happy birthday

a bit late... but nonetheless...
yesterday was birthday for me (=
well... i'm not one for birthday celebrations... so i don't have any expectations...
but the two celebrations, one was the "surprise" at midnite 26th... the other dinner on 26th.. were cool (=... quite a lot of ppl turned up which was nice...
so to cut the long story short... here's a short list of tqs...
thanks to everyone who msgd (= although i may not hav all your numbers, but now i do...
thanks to everyone who turned up for either and both celebrations :)
thanks to all those overseas ppl who msgd, taggd or thru various methods let me know that they remembered... it felt great to have an "international" celebrating my birthday... :)
thanks to... mei who called :)
thanks to... feng ko who blogged :)
thanks to... mummy who msgd 1 WHOLE day earlier claiming eagerness.. (i think she forgot)
thanks to... the christina,ss,chinpei,kkwan who hosted the first "surprise"...
thanks to... yeangwee who put a lot of effort into the CAKE!!! (i know he enjoyed himself more there) check out http://www.fengyblogstoo.blogspot.com/ for pics of the cake...
thanks to... everyone who wished me in school... i still get a great kick out of being wished happy birthday even though its belated (ann was quite funny... she wished me once on 26th, again on 27th morning.. and 20 minutes later again... lol)
last but not least... thanks to... God (= who made the whole day special...

Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
Psalm 139:14

hariputer

WARNING: HARRY POTTER SPOILERS AHEAD (but then again.. if u can read this, u've probably alredi read the spoiler below...lol)

Harry Potter's is actually Lord Voldemort's Son...
Here's the final action scene as copied from the book

voldemort struck harry's wand away from his hand with the Hand Decapitus Spell...
harry: " wo de chiu arrrrrrrrrr!!!"
voldemort: " lu ah beh bui si..."
harry: " wah ah beh sii liao!!"
voldemort: "harry.... wah si lu a beh..."
harry: NOOOOOooooooooo........

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-tbJ4HavnKE
i even have a video to go along with it...hahaha



what?! don't tell me you actually believed that happened in harry potter...lol

fengy

today is Feng Ko's birthday :)
yes...
i don't hav any pics of his recent b'day celeb cos' i don't hav a camera...
so a short summary of who feng ko is and what he's done should be in order...

Feng Ko is my housemate... in fact... he's my toilet-mate.. haha, we share the same toilet... cos' his room is next door...
we both have very loud speakers which we sometimes use to abuse our other housemate (hl) who has no speakers....
Feng Ko has recently picked up dotA... he hasn't started going to cybercafes yet (hopefully not :P) but he spends a reasonable amount of time at home playing it anyway...after having trained him, he plays reasonably well against AI and actually should start playing against humans more if he wants to excel now... but that's not important... lol...
his other achievements include being on the Dean's List from Phase I...
He's the resident studies pro in the house, so on matters involving studies i consult him regularly since i'm not so pro...
He's very popular with girls...lol... quite lah... undoubtedly due to his charming personality and dashing good looks, killer abs, pearl white skin and smooth as silk skin, and various other complimentary adjectives... haha... anyway...
for more info, check out his blog at http://fengyblogstoo.blogspot.com/

and while going thru the b'day pics checkout which girl feng ko currently has eyes for :P...
but bear in mind he's still single n available anyway...

tikitikitikitikitikitiktiktiki

heh.. learn a hokkien word a day...
TI KI... means stubborn in hokkien...
yeah...
how did i learn it?
well... my batch has a medical students yahoo group...
and recently there was a super hebat discussion that kinda went a bit out of control...
and it was about a minor point on whether to asucultate(hear) of palpate(feel) first...
anyway...
you know you're in a medical student's group when the discussion that draws the most posts is the one about MEDICINE rather than all the other "NORMAL" posts all put together....
and you know you're not really passionate about the "finer" points of medicine when all that i took away from that lengthy discussion was...

TI KI...
tikitikitikitikitikitikitikitiktiki
haha.. sounds really cute... like some animal...

tire-ing

heh... fam med can also be tiring!!!
the past few days... ok-la... 2 only... have been quite tiring...
today one of my groupmates looked at my eyes and mentioned that i have PANDA eyes~!!
haha... is that an achievement?

yesterday i went to help out at the music nite rehearsal (i got conned into it).. didn't really want to go... but while i was driving on the way there, it struck me that though i may not WANT to be there... wat i WANT is to keep my promise to help out... so the desire to honour my word is the motivation the be there, even though i don't have the basic desire to BE there at all...

anyway... fam med still being fam med... i AM quite free still... in spite of suddenly having a lot of things popping up...
such as CFCS, research, IMS... yeah, a bit of stuff... think i shud start reading a bit also...
but still... i'm free-er... so still "buzz-able"...

in this period of freeness... i've started asking myself questions regarding christianity... i think i'm rediscovering my religion... but i'm going thru a bit of a dry period spiritually...

getting tough to choose

i COOK (=

hehe... i cooked my first meal at home today!!!
i feel so pro today...
although a series of unfortunate events led to this weird occurence, it happened none the less...
i went to jiajia (local supermarket) and bought
1 packet of maggi mee containing 5 servings - RM 2.50
1 packet of Japanese Sawi (or sth like that, can't remember wat its called exactly)- RM 1.41
1 packet of Chicken Sausage- RM 1.99
Grand Total - RM 6.00

ooooo.... that's 6 bucks for about 3 meals or more...(can't expect to make 5 cos' the Maggi mee is really really small, so i put 2 into the pot...

sooo... the basic recipe was reli simple, dump everything into the pot in this order- boil water, maggi mee, soup powder, sausage, sawi.... stir and act as if you're really cooking something... and jeng jeng... you have... FOOD!!!
if you'd like to know... the japanese sawi, i bought 3 stalks... in today's meal i used 3 leafs from 1 stalk which has about 6-7 leaves...
the chicken sausage i used 2 out of about 10 sausages i think...
wahaha... so total cost of entire meal... INCLUDING water (couple of cents considering my water bill for a MONTH is 5 bucks), driving (one week 30 bucks, but this is only to jiajia, so at the most 50 cents? or a buck?), electricity? (i no gas, so can only use electric steamboat machine, one month about 60 odd bucks, but use for such a short while only... probably about 20 cents at the most) errr... labor costs? (i do myself :)
making this meal a grand total of less than 3 bucks...

i'm still full :)... if not i still got apple... and various junk foods....
i'm thinking of doing this 3 times a week... just enough to not be anti social yet save money :)
woohoo... talk about cheap...

gotta push

heh... this is posting is turning into 10 weeks of laziness...
gotta get up and do some studying or i'll really have an empty brain going into sem7...
hmm...
on the other hand... it IS a welcome break of sorts...

court

heh... quite a few people have been asking about this so i'll make a short entry.. it's quite embarassing actually...

last month,
my road tax expired on the 1st of May... i went to watch spiderman3 on the 1st of May at 10pm... but we couldn't find our way into Terminal One where the cinema is (seremban being a small town has no idea what the word accessible means)... so we wandered around outside until we were late for the movie and had to watch the 12am one... to cut the long story short...
i ended up driving us home at about 2am 2nd of May...
Murphy's Law states that: things will go wrong in any given situation... how sienly true...
i got stopped at a road block just outside the road turning into my house (less than 100m)... 2 hours after my road tax expired... (realizing that i'd forgot to renew it didn't really help things)

so yeah... that's why i got a court order to go to court on the 21/6
i won't humor you all with what happened on the day i went to court... that's even more embarassing... o_O

court

hhmmm.... going court tmr..
sien...this is disrupting my holiday...
heh, unless i get sent to jail...
that'lll REALLY disrupt holidays...

home (=

yay!! it's a joyous occasion...
i'm home :)
you don't realize how much you miss home till you're away from it...
home cooked food is still the best :)
clean floors and clothes that you didn't have to clean yourself are the best :)
SOFAS TO SLEEP ON are the BEST!!!!!
yes!! home... i'm lovin it...

on other matters...
i found out on dr. jimbo's blog that a rather famous patient had passed away...
i'm rather... disturbed, cos' i knew him also... not personally though... but still...
if you're wondering... this is the acro guy with multiple pathology due to the acro...
hmm... not really depressed cos' i didn't really know him... but well... wonder how things'll be when i start getting to know patients better... feels scary... +_+

but still... i'm home :)

done

after a hectic 3 days...
i'm done...
and now i'm on holiday...
its been a long wait...

i'm coming home...

