHONE FAST!!

wahhh... beh tahan... i'm now on like a "forced HANDPHONE FAST!!"... tak jadi-lar... suffering...

wat's important

school starts next week... i have 107 bucks and a couple of cents in my wallet...
i have no phone, so the only way ppl can contact me now is by house phone and email...
it's weird... but it's a good thing actually...
it helps to sort out wat's important enuff for me to spend money on, and wat i can actually skimp on...
having no phone also helped me realize how "attached" i am to my phone... cos' my phone is about the first thing i see in the morning... the last thing i see b4 i sleep... and 1 of the 3 things i carry with me everywhere (+wallet n keys)... heh... rupanye i CAN get thru life without phone...
heh... n i've also realized that really i don't own ANYTHING at all... and that offering isn't about how much WE GIVE TO GOD.. but that EVERYTHING we own belongs to GOD, so we're actually just RETURNING wat we've has been "borrowed" to us... uhh... or is it "lent"... :P

hmm.... no phone is actually quite tough though...

i'm back... again...

woah... i'm soo tired.... this has been a killer weekend...
i dun think i've ever been so tired... i dun think i can tahan camps anymore...
especially like when i feel like my energy level is less than negative after the camp...
...
but yeah... camp was good... i feel we made good ties wif some kids... so hopefully that goes somewhere :)
still, i'm back... and i've got about a week b4 school starts :)... hehe... weird, huh... looking forward to school? well, i think you would too after about 2 months like that of doing nth...
but... alamak... that means starting studying again...heh, and i think that this is the only real serious break i'm gonna get until who knows when... lol... hope its soon ;)

i'm a diver:)

heh... i'm back... and i'm not the same anymore...
i'm now a QUALIFIED OPEN WATER PADI(Professional Assoc. of Divin Instructors) DIVER...
haha... yay... kinda over spent in sabah, but i feel it was worth every cent of it...
so what difference does being a diver make in my life?
hmm... haha, for all the money i've paid- actually nth much...cos' there's nth to dive in, in KL...
but.. it's cool to be a diver... for one thing.. i've got this cool card :P... but really, it's nice to know you get to see stuff normal ppl don't get to see... and get to do stuff normal ppl don't get to do...

besides that i've got this light headed feeling for a couple of days alredi... think it's probably cos' of my body getting used to the nitrogen...
oh well... now that i'm back... i'll get to rest...
b4 going off for gospel camp... which is in 3 days time... hmm... have lots to cover in that time...

haha.. and yeah, the previous post was a copy n paste wan from a comment i posted in juliang's blog...

water

i realized that ppl are like rivers of water... just like water takes the path of least resistance, so also we prefer living life in the way of least problems and "resistance"... so we go thru life trying to "invoke" as little problems as possible, think about bad stuff as little as possible... but then i realized that as christians we shouldn't avoid problems bcos' it's only thru trials and problems that we grow... and if we're not growing you're falling backwards...
heh, i realized this cos' there're 3 frens whom i see "falling backwards" cos' they're choosing the "easy" way out... hmm... pray hard for those who're falling out of our faith bcos' they don't wanna take the harder way...

no more money

well... it was fun while it lasted... the thought of getting money for nothing...
but well... seems like the site died... now when i try to access my account at gpromote.com, i get directed to some other site... well, it was fun while it lasted.... too bad...
haha... thanks to all those who went and clicked my link to contribute that 0.5 cents per click :P... haha, not that i have it anymore... but it's the thought that counts...
so i now know who i can depend on to click to save my life :P...

new skin

hey... this is actually a blogspot template skin... but i think it looks kinda nice anyway, although i seriously think it makes this blog look "standard"... on the other hand... actually this is a pretty "standard" blog... so... haha, let's join the "standard" blog club...
well... enjoy the standard look... it'll probably be around for a couple of days, unless i forget to change it b4 i go off diving on wednesday... which would mean it would stick for a week or more...

oh ya... that means no chat box... hmm... shud i twiddle wif the template to insert it... feels abit mafan-lah...

re: sunday school songs

heh... ashley posted an reply to the previous post which i thought would be interesting to reply here instead of the small little box for normal replies...

Ashley:
i get the feel of 'coolness' singing this song while being sent to prison...but...prison??? sailling home?? PRISON??

zhiyong:
haha... my sunday school student... this is where the coolness just begins... if you're in prison and singing this song, you're no longer sailing home to a home on earth, but a Heavenly home :)

yay!! sunday school songs rox :P

sunday school songs

haha... i suddenly feel like singing sunday school songs...
sunday school songs are fun~! and if you actually read the words, they're quite meaningful...
but for now... sunday school songs are fun~! :P

With Christ in the vessel
we can smile at the storm
Smile at the storm
Smile at the storm

With Christ in the vessel
we can smile at the storm
As we go sailing home...homehomehome

Say-sailingsailing-ling, say-sailingsailing-ling home
Say-sailingsailing-ling, say-sailingsailing-ling home
With Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm
AS WE GO SAILING HOME~!

haha...fun, but meaningful too... with christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm as we go sailing HOME :) this would be a cool song to sing if you like get sent to prison or something :P

inspirational stuff

lately i've read and heard quite some inspirational and thought provoking stuff lately...
juliang's blog makes you think again of God's reality in everyday life, siewlian's new blog has this piece on Jesus' crucifixion, yesterday my dad read out isaiah 1 which is about how Israel keeps on hurting herself by rejecting God... its good to read and think about God outside of quiet time... reminds me of where i actually stand wif God not just on a daily basis, but on an hourly or minute-ly basis...

i've realized that during holidays, it's actually harder for me to focus on God cos' i'm so busy trying to find stuff to do to occupy myself, trying to find pleasure for my ownself...
whereas during exams strangely because i'm so busy, that i have to find time for God, that i find myself actually closer to God, because i'm trying to find pleasure for God...

it's actually a bit frightening that i take God's presence for granted so easily... i wonder sometimes what he thinks of me... losing sight of the path not because the going get's tough, but because the going got easy... heh, so maybe satan's greatest weapon isn't to force me off the path to heaven, but to lure me away...

gpromote

heh... okay, let me mention first off that i'm not an advocator of internet spam or internet cash making sites... in fact, i detest them... it just happens that i'm free, and jenern introduced me to this site which supposedly let's you make money just by clicking on them sites... well, i don't know how true it is... but well.... it's free and i'm free, so with time to spare i thought why not...
so well, to share the fun...and the cash:P, click here... and join... so that YOU... can help ME... make some money out of thin air...
with my fingers crossed i promise to share "some" of the money (if it does materialize) with you, with you DO click... come-lah... click and join... then you will be known as my downline :) and anyway... the ppl who read this blog are pretty free ppl rite? haha....

back....

i'm back....after a whole week away....
haha... travelling round crashing in on ppl's houses all over rox man...
in muar stayed over in jenern's house(managed to play 1 dotA game online:P)
in seremban stayed in callista's house... woah, her house is like.. major big... as big as stephen's house... it's like... big enuff to have a pond in the house... then got like 3 or 4 guest rooms, maid get one room, each family member got one room... and the rooms are so big they make the beds look small.. and those are queen and king size beds...

i'm fat now i tell u... i've never eaten so much over such a long period...
my pants can barely fit me... i'm so going to cut down on food...