zzzzz

sienzzz....
internal med clinical exam next wed...
MCQs for surgery AND internal med next thursday...
zzzz.... i am gg'd...
they should have distributed the groups so that the SMART ppl do the 2 REAL postings together and let the lesser NORMAL ppl do the PSEUDO-fam-med-posting with 1 of the real postings...
hmm....
aaaaannnnd... next week also got report to pass up BEFORE the one week break...
=_=

but i shouldn't complain... heh, i don't feel as if i'm going it alone anymore...
i've got Someone watching over me and Friends in high places... (=

good day

heh... it's been quite a while since i had a good day like this... ^^
what was good?
i went to church :)... that was good... reli good... no.. it wasn't just because worship rocked, or msg was meaningful... it was, i guess... i went looking for God... and i guess God reveals himself to those who ackowledge their weakness and... i guess the word that fits would be wickedness.. yeah, kinda hard to take... that we're all wicked... but i think unless we get the idea that we ARE wicked.. then only we appreciate the grace God has to offer us (=
heh... visited eeyin who was down with fever.. that was nice... heh, reli wish that the idea of a CG had gone thru somehow...
then... went back home and slept... yeah... that was nice... and it rained :)
rain at home is thrice better than in seremban cos' there're TREES at home... unlike seremban which is desert-like...
driving home was fun too cos' it was raining like siao, haha... scary but... fun lah (=

oh yah, the day ended with owning AI+... yeah, that was a nice topper...
all together... a good day... looking forward to a great week ahead with God, the same way today started :)

waiting on the world

Waiting On the World to Change by John Mayer

Me and all my friends
We're all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing
There's no way we ever could
Now we see everything is going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don't have the means
To rise above and beat it

So we keep waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
Its hard to be persistant
When we're standing at a distance
So we keep waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change

Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would've never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on the door
When you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cuz when when the only information ooohhh,
They can bend it all they want

So while we're waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
It's not that we don't care
We just know that the party's there
So we keep waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change

We're still waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
One day our generation
Is gonna rule the population

So we keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
Know we keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change.

its been a while since i've posted songs... this song's been playing recently i think... quite... nice...

yeah... nice :)

its convocation

yay!! it's convocation :)
that ceremony that finally indicates that you're graduating...
that you've stepped out of the shoes of a student and finally become...
a working adult...

guess i won't be going...
cos' this is a pseudo-graduation...
i'm still studying.. =_=

someone died

so there i was in the ward today... just now actually... and suddenly my fren noticed the doctor doing CPR in the cubicle in front of us and asked why not i go help out... cos' this actually wasn't the first time we helped out to do CPR... only thing was the previous time there was a specialist there, and there were no family members... and the guy was alredi confirmed dead when the dr asked us if we wanted to try out...
so well... since i'd done it b4 i went there and offered to help... anyway to cut the long story short... the guy died...
and this time a couple of minutes later the family arrived... i was ok with the guy dying... until the dr broke the news to the son and he burst into tears... and then it hit me... this guy just died... then all sorts of thoughts flooded my mind...
what struck me was that in spite of the family members being so emotional, we as the medical students and drs had to keep a straight face and the most we could do was say, "I'm sorry..."
as i drove to dinner i was complaining about many things... but the thing that struck me was... why can't we be sad? shouldn't we? aren't drs humans too?

well... not all of us are drs... but at the same time.. as christians... aren't we the spiritual drs of this world... do we feel sad whenever someone.. "spiritually dies"... or do we have any compassion or are we trying desperately to save the ppl around us?... as desperately as a medical student doing CPR thinking he can save the guy he's pumping...

have we become calloused and hard hearted.... forcing ourselves to "not be affected" by the sufferings of the people around us... or perhaps it is because we don't know what is "life" therefore we don't know when some one is "dead" or "dying"...

heh... come to think of it... i don't even know the guy's name... only know he's in for ESRF...

really tired today...

happy mum's day

happy mother's day mummy :)

laif

life is good i guess...
i was going thru my frens blogs...
medical students from all over... australia, seremban, uk(not yet go but still squatting in kl)...
non medical students...
i guess life goes on... this week was kinda first week in internal med...
its been quite up and down i guess...
but i think i realize that no matter how busy you think you are... life still goes on...
its a choice i guess.. to rush through life as a medical student rushing for research, case reports, studies, case presentations... but i don't think it has to be like that...
it just takes 5 minutes to pull out of the rush of the hour to look and feel for a patient... or to just stop and stare and the rain out of the window... to feel wind on your face... to just listen to the silence...
and suddenly everything falls back into perspective again...
life is good i guess...

stress

wah... stress...
i just realized that its been ages since i've really been studying...
surgery somehow didn't really have to stretch so long hours... still had to study then... but it seemed accomplishable...
internal med seems...
neverending...

sien like mad... this whole week... wait, no... it's only been 2 days... aaaahhh... these 2 days have been like neverending...

think i'll sleep early today...

tiga ratus

its been quite a while since my last post i realized...
heh.. maybe bcos' nth much to post abt since internal med started...
its so sien...
everyday just go ward, then tbl... sometimes got Case Presentation, but that's also with dr in ward...
if you're especially unlucky that week then u get to go PD which is even more boring... hmm..
internal med is like one big ward posting... hmmm...
surgery was so much more interesting...
anyway...
watched 300 last nite...
also sien...
hahaha... maybe i just don't appreciate the GLORY!! and SPAAARTAAAAA!! and TONIGHT WE DINE IN HELL!!!!
zzzz...
in the end a line by the narrator some where towards the end appropriately summed it up...
King Leonide's roar was LOUD and LOOOOONG... and yeah, that was abt it...
the whole movie was just like an excuse for 300 men to bash 1million noobs...
somehow i just didn't get what they're fighting for...

Memorable Moments in Seremban (MMS)

the past few hours have been hilarious...
it all began when a mosquito bit a human...
the human contracted dengue...anyways...
fast forward to today... the foggers came...
and they wanted in... and they wouldn't take no for an answer...
so the girls locked their door and didn't let them in... we being the friendly neighborhood doctors who save people from fire on a regular basis, opened our doors and welcomed them in(we were obviously the only idiots who did so, everyone else locked their doors like it was darurat)
fast forward 10 minutes later... we have 7 guys from 2 houses squatting outside their houses waiting for the smoke to subside... idiots... hahaha, including me lah...
who upon entering the house found it to be STINKING of fog... and the floor OILY from some herbicide/pesticide/humancide... so what i had originally planned to be a night to finish my case summaries ended up being a nite to clean the house... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.....

anyway, the fun had just begun.... so we had to sweep the floor b4 mopping it...
now...
our house has a LEGENDARY RELIC, from ANCIENT times...
reknown among housekeepers...a mystical object only heard of and never seen... our house has not 1... but TWO... BROOMS OF NEVER-ENDING DUST....
now before you wonder what this wondrous contraption does, let me enlighten you...
IT PRODUCES DUST AS IT SWEEPS... now who could ever ask for a more wondrous tool... i mean... what else do you need in the world but a broom that makes more dust as it goes along...
so anyway... you need a little background knowledge...
ah teik recently just moved in and doesn't know about the broom...
and so.. he was sweeping....
and sweeping...

and sweeping...



and sweeping....







and sweeping....

we almost finished sweeping and mopping the whole house when we discovered him toiling to cleanse his room from the cursed dust...
hahahahaha... well, at least he finally realized the folly of his actions....

fire

today there was a fire... -_-, it happened while i was sleeping...
actually... yeah... i WAS sleeping at least... and then hl woke me up and we had to go save the day... haha... not quite... but yeah, the house opposite had a KEBAKARAN... not just a little bonfire, but a FIRE...
no the house didin't burn down... the living room was up in flames, and that was about it... and yes we did go to try save the day
but...
what should you do first when a neigbour's house is on fire?
A. run out of the house and shout FIRE FIRE FIRE!!!
B. call the bomba
C. save the victim
D. put out the fire



haha... the answer is... A!!
hehe..if you answered B, you're too straight... in real life... by waking up the neighbours... you can accomplish all of the above at the same time...
where as if you tried calling the bomba... you'd probably get frustrated at their "tidak apa" attitude and go back to sleep and then the house would burn down...
oh and yeah... save the victim is more important than put out fire... haha.. sounds obvious, but when you got fire in front of your face u'll probably think of being the hero and putting out the fire while the victims suffocate to death in the upstairs room...
but yeah... today was exciting... waking up at 6 to save the world... hmm... being a doctor is tough... lolz

crazy

haha... we're all going crazy... i think it's bcos' all surgeons are going crazy...
today we discovered that one of the patients whom we were all crowding round had active TB... lolz... so then some of us starting running around like chickens without their heads asking wat to do... hahaha...
and today on the way back kugan claimed that aishwariya rai msgs him... hahaha... i think it's only a matter of time before we turn into real doctors...

yeah... tuanku jafaar rocks... haha...
weng teik's now living downstairs... yeah... for a month only lah... and he's not at home most of the time... hahaha... does he think he's staying in a hotel?

haha...i think that's how my mum feels when i treat my house like a hotel...

going home

after almost a month... i'm going home...
heh... i suppose i'm kinda wierd in a way...
other ppl staying further away... muar, ipoh, johor... all leave seremban when the weekend comes...
but me n feng ko whom both are from kl are happy just staying in dead old seremban...
hmm... i was thinking maybe we enjoy the freedom more then we miss the family... heh..
bad huh? anyway... feng ko went back last week... this week's my turn :P... so well... i'll be around this weekend...
think it'll be different somehow...

on other matters...
i handled a testis today... dissected from the body bcos' it had a tumor...
cool huh? it feels... smooth... surgery is fun:)... wouldn't mind doing surgery...
it sure looks like fun after 3 weeks... all the other doctors look like life's hell... but surgeons seem to be having all the fun :)

free

yay!! Dato' Kandar's not free tom morning... which means i have tomoro morning off...
haha... that makes it 2 fridays in a row since we began...
i think we're taking surgery a bit too lax... still haven't really started studying... i mean... yeah, got read up stuff... but... ward rounds now are easy now that u know that u just have to clerk pts... OT, Endo n SOPD is just being there... i mean... umm... ok-lah... maybe it's just me... but there's not much "work" to do actually... or maybe there is and i don't know about it yet... haha...
on the other hand there's a couple of long term projects i've yet to get down to doing...
haiz... have to look out for some chronically sick dude to become my CFCS patient, meet up with Research Tutor to discuss a research topic... finish at least 1 case report and 1 case summary(personal target) by this or next week... got lah work to do.. but... hmm... don't think i'm as stressed out as other ppl... like those in internal med... think it's just a matter of getting used to it hopefully...

but yay!! free for a 3 day weekend... kinda only lah... still have to be in school tomoro a bit... but that's nothing stressful :)

surgery

heh... since i have internet i guess i don't really have an excuse to not post regularly anymore...
haha... right... of course... i can always lay claim to being tired right?
hmm... just got back from on call at A&E and surgery ward... today was better than the previous day i guess...
getting to know some of the hospital staff... talked with some seniors and a surgeon... heh, generally starting to do/learn stuff... instead of walking abt the wards like noobs during nursing week... heh... but yeah.. it's tiring...
it's been a while since i've been feeling tired... so, heh.. i guess that'll take some getting used to...
waking up to go to the hospital by 730(or try to)... come back by 4-5pm or 8-9pm if on call...
well... just takes some getting used to i guess...

here again

yeah...
i'm back... and still alive...
haha... dun know for how long...
but for now... INTERNET is finally on... it took a while... but finally we're connected to the world...
yay!!! but then again... probably it'll be for a while only...
cos' semester really starts tomoro... so, heh... i'll only be free and online for 2 days... including today...haha... but still... it's something :)

beginnings and endings

tommorow... will be my last day in s/p...
it's the ending of the holidays....
and the beginning of the school term...
heheh... beginnings and endings... without one the other cannot be...
i'm looking forward to the beginning

spread the word

haha... spread the word for those of you who don't know...
the legendary m204 has a yahoo space... and it's yahoo! :P...and it's spacious
come join the fun and to keep in touch... its at...
m204 :)... come and be part of the family...

uhh... that is... if you are lah... if not... dun simply simply come and join...

CNY

haha...yeah, it's chinese new year...
that time of year when i get to refill my pockets without taking any money from my parents...
hmm... techinically i do take a bit... but eheh, don't count that lah...
but money asides...
hmm... money asides....
is there anything else?

Happy Year of the Pig/Boar(for the politically correct)/Khinzir(if you want to be nice to malays)/Babi(if not...)

va-what-tine?

today... is valentine's day.. the day of lurrrrv...

right..
most of my friends are mainly single... somehow... don't know why it's so... but yeah, most of my friends are single...
among single ppl i realized there's some kinda "peer/social pressure" in asian/malaysian cultures to act as if valentine's isn't important... i mean, yeah... i'm part of that group too... i don't think we're "acting" that valentine's isn't important to us, but after reading a couple of "anti-valentine's" posts i get the feeling that my group of ppl have this pressure to "not want to celebrate" valentine's...
hmm... maybe its some kinda defence mechanism to console ourselves when we're sitting at home on valentine's day playing maple story... or oblivion... or dota... while even our parents are out having dinner in some dark restaurant...

on the other hand... i think amongst couples there wud be some kinda social/peer/couple pressure to do something on valentine's day...

hmm... there's just no in between group i guess... like... single guys who celebrate valentine's day... but don't have girlfren... actually i'm thinking if can it'd be quite fun also...
fun but not that gud also... something like... the fun of having a girlfren without any of the problems of committment... hmm... best of both worlds?

PRO

haha... i feel pro now...
i solved my first router problem by myself... haha...
of course, cos' i pressed reset, so now everything's back to default and i'm suspecting the networks not secured... heh.. so still need kent's help to bring everything back to secure...
but yeah... i still feel pro today...

vista

i'm currently using windows vista...
critically acclaimed and supposedly next big thing from windows...
hmm... so when i bought my new comp, i thot it'd be a gud thing to get it first..
well, maybe not so... after thinking it over... i realized XP won't actually be phased out until for quite some time more...

and well.. the new vista, partly cos' its so new... has problems...
like compatibility issues wif AVG and other software...
well.. actually my main grouse is that some compatibility issue with the antivirus software causes it to run in background when a scheduled task occurs... this.. irritatingly makes everything slow down cos'... well, antivirus software running in the bg takes up lotsa processing power...
and cos' its in the background... i can't cancel it... making me having to wait it out... atleast for half an hour... well... yeah... and cos' its new... there's not much tech support available online... yet...
i feel like some beta tester that paid 300bucks to test it on his computer and upon discovering problems, suddenly discover that can't go back to previous versions...

oh yah... loading maple story also causes my version of vista (which is 100% ori) to lose some functions... so the past 2 times i installed it to play, i had to uninstall it and revalidate my vista which bcos' of the maple story somehow caused something to disappear and make it.. "non-original"... oh well... hopefully time will improve things...

oh, and by the way... anyone have any idea how to transfer emoticons from one comp to another? cos' my old emoticons are in my old comp... any one more tech savvy than me able to help?

i got tagged~!

ok... so i got tagged...

okok... let's see... what to do...

okay... the rules of the game, as blatantly curi-ed and put-ed here (ironically the phrase "curi and put" is also curi-ed and put-ed here without any concern of right infringements)

Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog.

ok...
so 6 weird things...

1. ok... i like to say... ok...
2. umm... i also like to say... umm...
3. i like "grinding"... umm... ok, this is a computer gaming term... mainly from online games... err.. it mainly means doing the same stupid thing (killing small evil animals) over and over again to gain lvls... so that you can do the same stupid thing again... go check out the link for wikipedia's definition...
4. err... which brings me to my next weird thing... i enjoy games.. umm..let me make this clearer- games which most ppl don't spend a lot of time on.. like Snake on a nokia h/p... or Dragonfable.. which i'm sure only kids 13-15 play...
yesterday i just started playing Maple Story also... which i discovered... is something small kids play only i think also..
5. i drive a WAX 1662 Mitsubishi Gallant... which is OLDER than me... which is something like the most recognizable car in s/p and IMU... the windows all don't work, except the driver's... you front passenger seat can't be opened from the inside.. which makes me look like a gentleman if a girl is sitting in fron :P... and its now covered in a layer of dust which makes it a bit hard to look out of the windscreen... haha... now THAT'S a car with personality... haha... everyone wants me to take this car to s'ban.. but too bad... i'm taking my mum's white iswara (a car without personality)
6. hmm...oh ya.. i like bottles... i would have taken a pic if i had a digi cam... but i have a collection of bottles in my room which very few ppl know of... maybe one day when i hav picture taking capabilities i can display to the world this weird passion of mine...

okok... now the last thing to do is...
find 6 ppl to continue this chain of time-wasting...

1. fengko (of course... wat.. you think i'd think of ANOTHER 6 ppl)
2. vickie (haha... cos' he tagged you too)
3. daniel (cos' i know you're too free in the office)
4. ashbee wong wencheng (cos'... you sometimes visit this site)
5. christina (cos' you just came back from taiwan and now got nothing to do also.. haha)
hmm.. i don't think i can tag myself... ooo... i know who...
6. debbiedear (bcos' we're all bored together ;)

yeah... i managed to waste 20 minutes doing this post... which i would have spent doing nth anyway.. so... maybe this is time well spent... kinda la...

yay... done

doh...

i discovered a couple of "duh!" things today (including after 12am)

last nite.. or rather this morning i was trying to get the router to work wif kent's help...
after many many tries checking wires, configuring settings... we finally found the problem...
i was still try to dial streamyx when actually the router had alredi done it for me...
when the revelation struck me it was like... "doh~~!!" and kent was saying like... "alamak you're alredi connected... just USE the internet!"
haha.. so that was "doh!" moment no.1...

"doh!" moment no.2 was actually just now... as i was logging in to blogger...
i have been using the new blogger account for quite some time... and i knew i had to log in with my gmail account... in the beginning... or rather until just now only.. i had thought it was quite dumb... cos' then i'd have to log in twice... once into blogger, then the next screen was to log in to gmail... then only i get to the blogger Dashboard...
the it finally struck me... from the blogger start menu itself if i just type in my gmail username and pass, then can get here aldy... swt... luckily no one knows i've been logging in twice every session for almost 2 months(haha.. till now) well... i don't think i'm the only one... i'm sure there are others...

new comp

i have.... it...
after much trials and tribulations...
it is now in my room...
it is good... it is good...
it is...
my new computer!! ^^

was feeling quite noob-like when i just got back from low yat earlier actually after getting the pc... cos' i knew i shud hav checked everything b4 leaving... and last nite i was actually berating myself for not bargaining wif the pc guy, and for getting "tricked" into getting a 290 bucks casing when it could have easily have been 90 bucks... and was quite occupied with thinking how to get hold of an original MS Office... i'm quite broke... and i don't really want to ask my dad for more money to get Office (which outrageously goes for cheapest at RM411 for the teacher's edition .. o_O) but complaints aside... i'm quite satisfied with what i have... would have prefered to have it a little cheaper, but what's done is done...

but i've learnt that i'm extremly noob-like when it comes to buying stuffs... not just computer stuff... i'm the type of guy whom if u tell me any price i'll just take it as it is without asking further... heh, easy to bluff but well... luckily doctors are "well respected"... so in the future b4 buying anything just do a bit of small talk and say i'm dr. maybe will be getting discounts anyway... and then ppl think doctors are smart so they won't dare to bluff me...

yeah rite -_-

just to be

the past few weeks have been kinda weird for me actually...
besides the fact that i'm really free...
some things have actually been bothering me...
ever since last month when i was absent from church for almost a month due to holidays and seremban stuff, i've been wondering what it would be like to live life as a non christian... the idea seems appealing honestly...
cos' among others... i wouldn't have to concern myself with the problems of the church, i wouldn't have to behave in a way as to please other ppl, wouldn't have to care about wat other ppl do, wouldn't have to wake up early on sunday morning...
i'm kind of a easy going guy... i really hate responsibility, and throughout the years when i was president of TU, there were good times, bad times, lonely times... but i always knew one thing..
it was always like wearing a shirt that doesn't quite fit... like doing a job you're not good at doing... cos' the burden of responsibility really weighs heavily on my mind...
so the past month when i was able to "let it all go".. it was really, a relief... i almost swear that i woke up smiling on that first sunday morning away from church...

since then, i've really been considering living life "away" from church...i've been in a way considering "backsliding"... in a way.. it wasn't helped that the first sunday i got back, i was asked to 1. teach in sunday school the following ; 2. play for worship 2 weeks from then ; 3. prepare a coming TU program... heh, so much for church not just being about serving...

well.. to a cut a long post short...
i think i finally found my answers...
i've not decided to fall out of church... in fact i'm think i'm gonna stay on and serve in what ever way i can...
i can't remember what it was that triggered it actually... but as i struggled with this question... i think i realized that we serve not out of duty or obligation... but out of gratitude...
gratitude... my cross may seem heavy to me... but i bear it all the same because of He who bore His before me...
we are called first and foremost, just to BE christian by recieving from God... it is when we realize how much we have recieved that then we tell others how much we have recieved, and we then serve the people around us in whatever way we can because Jesus Himself humbled himself to serve us first...
but i suppose what we always forget when we lose sight of the prize ahead is that we are called first and foremost just to be... just to sit at his feet to recieve from Him first...

driving

heh... lately my sister has been asking my mum, dad and me to let her drive...
i discovered i'm not as patient as i thought...
almost every other time she changes gear i'm alredi thinking...
faster lah... faster...
cut that car...
gear 4, gear 4... then gear 5...

lolz... learning how to sit in the slow seat nowadays...

yay~~~~....

yay... i finally finished the brood wars last mission...
wow... i feel so...
accomplished...
strange... i took almost a week of loading and reloading to finish the stupid mission and now i don't even feel vaguely satisfied...
hmm...
i don't think i'll ever conquer the world... i wonder if evil geniuses ever realize that once they conquer the world they'll have nothing to do...
it'd be like finishing the last mission that can ever be accomplished and then...
and then have nothing to do... swt
why would anyone even want to conquer the world i wonder...
i wonder what someone who has conquered the world do the day after his magnificent victory...

sleep in?

it's up

yes... it's up...
new template... all fully 100% of it, done with blogger v2...
quite cool actually the template editor now... makes things much more easier...
problem would be ofcourse... nth beats hands on html code editing for freedom of adjusting...
but well... i suppose i'll settle for a "normal" blog look... seeing as i'm a tad lazy to edit scripts now...
so... links are updated, some have been removed, some added... umm... now i have a description... kinda lah... and yeah... everything's working... even the history :) (which i think, in the old template didn't work...)

and amazingly... fengko managed to discover my blog whilst it was under construction while i was out for lunch... hmm... ok-la.. lunch was a bit long today, and i came back to sleep after that...

...

after i think 2-3 weeks of hols...
it's official...
i've run out of things to do...
i've also kinda run out of money to do things which led me to run out of things to do...
i've also bcome BORED... which kinda led to run out of money to do things.. which in turn led me to run out of things to do...
haiz.. life is a viscous cycle...
wat to do, wat to do...

heh, i was just browsing around and i posted this in sueyi's blog... which i think quite appropriately describes my current and future(for 1 month) state of affairs...

it's over

it's over...

and like Sam says at the end of the novel...

"I'm home"

almost there

we're almost there...
just a little bit more...
and it'll all seem like a dream...
and we'd have arrived at the end...
the end of the beginning...
before we all move our separate (or not so seperate) ways...

it has been a blessing, an honour and a privelege to have been in the class of M204... some of my sweetest memories have happened in the short 2 n half years that have passed...
i have been reminded especially over the period of this week as i faced EOS5...
that i stand tall, not by my own two feet... but because i stand on the shoulders of the giants around me... my batchmates who have been the ultimate help in studies as we support each other... and my church friends who have been so supportive in prayer throughout this trying period... some prayers came from the most unexpected of people... some, like well made chairs that you know will support you when you need them.. are always there supporting you even before you ask for help... but most of all... i stand tall not because my ability is great or my knowledge is vast... but because i have a good God... a GREAT GOD... on whose shoulders i stand the tallest...

just a little bit more and EOS5 will be end...
and then it'll all be over...
all over...

Christmas- post no.2

ok... this is the SECOND post which appears BEFORE the first post which i typed AFTER the first post... but never mind... if you're smart you'll know what i'm typing... if you're clifford.. you'll probably ask me... but never mind...

this is post is about... CHIST-MAS... which sounds like CHEESE-MAS... hahahaha....
okay.. i found that really amusing cos' CHEESE was also born in a manger, is also good for everyone... and can be found on pizzas...
ok.. this is just the meaningless counterpart to the meaningful post down below...
but... i really find CHISTMAS really funny...

Christmas- post no.1

ok... because of my blogger template... this post will appear at the bottom... but none the less...
THIS is the FIRST Christmas post which PRECEDES the one AFTER this which actually appears BEFORE this... ok... now the the crappy stuff is done...

this christmas is one of my less "happening" christmases... but i think... one of my more meaningful ones... this morning woke up early to go for my fren's christmas mass... i think the very act of waking up early before everyone else and going out in the early morning christmas air helps to reflect on christmas... and also the fact that i don't have to rush for service to be pianist or PA... so even as today began it was already.. nice... to just sit and listen(like mary)... instead of rushing about doing stuff (like martha)...
have you ever been to a catholic service... i think everyone should at least once... Christian denominations i was thinking earlier this morning face two extremes... either ritualism which pushes God to a distance or spontaniety and informality which brings God nearer... canaan i think is kinda moving towards informality, and i realized that although we make God more relevant to people... we run the risk of making God a bit "too close" to the extent that the Value of meeting God is kinda lost... where as in a catholic church where almost the entire service is already pre-ordained, although we run the risk of making God distant and running rituals just for the sake of running them, i realized that if run with a correct understanding of why things are done.. we actually honor and respect God.. as God and not some "guy" that we can come how and if we want...
on christmas especially, when we remember how God who once was far chose to come near... i think it's good that we remember how awesome the God who is contained in baby Jesus is...

meaning of life...

i was just wasting time online...
came home from library and didn't really feel like continuing studying...
when i came across this...
it's quite... interesting and cool... and weird...
it's from yahoo... and i came across it while mindlessly surfind around...
basically i just wanna waste some more time by posting some mindless internet surf...

but still... it is a little thought provoking... more of interesting actually to see what the world at large thinks...

here are some excerpts... the site is here...

This is the supposed "best" answer... it's a bit long... so i'll just give u up to about 30 words...

A question that has been asked so many times in so many ways.There is no finite answer that human beings at this level would be absolutely satisfied with, because any answer would only lead to another question.
More why's, but...what..how?

it's really long... if u really wanna read it go check out the site..

here's more shorter and more interesting answers...
i think this is the bane of the internet... no one's interested in substance anymore... just bright lights will do... and not too many of it...

By, popsicle

hard to describe
but life is like a hamburger with everything on it
there are parts i like
and parts i just wanna get through
but overall the hamburger is good
*nice... but a bit like Forrest Gump*

By, Brian

According to the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, it is 42.
*lol... first entry to get me smiling*

By, ssendaj

Ah! The meaning of life! The human experience is the single thing that ties all of us together. You should read some of the basics existentialism; satre, nietzche. Also absurdism; Albert Camus, in the Myth of Sisyphus, ponders if life is worth living. Though a seemingly depressing notion, Camus argued that the only way to find true meaning is to free oneself of presupposed notions of fate. It's really great stuff. Life is a wonderous thing and the universe is full of possibilities!
*wat?? *

i found it mildly interesting that amongst over 20 replies to this question... 4 were religious...
3 christian (kinda).. and one buddhist i think.. Dharma is buddhist rite?... the other's were mainly... fun answers... but most of the answers as well as the longer answers... consisted of probably atheistic ppl trying to promote their belief or rather.. un-belief in God... strange, but i realized that if the tables were turned... and it were the religious ppl trying to persuade others to see things from their point of view ppl would ask...
"Why do you have to force everyone to believe wat you believe in?"
but since its coming from some one who "doesn't believe in anything"... heh, i guess it's "okay" to "persuade" someone to "not believe" in anything, but it's bad to persuade someone to believe in something... hmm...

christmas shopping

did my christmas shopping today...
hmm... and lost one whole day of studying... hmm...
rushing to try to finish everything b4 christmas... but it looks impossible by the moment...
hmm... suddenly seems like got so much to do...

oh yeah... although i did my christmas shopping but its... rushed...
so.. if you didn't get a present from me, its not bcos' i don't like you...
its cos' i'm... rushed...
yeah...

not sick

heh.. umm.. don't really have much to post...
this is more of a "counter-post"
just to avoid any misunderstanding...
i'm not sick no more now..

scik

hmm... diarrhea+emesis last nite...
not feeling too good today...
haiz... but don't have time to be sick... lest than 30 days to EOS...

life.. and exams

hmm... i realized today... how much exams and IMU have taken from my life...
i was thinking back on today, and i realized that so much stuff that i used to do with all my heart has almost lost meaning and just become some to do from day to day..
teaching sunday school, which i used to enjoy... has just become something to get over with from 930 to 1030 every sunday...
followed up almost immediately with PA duty(unescapable... i'm never not on duty somehow) which had become a drag as well..
strange as it may seem... today during VBS graduation service, PA was hectic as usual, but as things slowed down, Noel n Ju Liang appearing from no where to suddenly be in the PA room and help out, as well as yeesan, juping, wengkit suddenly wanting to help out too...
i remembered that PA used to be enjoyable too...
then i began thinking forward more... to TU... yeah, TU had stopped become enjoyable too :... and then just everyday living...

there's more to life than just study, sleep, eat and study... even though time may not seem to be enough... but i've committed exams to God, i suppose i should leave it in His hands and live my life with more to it than just studies...

okay.. so now i've a couple of things on my mind that i want to do in spite of exams...
Get Christmas presents for sunday school students =)
Enjoy my last few TUs
take each day slowly... and do more than just study... to give something to someone everyday...

having said that though... tmr and day after is the LAST 2 DAYS OF LECTURES!!! time flies so fast... (= i hope i don't sleep through it...

christmas

its christmas soon...
and i'm thinking of mei...
heh, i still remember the first time we met up was on boxing day...
haha, and i'm still keeping the card with bad handwriting...

christmas~ ^^

sien

waaa... sien...
3 systems down... 6 to go...
haiz... 305 5UX..

humor n humility

humor- wikipedia describes it as- "the ability or quality of people, objects, or situations to evoke feelings of amusement in other people. The term encompasses a form of entertainment or human communication which evokes such feelings, or which makes people laugh or feel happy."

humility-also by wikipedia, described as- "a quality or characteristic ascribed to a person who is considered to be humble. A humble person is generally thought to be unpretentious and modest: someone who does not think that he or she is better or more important than others. "

today i was thinking about humor and humility... and i realized that... a lot of, if not most or all of humor involves putting down and laughing at something, someone, an object, an animal... i was thinking... fun and funny as it is... is all we can laugh at the faults or others? and then did Jesus laugh at others? did he... have a sense of humor? does humility and humor go together?
hmm... i'm not saying its wrong to have a sense of humor, but i was just wondering... and heh, no... i don't have any answers... i was just wondering...

The story of the futsallers in Score Arena

the story of the futsallers in Score Arena

For the kingdom of heaven is like a group of futsallers who agreed to play in Score Arena at 230pm after church. Well, so at 230 there were 4 ppl... by about 245, there were 7... and the 7 ppl waited till 3... and still there were 7... and by 315 there were still 7... There were supposed to be at least 11 ppl who agreed to come. 1 said he would be coming late being busy with matters in church. Another was taking care of his sick mother at home and also said he would be late. Of the other 2 there was no news... So being disappointed and such they decided to close the court and just go home and pay up the 50 bucks. However at about 330pm... one hour from the agreed time... the people gradually turned up. And so they played futsal till almost 430pm. And when the time came to pay up, those that arrived earlier had to pay more because they had played for longer, and those that arrived later.. almost 12 bucks. Those that came late, managed to get away with paying less, the last person that came that played for about 20 minutes and got away with paying about 3 bucks. And so those that arrived earlier began to grumble(ok la, just one person), "Next time want to come say come la, don't want to come say don't come la, don't say i'll come later then don't know whether you're coming or not" ; "Like this if everyone also come late then come early for wat? If everyone come late then who come earlier pay the extra for you ah, then mah u very untung everytime also come late"; "I pay 2-3x the amount of money you pay and you get to play for almost as long as me, what's this la."

So then on the way home.. the Owner of All the Futsal Courts in the world said to one of them who complained (there was only one anyway). "Friend, I am not being unfair to you. Didn't you agree to play with those people and for that amount of time? I want to give the man that came late the same amount of fun as you did. Don't i have the right to do what i want with my futsal courts and the joy that i give to everyone? Or are you envious because I am generous?"

"So the last will be first, and the first will be last."

yeah... this is an allegory of The Parable Of The Workers In the Vineyard(cool... and allegory of a parable) in Matthew 20:1-16. It happened today after futsal lah... and heh, in my head lah... the stuff up there is mostly true-la... including the part where the Greatest Owner of all futsal courts in D world(GOD), although that wan i added my imagination a bit to match wat's in the bible...

but yeah, if what the God said to me was the first thing that struck me, i realized 2 other things also as i wrote this blog entry

- in our service, let us not be so proud as to think we are the saviours of the world. It is only by God's grace and mercy that we accomplish anything, like wise, it is by God's grace and mercy that we are saved too, n in His grace n mercy He chooses to use us to accomplish his purpose in this world.

-Let us always remember that we not serving man but God, who IS our Master. Thus even if we DO have to pay more and play less, it is His right to demand it from us.

- Let us not think also that we're superior to the people whom we serve are the only ones who supposedly benefit from our service. It is not just US who are sent to THEM, but THEY too who were sent to us. The youth i serve probably have thought me MORE than i have or ever will teach them.

what to say...

there are times when u don't wanna talk... and suddenly everybody seems to want to talk...

and there are sometimes you meet with situations where u really wanna talk... but u just can't think of the words... sometimes, it isn't the vocabulary that limits you... but more of... just not knowing what to say... heheh, and yeah... come to think of it... it does happen during prayer too- which i pretentiously cover up by just muttering some standard thing that comes to mind...
hmm.. but then, ironically, in conversations with real ppl... there's no such option to "cover up"... i mean... u can't just say.. "oh, it's a sunny day"... where as in prayer u can just say.. "i commit such and such a matter into your hands"... which is really bad lah...

on the other hand...
sometimes i really wish conversations were easier to hold... or start...

anti-social

hmm... i don't think of myself generally as an antisocial person...
wah... but lately i've been indulging in antisocial tendencies, bordering on hermit-like..lolz :P
haih... last saturday was invited to a birthday party for timothy... didn't go, cos' wanted to study... truthfully actually in the end didn't study much... ok, make that at all... i got as far as taking out my notes only...
n i'm not joining carolling this year.. haven't played futsal for 2 weeks (oh, but this wan really is bcos' of money problems)... but yeah... seem to be getting hermit-like tendencies...
hmm... have to get up and get out...

andrew's birthday

hmm... andrew's birthday is tomoro... i mean... at the time of publishing this entry, it would be "today" 28/10... umm... andrew is a great friend... it's hard to get another like him...
he's fun to be around... sometimes a bit gullible...helpful, but he's... a good guy.. a really good guy..
but anyway... this post isn't just about andrew... it's about... andrew's birthday..
somehow over the past week i got unknowingly appointed to be "organizer" of andrew's birthday...
anyways... i thought the best way to organize a birthday would be to ask the person we're celebrating... in this case.. andrew...
so he said... don't want present and just go somewhere simple can alredi, like kawan place (Ye Lok Restaurant opposite The Store)...
umm... over a few days, i confirmed and reconfirmed with him... to be quite sure that's what he wanted...
so when i spread the word that there was no present and it was just gonna be a simple celebration.. hmm... response was... mixed to say the least...
but by and large... response was that... Are you sure? no-lah, andrew doesn't deserve something so simple... let's get him a present, let's go somewhere "better"...
not to say that that's bad... i mean... everyone wanted wat's best for andrew and to make him happy... but at a certain point i began thinking... uhh... is this wat YOU want or wat HE wants? how come wat HE wants seems to not really matter...

i realized that sometimes we project our expectations of wat we think is better on to other ppl even though that may not be wat they want...
like birthdays... true.. we try to get wat we think will make that person happy.. but sometimes we forget that what's most important isn't what we think will make him happy but wat the person himself wants..
oh...
and i never realized that organizing birthdays were so troublesome... maybe its partly bcos' ppl like andrew and i are more "straight" and simple minded...

mooseek n other stuffs

i consider myself a guy with a pretty eclectic taste for music...
my brother loves classical, i think a bit of that rubbed off on me... that's why almost any piece with at least SOME strings or a cool brass part tugs at me... but the best music has to be music with a rich and FILLING(for lack of a better word)...

on the other hand, i listen to a lot of pop.. yeah, the sort you listen to on the radio and everywhere... and there are some songs that are not bad... so yeah, pop kinda appeals to me too... although not in the boyband kinda way (although when bekstritboiz comes on the radio and it's something i like i might find myself humming along)

and lately the music scene worldwide features alot of heavy.. rappish, R&B, hip-hop stuff... hmm... of all genres, this appeals least to me... but still... there are a few songs in this category that... umm... are worth listening to...

oh yeah, i play music in church to... and i think Sister Act rox(i learnt the word eclectic from there)... so gospel, CCM and even hymns appeal to me... but yet, not all... cos' like any other genre... there are... umm... not so good music christian music lah... i mean... all music sung for God glorifies him... but... after the 10th planet shakers and hillsongs piece... umm... i think you know wat i mean...

hmm... let's see... basically i'm the kind of person with no "band" loyalty or anything like that... so i tend to listen to anything and everything... did i mention i love japanese anime music too... some remixes are cool.. i also think that 105.7 is a better radio station than 92.9... i may not agree with the lyrics but eminem has rapped some that is good to hear... OSTs from movies i've watched and liked definitely appeal to me (esp disney :P, i think this is also part of the classical thing from my bro - liking music that is just instrumental and without words)... fort minor lately has come out with some good stuff... daniel powter is super overplayed but, heard once in a while, can be good... oh yeah, Alanis Morisette, Goo goo Dolls, The Cranberries, MLTR, Eric Clapton, James Brown, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Green Day, Nat King Cole, Victor Wooten, L'Arc~en~Ciel, Stevie Wonder, Mary J. Blige, Jewel, Karyn White, Micheal Buble... you see... the problem is that i like a LOT of music... but have no favourites... thus i tire very quickly of listening to the same band/artist...

it's precisely because of this that i don't buy much albums... cos.. yeah, it get's boring... compilations work better.. slightly.. cos' compilations tend to be with the same type of music...
so basically.. i like singles, but not artists... hope you get the idea...

heh, my problem is that i recently aquired a whole load of music... or am going to acquire soon, a whole load of music from a hermit (bit by bit).. well, heh... hopefully i can separate the good from the BEST.. cos' i really don't like to listen to... good music... i only like GREAT stuff... hahah, it's a good problem though :P

oh... i found a cool artist's site Gabeart... i liked drawing dragonball when i was a kid... even now when my mind super wanders i still like to draw a bit... i kinda enjoying getting lost in my own brain..

oh yeah, i'm kinda on raya hols now... that's why i have time to blog abt music n stuff... heh, nice break from medicine =)

of frens and hermits

heh... my last post was on stress...
so this post... i found out what the best way to beat stress is...

strange, it isn't dotA... i mean, dotA relieves for a while but, i've realized it never lasts, cos' like... after dotA, u still have to go back to study and bcos' of the time you spent on dotA... yadda yadda, cycle repeats itself...

oh yeah, anyways... wat relieves stress is... friends :)...
yah, corny rite... but yeah, for lasting stress relief... nothing beats being able to just talk about... hmm... nothing? or maybe, something?... doesn't really matter... i think it's the talking...
so.. hmm.. actually if i enjoy talking to the wall, that theoretically should cure stress too... heh, don't know... not stressed enuff yet to have psychosis...

oh ya... and hermits make good frens strangely enuff i discovered:P... and they're good backup when like.. you've gotten dumped or have no one to sit with or talk to or have dinner with...
budden, because they're so good "backup", i shouldn't take them for granted and sometimes spend more time with them hermits :>

heh... umm... it's doubtful that anyone will understand wat the second part of this post is talking about... but, it's about hermits... so, who cares... as long as the hermits understand...

stress cycle

stress is a viscous cycle...
when you are stressed... wait, no you can't start with being stressed, something has to "stimulate" it...
anyways... when you didn't study because of various reasons... dota, imu activities (besides dota), birthday celebration, church activity... so you get left behind in studies...
when you're left behind in studies, then you get stressed...
when you're stressed, you look for ways to relieve stress, i.e.- dota, imu activities (including dota), birthday celebration, church activity...so you get left behind in studies...
when you're left behind in studies, then you get stressed...
haha... repeat viscous cycle over and over again until nervous breakdown ensues...
then stress level is reset to 0 until recovery occurs...
then repeat cycle from beginning again...

yay... enjoy the stress...

M204

Marcus Aurelius: There was a dream that was Rome. You could only whisper it. Anything more than a whisper and it would vanish, it was so fragile.

Gladiator (2000)

There was a dream that was M204. It was barely a dream, a mere fragment of a dream... It was so fragile you couldn't even think about it... anything more then a moment's thoughts on it and it would vanish it.. don't even speak it out for it would break apart at the mere mention of the dream...
Everywhere we go, people all around us look and wonder... who are these people, that break the records of sports in IMU cup, that break the records for studies and examinations, that break the records for kindness, charity and activities within and without IMU.. who are these... champions?

Today, we the batch of M204, will be crowned champions of the IMU Cup... AGAIN... for the first time in IMU history... a batch has succesfully won the IMU cup in sem 3 and defended it in sem 5... who are we?... we, are M204, the batch of legends, the batch that there will never ever be another like it, the batch that makes history... but most of all... we are a batch of friends... a batch... of unity... that is why, that is how and that is for whom we have succeeded...

Go M204, Sem 5's of 2006...
Fight like champions, win like champions...
And all the rest can go fly kite..

Haha... cool post eh... emma, ask hailiang if he wants to put this in convo mag lah... this was a moment of inspiration...

Legacy

i haven't posted songs in quite a while, but its never too late to start again...
this song... it's meaningful...

Legacy- Nichole Nordeman


I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me
And I enjoy an accolade like the rest
And you can take my picture and hang it in a gallery
Of all the Who's Who's and So-and-So's
That used to be the best at such and such
It wouldn't matter much

I won't lie, it feels alright to see your name in lights
We all need an "Atta boy" or "Atta girl"
But in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides
The temporary trappings of this world

I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love?
Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace
Who blessed Your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy

I don't have to look too far or too long awhile
To make a lengthy list of all that I enjoy
It's an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
Where moth and rust, thieves and such will soon
enough destroy

I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love?
Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace
Who blessed Your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy

Not well-traveled, not well-read
Not well-to-do, or well-bred
Just want to hear instead
Well done, good and faithful one

I want to leave a legacy
How will they remember me?
Did I choose to love?
Did I point to You enough
To make a mark on things
I want to leave an offering
A child of mercy and grace
Who blessed Your name unapologetically
And leave that kind of legacy

I don't mind if you've got something nice to say about me

CNS

hmm... this is too fast for me...
it seems like only last week that we started MSK, and now it's CNS alredi...
too fast, too fast...
well... susah lah... end of year's coming up... EOS coming up... and everybody seems to want me to do something in december... christmas, wedding, PA... alamak...
examlah... can't i just... study...
cis... now i sound like nerd...

anyway, to increase my nerdiness... i've found a website that let's you read books for free... of course... it's books older than 70 years whose copy right has... luputed... yah... books like.. Gray's Anatomy (yalah, applies to medic student only) The Complete Works of Shakespeare... ala, all those olden classic with english that sounds like tamil... heh, currently reading Pilgrim's Progress... but... progress is slow...
come on... who comes online to read books...

choices

to be human is to live with choices...
when we make choices that lead to sin... we become less than human...
when we make choices that lead to God... we become more than human...

the very thing that characterizes humanity is our ability to live and to make choices...
sometimes those choices may be wrong... sometimes they may be right... but to be human is to have the freedom to make those choices...
Thus, each choice we make is an opportunity... either to glorify God, or to sin and glorify ourselves... temptations, can then can be seen as opportunities to glorify God, and not situations that force us into sin... it is curious, that we sometimes we only learn how to make right choices... after we've made the wrong one...

no-one can be forced into making a choice that they don't wish to.. circumstances and people may make us think otherwise, but freedom of choice is something that we can only take away from ourselves... if we choose to...

found

oh... heh.. i found my watch... it was at home all the while...
besides that, i also found some other stuff that had been missing for a while...
like my "fake" ID tag, Joe's wedding invitation card...
hmm... getting absent minded lately leaving stuff around and not remembering where i put it...
age? studies? too much on my mind? maybe i just need...a diary...

feeler post

my watch is missing :(... i last remember it at TU on saturday... where is it??
come back to me watch... you're not old enough to go missing yet... it's only been a year...
yeah... this is a filler post

school

hmm.... classes start tomoro... about 17 hours from now -_-...
on the one hand... it's gonna be fun seeing everyone again...
on the other hand... money's gonna start flowing out like nobody's business..
and... on the other hand... hehe, it means that i'll start being busy and start having things to do besides read wikipedia entries for X-men, Israel vs. Palestine, MAtrix, Che Guevara and various other topics... which i've been doing for the past week...

hmm... but really... i think this system (MSK) will be quite a killer system... haiz... and i don't think i'm gonna have much time to study...this week itself i'm out on monday(joint birthday celebration), tuesday(christmas committee meet), wed (CF and YA), thursday(ahh... finally a free day), friday (worship practice), saturday sunday don't saylah...
hopefully subsequent weeks will be less... but that's not likely, what with IMU cup coming up, orientation... and watever else...
haiz... will need some help getting thru MSK...

stah-lite seeneemar

well... i went starlight cinema last nite...
it was a... umm... a different experience...
here are the pros and the cons...as compared with the average GSC cinema
CONS
1. no comfortable chairs
2. wet grass
3. can't lean back because no comfortable chairs
4. no stars (unlike what was advertised).. it's called STAR light cinema
5. no light (unlike what was advertised).. it's called star LIGHT cinema
6. no air con
7. got ants on the ground
8. no armrest because no comfortable chairs
9. got ppl smoking
10. got children talking about
11. ppl walk in front of you
12. have to sit on newspaper, mats and towel because no comfortable chairs
13. there was this fat dude who was lying on his back msging and i was distracted by him because i started wondering... why on earth did you pay to come here and msg, i mean like... don't you want to WATCH THE MOVIE??... but he actually wasn't doing anything to bother me...
14. basically... the lack of comfortable chairs is my main complaint because... why would anyone want to watch a movie without a COMFORTABLE CHAIR??

PROS
umm... okay, quite frankly i couldn't think of any... but at the end there was this bird or bat or some animal that flew past us... so... umm.. yah, i think the only pro would be..
1. can see animal flying after movie -_-

reflections on mission trip

i just came back from mission trip... as daniel n leena asked me how it was, i realized i couldn't really put it into words on the spot... only now an appropriate
word comes to mind...mission trip was...
a humbling experience...
humbling for the way God can use me
humbling for the grace we recieved from a "so-called-lesser" people
humbling for the lessons God can teach us through mighty men of God who choose a harder and more hidden road
i suppose it would be good to go through what happened during mission trip step by step...first of all was the initial excitement when i signed up for this mission trip.. the excitement of that after all these years of being a christian, i'm finally able to
have an *opportunity to proclaim the sweet name of Jesus.. the excitement that i'm finally "going forth to make disciples of all nations"however, then came the briefings on what would actually happen... and the excitement began to give way to fear... not fear of discomfort(haha... i can
proudly say i'm not one to fear discomfort and mere physical hardships like sleeping on the floor and eating weird food and no "real" toilets) but rather... fear
of the unknown, cos' the more i was briefed on wat to expect, the more i didn't know what to expect, not because the briefings weren't detailed... but
because everything suddenly seemed so uncertain... there were concerns of *police n Jabatan Orang Asli trouble, so we couldn't do stuff like simply give even kids anything bcause if reported, they it would be
assumed that we were "bribing" the villagers into believing in Jesus, it also seemed at first that we would have to go around everywhere in long pants and
not be able to wear shorts bcos' the villagers can't culturally accept shorts(this DID seem weird coming from people who normally go about with nothing or
next to nothing except a loincloth)...but heheh, thankfully this was cleared up that we were only required to wear long pants during services because the
pastor there (Pastor Henry) wanted to encourage the villagers to were appropriate clothings during service, and we were to be examples... uncertainties of
how the people would respond to us, cos' most don't even understand BM, uncertainties of even whether we would be able to stay in the village bcos' as we
learnt, the penghulu has absolute say on whether you're allowed to stay or if he doesn't like you, the you have to leave before evening comes,.. and we
were told the penghulu is a fierce man... so well, i think this fear freaked me out the most... oh yeah... and i was also quite worried about having to pray non
-stop for the 6-hour journey from KL to Grik having never prayed for more than even half an hour before...and i kept on having a nagging fear that we hadn't
prepared enough... especially when we only started learning what our purpose of going there was and what we were going to do there only less than a
week before going...anyway, when mission trip came... heh, well... I learned God works in miraculous ways as long as there are willing hearts and hands to be used...amazingly, i wasn't sleeping throughout the 6 hour journey... we actually DID pray and worship God from KL to Grik and even almost until we reached to
village (heh... actually i fell asleep during the last hour or half hour before reaching Grik, but we continued praying and singing even after that until we almost
reached the village and i fell asleep again ;P) although i found this to be extremely amazing, but i wouldn't think much of it until something i learnt of how
effective our prayers were at the end of the mission trip... anyway, i DID find it an excellent way to start leaving behind and forgetting the our troubles and
problems in our family, church... whatever...and start focusing on God and kinda like moving into "God-mode"...we were welcomed warmly by the pastor and his wife, and things initially seemed quite relaxing as we thought we had nothing to do till evening when we
thought we were supposed to go for a service held by the Jehai orang asli for us(we also thought we didn't have to do anything during the service)...
however God reminded us of why we were there as within an hour of resting, the pastor asked us what we had prepared for the women's ministry(we
initially were told we didn't have to prepare anything for them).. this was at 3 and the women's ministry starts at 4... anyway, we hastily put together a short
program for the women... oh yeah... there were only about 5 women who turned up, but a ton of children came along as well.. cos' even though most of the
mothers were less than 18 years old, most would already have about 4-5 kids... there was a grandmother there who couldn't have been more than 30 or
40...so there we were, trying to lead them in worship and tell them the Noah story in our half past six malay, which they couldn't really understand... but
praise God, we got through and we realized that i realized we REALLY need God's help if we're gonna do ANY communicating for the rest of the trip...anyway, this first "service" was actually a good thing although we weren't prepared, cos'... cos' it was from here that we found out how the orang asli would
respond to us and how much they actually understand what we were talking... cos' the people there don't actually understand BM, they speak their own
tribal language which would be Jehai or Tomiah.. and actually very few of the women understood us... so... most of the first day was actually spent preparing for the next day... planning what we would actually do and stuff like that... during the service, thank
goodness... Ps. Henry understandingly did a service for the Jehai although he had thought we would be the ones doing it.. as it turned out, normally their
service was on that day, and the service we were organizing for the next day, wasn't their normal service day... anyway, besides introducing ourselves... it
was pretty uneventful... besides having bak kut teh wild boar for dinner and getting used to "village" life :P...
come the next day, things did begin as planned but as it went on, it became evident that things weren't running by our own power, but by God's...the children's ministry program, which we had planned.. went amazingly well, partly because we were beginning to adjust to speaking malay after the
"testing" service with the women, but... i think mostly because some of the kids had gone to school before, but mainly becuase through God's guidance...
some of the kids had come for the yesterday's women's ministry following their mum's and we had gotten to know some of them... in the afternoon we went
for a picnic at the river with the pastor, his family and some of the orang asli there, but that passed pretty uneventfully, but helped us to understand the way
of life the orang asli there go through and how they make a "living"- catching fish and relying on the forest to give them everything they need- leaves for
plates, wood for fire...but it was during that night that i really saw God move... through our simple sketch, worship and testimonies... we saw people really responding during the
worship, and as i wrapped up the sketch and gave my own testimony, i found it amazing that BM words were just flowing out of my mouth like english and
the people were really listening intently... i really praise God and i pray that the service helped the Orang Asli there to understand what Christianity is
about... after the service, we prayed for the Pastor and his family and their ministry amongst the orang Asli and it was just amazing listening to the pastor
tell stories of the difficulties he has come through with the police and JOA, obstacles amongst the villagers like misunderstanding and difficulties
communicating with them... it was also during then that we learnt that normally, most groups who go there for mission trips, get questioned by the police...
but amazingly, the police had come a few days earlier than us and missed us... so i really found this amazing, bcos' it just showed that God HAD answered
our prayers and protected us even as we were making our way to the orang asli village.... Praise God...
the next day, was pretty rushed as we woke up pretty late and got packing, but there was one last stop at another village to kinda repeat the service... i
was actually quite relaxed and i had gotten into the "get it over and be done with" mood as i knew at we would be a bit rushing as we had to start moving
soon to get back to KL not too late as it was a six hour journey... but God was again reminding me to grab every opportunity to reach out and try to make an
impact even at this last stop... and even though i did not really "say anything" during this service, but i felt God move through the other team members
testimonies during the service... and during the boat rides i got to know this teenager- Indra, whom even from the first night i feel God was introducing to
me... during the first night after the service he taught me how to play their traditional bamboo instrument, and the next day we played football together, and
through my feeble attempts to communicate with him, i feel i and gary got to know him a little better... will be praying for him everyday in the hope that he
comes to the knowledge and saving grace of Jesus Christ.. will also be sending back pictures we took with him...heh, i just realized that every contact with
him was not through anything i did, but through God using Gary.... both the first night, it was he who initiated Indra teaching us to play their bamboo
instrument and the next day, it was he who looked for the football to play with him... heh, i merely followed after through God's guiding although i didn't
know it at the moment..
heh... well, it's been an awesome mission trip and an experience...being used by God, it's really a high that no dotA game can give you...oh yeah, that high continued today as i shared in my sunday school class about how important it is to tell others about Christ and the difficulties some people
are willing to endure for Jesus sake... i was sharing about the girl who converted to Christianity from Islam and wanted to change her IC and by the end of
the lesson, Mark was asking to pray for that girl so that if the courts allow her to be a christian, then he can go tell his Malay friends to convert to Christianity too
:P... praise God...

heh... wah... super panjang gila... congrats if you made it thus far... heh, but i believe this is just scratching the surface on how God can use people... i still believe that if i were more obedient, God could have used me even more... but opportunities knock everyday, all God needs are open hearts and willing hands... Glory to God...

holidays

:) i'm on a 2 week break... hmm... most of the guys in IMU are back in their hometowns... so over here, it's just us KL ppl left behind to spend the holidays... strangely enough, there are some "outsiders"... vickie's apparently not going back... kexin n christina i think are gonna be around during the weekends cos' they're doing part-time... but well... see how it goes, but holidays in IMU without anyone around isn't much fun :...

anyways... going for mission trip on thursday till saturday...
i was initially very looking forward to it... until the briefings took place...
and we suddenly seemed very unprepared... with children's programme to do, drama to prepare, bm to learn- cos' we have to speak in bm, pray in bm, worship in bm, tell jokes in bm, think in bm... basically bm-ize our entire life for 3 days...
hmm... and suddenly the threat of being chased out of the village by doing something culturally wrong seemed like a very real possibility :P...

if we hold on together

Diana Ross- If We Hold On Together
music from the not-so-original-soundtrack of The Land Before Time (that dinosaur cartoon we watched as kids)...

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away

Words are swaying
Somebody is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For You and I

yay... another nice disney song from the gold( good+old= gold) days when we were kids...
okay, correct me if i'm wrong, but this IS a disney movie rite?

mission: finish that bottle

i'm on selectives now...
selectives is that "brilliant" idea of IMU to waste one month of our time studying a subject that we supposedly have the freedom to choose from... which in reality isn't, cos' the choice of subject is pending availability.... so of course, what happens is that the kiasu-er ppl in class rush to the front to pass up the forms while "cooler" ppl at the back benches like ME, stay cool and wonder what's the rush all about...
all this of course happens until selectives actually start and you're stuck wif a crappy subject like BS... which is Behavioural Studies... haiz... one month of crappy classes... i which i could say more about the crappy classes... but... it's crappy...
oh yeah, add to that it's thot by crappy lecturers... not crappy as in funny crappy, but boring and senseless crappy...

ehhneeway...
to make the best of a boring selective, one of our projects is to modify behaviour... our own...
so the behaviour i'm modifying is to increase my fluid intake: read- Drink more Water...
so anyway, i'm now carrying a bottle of water around wif me now... yeah... crappy rite?

disney club

haha... there seems to be some high demand for a DISNEY CLUB...
hmm... i imagine if there really was such a club, everyone must dress up as a disney character...
the agenda of each meeting would be to sing disney songs... haha, that would be weird... a bunch of ppl sitting in mpH 5 singing disney songs... hahahaha... super weird...
and then for special activity to get money for the DISNEY FUND we can do busking in petaling street singing disney songs...
and then we organize annual trips to DISNEYLANDs around the world with the money we manage to collect :P...
haha.. i think a Disney Club would rock...
and imagine... this would the the perfect "family" club... cos' even when you get old you can still bring your kids along...

*reality check- after 2 meetings no one will come cos' it'd get pretty boring...

happiness

when you're still young, you think that stuff and people can make you happy...
which probably explains why most of our birthday wishes and christmas wish lists mostly encompass stuff that we hope people would give us...
i used to want an mp3 player, a new handphone, a digi cam, a lap top, new shoes, clothes... cool stuff that i still wish i could get for birthdays and christmases..haha...
but then as i discovered when i first got my first phone, that fun stuff stays fun... only for a while... some longer than others but eventually, the novelty fades and stuff just remains... stuff...
so as i get older... i begin to have new wish lists for birthdays and christmases...
things like... dinner with family and friends at home, mamak to talk over stuff, simply put... just time to spend with ppl close to my heart...
haha, not that i would reject stuff from the first list, or not that stuff from the first list aren't wanted anymore... but... well, sometimes what you want is just some time to "be" instead of time to "do"...

oh yeah, the reason for this post i cos i'm really looking forward to the singapore trip that my family is taking over the weekend for my bro's graduation... strange huh? i'm so looking forward to a weekend away from church... in fact, i think looking forward to this holiday after renal today beats any "post-exam" cc celebration i've looked to ever...
heh, maybe i'm just getting old...

forgotten blog

u know... it's really kinda irritating when u just thot of something that you wanna blog... and then halfway between waiting for the "new posts" page to load and listening to music, it totally slips my mind wat i was thinking about... it's quite like going upstairs to get something from my room, and by the time i've climbed 1 flight of stairs to my room, i've forgotten wat it was that i wanted to get (i hope this isn't indicative of some hidden pathology)...
hmm...
ok, i think i've got it.... i've recently gone on a spate of disney song downloading (which i know is bad, but i've nth much else to do to occupy myself when i don't want to study, maybe i'll just delete them after exams and look for someone who has a disney CD)
but anyway... i'm not talking about piracy... i'm talking about disney songs... there's something about disney songs that're different from other songs... i can't really put my finger down on it... maybe it's the fact that disney songs bring up memories of disney movies from childhood... times when we didn't have to worry about EXAMS (like RENAL this friday), or when our biggest worry was, wat game we were going to play with our cousins at our grandma's house... you know... things like these are generally grouped under the heading [HAPPY THOUGHTS] and stored somewhere back in our cerebral cortex and stimulated to be released by the thoughts gland upon stimulation by some nostalgic stimulation like songs, ppl, smells, places....
oh yeah, anyway... disney songs rox... like this one...

At The Beginning- Pirated soundtrack from the animated feature Anastasia
Sung by Richard Marx and Donna Lewis

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on....
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I wanna going
Love is river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you.

i would have loved to put the music codec here, but as of yet, i can't find any disney music codecs... and i don't really know how to put up songs on the page...let me know if you know how...

futbal

ok... for all practical purposes the only reason, or rather 2 reasons i'm blogging is cos' i just got back to library and i'm looking for excuses not to start studying again... ANDDD... bcos' su chuen dropped by to say that my posts are short... which they are-lah...
ok, i'm so tempted to end this post right here and go look for something else to do...
heheh... eehhhnneeeway...
its not really that i'm so sooooo-per busy that i don't have time to post... more like, nothing much to post about...
anyway... since its world cup season, and since i actually have been spending a lot of my time watching matches or sleeping to recover from watching matches, i think the world cup deserves some mention at least in my blog...
i was quite disappointed that ghana failed to beat brazil... i mean... really... even though, like they're the world champions and ghana is some noob team from africa... but for some reason, i was really hoping that they would defy the odds, bookies, irritatingly noisy brazilian supporters who only support brazil cos' they're winning and many other defyable things to, maybe against all hope, defeat brazil... or at least score a goal-lah...
well, they came close, and they provided some entertaing football... not really by playing it, but by allowing brazil to play it on them... and not for lack of trying, but well... really bcos' of some defending naivete and just plain noobness in front of goal-lah...
but well, it actually really is, quite a imba situation... i mean like, if you've played in your umpteenth world cup, won quite a few, and making it to the quarter's is no big deal for you cos' you actually KNOW what to do... quite frankly, it's not easy for some newcomer who's never played in the world cup or played against a mega professional team in a KNOCKOUT competition(which is way different from playing in a group)... well, life's unfair... the winner's will keep on winning, and the losers will keep on losing...

oh, by the way... in all practicality, germany looks good to win this world cup if they make it past argentina, failing which, argentina will win, failing which... italy(who alredi have a free ticket to the semis) will beat brazil in the semis and proceed to life the world cup... but not brazil... no way... cos' brazil... brazil musn't win... it'll somehow upset the balance of good and evil in the world and precipitate a cataclysmic sequence of events that'll bring about the end of the world...
yah... brazil musn't win... :)

normal life

heh... i'm back to normal life... at least for now... no exams, no busy-ness...
normal life... kinda... :P

stressd

exams on wednesday... haiz... its been quite a while since i've been stressed...

home

yay!!! my sister's coming home :) :)... looking fwd to seeing her after 3 months... yay, yay!!!
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troublesomeness-ities

haiz... my car jammed up last nite...
i had just sent Ding back to vista C and was just about to turn out when suddenly the car refused to budge...
when i revved up the engine and forced it, the car moved... but it dragged the back left tyre...
so anyway, to cut the long story short and so as to not display my ignorance of car knowledge...
it appears that the back left tyre has jammed up... i think it's either the brake locking up or something's stuck between the brake and the tyre...
well, it means that i'm car-less for some time... hopefully not too long...

praise you in the storm

Casting crowns- Praise You in the Storm

I was sure by now God you would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
that it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear your whisper through the rain,
I'm with you
and as your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And i'll praise you in this storm
and i will lift my hands
that you are who you are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
you hold in your hand
you never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise you in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
you heard my cry you raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find you
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear you whisper through the rain
I'm with you
and as your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus

hmm... i've been searching around for a change of song and i finally found something that not only sounds quite good, but is quite meaningful... on the other hand, i'm not going thru a really tough time now, but i think this is a song that needs quite some amount of faith and strength to sing when i actually DO go thru "storms"...